[Addy]

I wondered if I should start the next wonder thread as I watched Wonder #229 disappear to the next page!

I wonder if my car will "pass" Air Care today (since I moved back to the city, I'd forgotten we had to pay for this service... AND if the car fails, you can't purchase insurance and therefore can't drive until the car is fixed!) (Newer cars don't have to go thru this testing because they are designed to be cleaner...!)

I wonder why its ALWAYS the guy with little money who seems to pay out the most... after all, if I were rich, I'd simply buy a new car!

I wonder at how much I have learned from participating in this forum ... and how much I appreciate newer friendships (wren, melody, waves, Tom et al) and opportunity to grow! And those friends like Wish, Curious, mistiss, Niki... so many more ... BMW, Dottie... Doodysis... who always check in with us... ok... must stop naming names cuz I ALWAYS forget my people's names... but YOU know who you are!

I wonder if Alffe is finished her papering!

I wonder about Lara and the Mois and Reyn and scrabble and well, so many of us ... and whenever I hear from them, I feel our family is ok.... so, thanks, Alffe, for passing on your news about Lara!

I wonder how Goofy is holding up these days (isn't it amazing and then shocking how many times we think to pick up the phone to call our moms... )

I wonder if Ducky knows I really am amazed at her strength (altho she might not think its so!) as she continues her battle against tobacco addiction...

I wonder about David's son... and whether or not he's reached back to his family...

I wonder at how a beautiful little girl, my grandaughter, has brought together my sons...

I wonder at how she has become my purpose for being...

Addy

[lebelvedere]

Originally Posted by Addy

I wondered if I should start the next wonder thread as I watched Wonder #229 disappear to the next page!

I wonder if my car will "pass" Air Care today (since I moved back to the city, I'd forgotten we had to pay for this service... AND if the car fails, you can't purchase insurance and therefore can't drive until the car is fixed!) (Newer cars don't have to go thru this testing because they are designed to be cleaner...!)

I wonder why its ALWAYS the guy with little money who seems to pay out the most... after all, if I were rich, I'd simply buy a new car!

I wonder at how much I have learned from participating in this forum ... and how much I appreciate newer friendships (wren, melody, waves, Tom et al) and opportunity to grow! And those friends like Wish, Curious, mistiss, Niki... so many more ... BMW, Dottie... Doodysis... who always check in with us... ok... must stop naming names cuz I ALWAYS forget my people's names... but YOU know who you are!

I wonder if Alffe is finished her papering!

I wonder about Lara and the Mois and Reyn and scrabble and well, so many of us ... and whenever I hear from them, I feel our family is ok.... so, thanks, Alffe, for passing on your news about Lara!

I wonder how Goofy is holding up these days (isn't it amazing and then shocking how many times we think to pick up the phone to call our moms... )

I wonder if Ducky knows I really am amazed at her strength (altho she might not think its so!) as she continues her battle against tobacco addiction...

I wonder about David's son... and whether or not he's reached back to his family...

I wonder at how a beautiful little girl, my grandaughter, has brought together my sons...

I wonder at how she has become my purpose for being...

Addy

Hello, Addy:

I wonder if two, apparently unrelated things are related:

First, a thought of Petr: "A suicidal thought is NOT initiated by the mind as a way to harm the person.
It is initiated by the mind as a misguided attempt to protect the person. By understanding its intent you will be able to redirect it with self esteem and self love in place...fear will not be able to stimulate the negative cascading psysiological affects that make so many of us tire to the point of accepting suicide as the solution." Something that is originally meant to be helpful, then, becomes misdirected.

And second, apparently one cause of neurological diseases is that antibodies, which the body produced to fight diseases ("good"), somehow become misdirected and attack neuro fibers ("bad").

In such cases, could a suicidal thought sometimes be the representation in consciousness of what is happening on the physical level? If that is so, then it would seem that solving the antibody problem would redirect the suicidal tendency as well.

I wonder...

Tom

[wishnomore]

I wonder if I can check-in tonight - hi Addy

I wonder if i can say it is a rough one. Been a rough week and was hoping today would be better, now that it's over with.

I wonder if I can also mention that Alffe's Trout thread - the poem afterwards, really affected me. . . and I definitely need to work on *me* more often, maybe it is finally time I call someone for that extra help I need - especially with Oct/Nov coming up - my worst times of the year.

I wonder if you all remember a time when your lives were in transition and everything felt so crazy, thats me right now. I don't know where I am anymore now that school is done.... and I am grasping for it to return so scared of the extra free time and the unknown.

I wonder if Tom knows he reminded me of Pter, and now I am wondering... what would Pter say? Maybe it is time to revisit to the wise words stickied at the top of the forum?

I wonder how the others are doing that aren't having it so easy right about now: lonely, megveg, goofy, jaded, lara, reyn,....

I wonder about life and the fairness of it all. I meet so many people with such awful stories and horrendous childhoods and I wonder.... why are our lives so unbalanced? Those of us given an unfair amount of pain and hurt.... why is it? Is it to make us stronger? To make us better people? Or is it just because we can handle it already? Or is it just the way it is? *sigh

I wonder about Melody's coins - and her hand sanitizer. And how I already always look at the floor, but never see any coins - but maybe now I will? I wonder if she also dreams about her Elaine and dad like I dream about my Lucy and my mom so often?

I wonder if its okay if I say its been kinda lonely lately for me, I hope this week is so much better. I hope I actually get to read some good books this week, such a reward after so much stress. . . already started "The Prophet" which as you can see, has already dug up a bunch of philosophical questions for me.

[pooh_ac]

hmm
I wonder what my "shrink" will tell me with my "check in" tomorrow
I wonder if/when the new meds will kick in
I wonder if fedex will deliver my scs parts that were to be here last Sat tomorrow
I wonder if i shouldve had my nerve bock friday when i was in lincoln
I wonder when sleep will come
I wonder why we must all suffer through all of this stuff...

[Alffe]

I wonder if Poo knows that I have such empathy for what she is going through..waiting has never been my strong suit, but waiting while in great pain is beyond comprehension....gentle hug...

I wonder if Fed Ex will deliver it today..Monday ..and if it will help as "promised"....

I wonder if Addy is still singing with her group or has that changed since the move???

I wonder how nice and peaceful it was to take a boat ride and watch the sunset on that small lake....

I wonder at all the herons we saw....

I wonder what my old friend is so depressed about...she suggested we take a walk and I think she would have told me had our dear husbands not invited themselves along....

I wonder if Wish has read Every Last One by Anna Quindlen, or The Help by Kahryn Stockett, or Still Alice...can't remember that author but I LOVED that book.....

I wonder if the archives of Brain Talk are forever lost to us...that's where Pters wonderful posts are...the few emails I have saved from him are about his thoughts on Michaels suicide...I treasure them but they would not be helpful here....I do remember one wonderful post about him being locked in battle with the beast of depression and how exhausted he was after "winning" once again....

I wonder if his daughter "Sue" still reads here....

I wonder at the busy week I have ahead of me..

I wonder why it all happens at once...

[FeelinGoofy]

I wonder if i can do a fly by and tell everybody thank you for wondering about me. I've been down with pnumonia these past couple weeks.

I wonder too if i can tell you i'm still very sad and depressed. I still have nightmares about finding my mom. Not as often but still do.

I wonder if i can leave a I think about you guys alot and lurk occasionally.

[barbo]

Originally Posted by FeelinGoofy

I wonder if i can do a fly by and tell everybody thank you for wondering about me. I've been down with pnumonia these past couple weeks.

I wonder too if i can tell you i'm still very sad and depressed. I still have nightmares about finding my mom. Not as often but still do.

I wonder if i can leave a I think about you guys alot and lurk occasionally.

YOU need a hug Goofy (((Goofy))). Love, Barbo

[Addy]

I wonder at how lucky I am that my car passed AirCare!.... gotta love Hondas ... so I treated myself to some shopping!

I wonder if it will help to let you know, dear Goofy, that what you are experiencing is all part of loosing your loving mom ... your resistance to getting sick is not working cuz all your mental energies and that darn demon are draining you... I sure hope you are able to rest as much as you need right now... share your burden

I wonder if I'll ever go back to singing the way I used to, thanks for asking Alffe. Since my Mom's death, I haven't been able to focus on the music so I'm being easy on myself and won't go back yet... instead, I'm visiting rehearsals and go to all the social events and shows.

I wonder, dear Wish, if you know that I read the Prophet for the first time when I was 16. I received it as a high school graduation gift. Here I am 40 years later and I still turn to that book for words when I can't find them....

I wonder if pooh's meds have kicked in yet... and I also wonder what scs is?

I wonder if Barbo knows how good it makes me feel to know she's always here ... and that her and Alffe are such good friends

I wonder that there should be a way to access old braintalk....

I wonder if I could read old braintalk, would I "You've come a long way, Baby! to get to where you got to today..." or something like that.... ?

[Alffe]

I wonder if Addy will read this link..http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread114142.html

I wonder if poo got that pkg yet....

I wonder if our anticipated company will view the menu as comfort food
or old folks food.....same thing??

I wonder why Cassie is limping...she wasn't when she came to bed...

I wonder if I can tell Goofy how much I appreciated the hug and am returning one...

I wonder at how sweet Mr.Alffe is to bring me my coffee in the morning..

I wonder why Tom hasn't started a thread here....

[waves]

i wonder if i can leave a hello for everyone... and a hug

i wonder if i can say i feel so strange lately... maybe it is the meds working... i feel better at times, and then poof, i feel awful again... i guess it's no wonder i feel disoriented

i wonder if i can say hand sanitizers became all the rage here and i never "got" the concept of smearing a disinfectant gel on my hands ... to produce a layer of "clean dirt" on them? i wonder if the folks marketing this stuff can spell o-x-y-m-o-r-o-n?

i wonder how nice it felt to see Addy wondering about me...

i wonder if Goofy takes Vitamin B supplements... i wonder if she knows that, when we are under stress for any reason (including grief, depression, illness) our body uses more B vitamins than usual... a balanced complex might be helpful...

i really wonder if i killed the other wonder thread since nobody wondered after me...

i wonder if i can tiptoe away for now before i get to feeling too awkward

~ waves ~