[Brokenfriend]

I've been worried. What if I loose my case in court? My immediate family(Sister) says she is not going to support me. My doctor says I will probably get SSD in time. I have a lawyer who say's we have a case.

What if I some how don't win my case,and I'm almost out of money. What could I possibly do if that happens? I am so worried. I've been emotionally upset for years,since I was about 13 years old. I've had many doctors. I'm on medications.

I have enjoyed work,and It's fulfilling,and life to me,but now I'm down again. I've had panic attacks,chronic anxiety,pain in my chest from anxiety that goes under my left ribs,and to the left part of my back,and OCD. I may be bipolar. That is a relatively new subject that I've only heard about for 5 years. Some people on this site think that I'm bipolar two.

I'm 55,and been struggling since I was about 13. I was denied SSD my first two requests. Now I have to go to a hearing,with a lawyer. This frightens me. My Dad is to old to help me now. He has helped me all of my life. He is now going blind,and living in a assisted living home. My sister doesn't like me,and she called me resently,and said that she isn't going to support me. What happens if I loose my case? I am very upset,and worried about this. The hearing may not be until next year. It's possible that it will be in December. My Trust Fund is going to be depleted before December. Why are they delaying it,knowing that I can't afford to wait?

I have been publically silent,and have been embarrassed about having this condition. Now I have no choice but to ask,and try to find help. I have gone to Social Services,and I haven't heard from them yet. This scares me. I don't know where I can turn if the system fails me. I dread this. I am being honest. Brokenfriend