[Jaycojade]

Last month he tried to commit suicide; but we were able to get him to the ER in time. And then he promised me he would never ever try that again & he said he realised how much pain & hurt that it brought us. He also promised he would never take mucinex dm again; this promise was too hard for him to keep. Monday evening he took alot of them to get a buzz & I tried to get him to the ER. (I did not want him to even come close to even thinking about suicide) So I asked him if he would go to the ER, one minute he would agree to it & the next he would say no. Sometimes saying I love you Mom & giving me hugs & the next he'd be crying or yelling at an invisiable demon. My other son called 911 for help. We expected an ambulance but instead what we got was 2 state troopers.They walked in & started asking Troy questions. At this time I can't really say everything I would like to. BUT it ended, with Troy being tased 3 times & a knee in his side of his throat for too long!! He suffered brain damage & cardiact arrest & God only knows what else until we get the results of the autopys. They stood & only waited for the ambulance-- No CPR !!! No chest compressions!!
We called for help..... but I fill I felled as a parent. This is the hardest!!
I lost my dad to suicide when I was 12 or 13; my younger brother to "his freinds" they dragged him to his door & then left him outside unconcision in the winter & then my younger sister to 3 kinds of cancer.

I hope & pray for Justice--- I hope & pray for the truth to be told!! AND I hope & pray their own badges do not cloud or cover the truth!!
I believe by their cockiness & attitute Monday night; that they believed they were above the law. THEY ARE NOT!!



** TROY ~~ I'm so so very sorry**

[smae]

Wow, jaycojade.

I am at a total loss for words.

I can't even begin to imagine.

I am so very sorry.

A loss is hard enough.. but when there were trained professionals there who did not do anything to help (and possibly even hurt/escalated the situation) is just a whole new level of grief.

I really don't know what to say other than I hope with you that justice will be served, whatever that ends up looking like.

Thank you for being brave enough to share your story, especially when it is all so fresh.

I am trying to find a quote for you, but I can't seem to remember the exact words used, so I am not finding it.. (anyone who knows what I am talking about, please help!)

There is a quote that I see so often when babies or young children pass away. Something about how it doesn't matter how short the life, every person makes a difference and leaves an imprint in the world. It sounds better when it is the exact quote.. but that is the basic idea.

And, I have no idea how old Troy is. But, I do know that he touched the world.. many people in it.. it is obvious by the way you talk about him. So even if his life was cut short, please know that he has made a difference and has touched many lives. And by sharing Troy's story (bit by bit, as much as you are comfortable sharing) is going to be used to touch even more people. You can share his legacy with the world. You and anyone else who knew him.

I sure do wish I could say something that would ease the pain, heal the hurts, and answer all the questions.

But for now I will just send lots of love and hugs.

[Alffe]

Jaycojade I am so sorry. To have his suicide compounded by the violence of people who were supposed to help is truely tragic.

Troy's pain is over and I like to think he is "tumbling through the universe"..I certain believe that he is not alone.

Please know that one day, your good memories of Troy will return...
for now, I pray that the "cocoon of shock" has covered you like a blanket.

You are not alone.

[Koala77]

Jaycojade, my heart goes out to you.

I cannot even begin to understand how you must be feeling.... the pain, the turmoil, the anger....
but please know that we're here for you.

If you want to talk we're here to listen.

If you want to vent, we're here for you to sound off.

If you need a shoulder to lean on, please know that between us all, we have plenty.....

Above all Jaycojade, please know that you are not alone! :

[Doody]

((Jayco)) I'm shocked and hurt for you. I'm so very sorry for the tragedy you and your family have been through. Please don't feel like a failure...don't let that eat away at you. It sounds like the situation became one that was out of your control.

[Addy]

my heart aches for your pain... I'm so sorry.

[Burntmarshmallow]

My prayers are with you and your family.
I am so very sorry to hear what your trying to deal with right now.
Praying for Justice to happen quickly. May God and the Angels be with you to comfort , provide strength and protection threw this difficult time.
Troy is touching all of us right now .

We are here for you and thought it may take time Please believe this was NOT your fault. you called for evac and medical help. You did everything you knew was right. I am deeply sorry.

PEACE
BMW

[MelodyL]

My heartfelt condolences.

My goodness, you have been through so much.



Melody

[wishnomore]

Jayco, so very sorry to hear the news. I remember your first post a few months ago. It is horrendous to hear how those you thought could help, obviously could not - and made it even worse. Will be thinking of you and your family.

[KajunButterfly]

((((jayco))))....so sorry for your loss.