Amen Pooh
i'm also tired of the apologies
especially getting ill
it is here where i can get
my answers
Amen
you take care of you
love
me

More and more

This from my child
Has and is comfortable feeling
like that and I have to keep my
Grandchild away from her
This I cannot allow and have to
explain to my grandbaby a story
Like she's tired and needs sleep
Oh Father
Why
What more
Will there be a new life
A new what
I don't know
The family line will die out
Like a candle lit and it just dies out
It's to painful to watch
What the *u k
What is this that I am doing
Me

Oh Eva,

That is inexcusable and unacceptable. I think I would have been far less tolerant. To behave like that in front of your child?!

What you are doing is fighting your pains and illnesses with dignity while trying to hold together a Family. You are fighting these fights as best you can, and with His Will you can prevail.

Through everything, we are here for you.

Dave.

I Know the suffering of pain that has filled me with fear. The worst were the nightly screams when laying down to sleep at night. Fusion/laminectomy almost nine years ago lessened the screams; but too much pain remained

Fear of the amount of pain medication I take daily; don't see any end to it. As my GI doctor told me; as long as you are on narcotic meds; you will be on Miralax; at least twice a day. This was shortly after removal of rectum in 2012 due to cancer. Do not have bag; but going without a vital part of a normal bodily function eventually leads to pain inside as well as outside. Stomach bulge (like a major league ball) appears to be colon/possible hernia. Additional pain of PN pain of legs and burning ankles and feet.

Don't see any end to all of this; but the one thing that I have and pray Eva too will experience is the love and respect I receive from my three adult children. As much as my body is, at times ready to give up, I know love.

My son gave a toast on Mother's Day which included how as parents we make mistakes; but we don't come into this world with an instruction booklet; we do the best we can. He spoke of the values instilled in them succeeded with them becoming who the are today. (Honest, truth worthy, kind Christian adults). I only wish I could pass this message on to Eva's children. While my body is filled with pain; my heart aches for Eva.


Gerry

Gerry,

You always offer so much despite your excruciating pain and other problems. It raises my heart to hear that your children are so supportive, as it is lowered by Eva's travails - my two daughters are Polar opposites. We all have our struggles and wish only the best for our Loved Ones.

So keep drawing comfort from your family, in giving you strength they, themselves are indirectly helping those you help here.

Be a proud Mother.

Dave.

I too know what it is like to have a child that suffered from cocaine addiction. She has been clean for many years.

At present, my middle child (daughter) is working with others dealing with addiction. She has taken courses and is certified. She has even gone to visit the prison for a few of the younger addicts. She especially works with the parents.

Eva,
Keep praying. Don't feel your life, as far as your children are concerned, is over. As I had mentioned in a previous post. We don't see the whole picture. Eventually, we will.


Gerry

My dear friend

I know you know I know
Thank you for being understanding
I ask my shrink again
What is it with me
And his answer is
You have been through much in life
And I think to myself
Tell me something I don't know
Love
Me

…And he went through 7 years of Training for those Pearls