Hi my sweet friends....

This time Im not angry, not suicidal... not sad ! Im just weird... I think Im hypomaniac or very close to be...

Does it sound very weird if I tell you I feel like having 2 souls right one ?? One is making me cry and the other one is making me feel excited...

Some months ago I was going on a trip to see a concert... Maybe you remember that's one of the very few things I still like to do... But it was cancelled and I had that airplane ticket opened... I lost money but whatever, Im using that airplane ticket to go to Texas (Dallas, Austin and Houston) next week... Leaving Saturday, coming back home Thursday... Im going to see 4 concerts.... If God helps me...

I feel freaked out... First... because they cancelled me twice THAT concert, so, I dont know... I think they left me some panic you know ??
Also, I feel nostalgic... I feel sad because I always travel alone and that's just a reminder of my daily solitude...
I feel nervous because I HATE the process of travelling... I HATE hotels checkings in etc...
And also, Im feeling excited because I want to see my band you know ??

So ! I think my body cant handle all these feelings together...

Anyway... I needed to talk, PLUS, Im feeling weird, PLUS you are like my family and I needed to let you know Im going to this adventure...

Thank you for reading !!!

P.S Im going to post this at the bipolar forum too, so, please forgive me if you like me, visit both forums and find this thread twice

I'm glad to hear that you still have some things to be interested in. And I don't know how to cure feeling "weird" but hopefully you can appreciate it for being better then "sad."

I hope you have a fun and exciting adventure!

Good morning ...

I wish I had the secret cure.... says me who just had a sleepless night... and a bit of a down/lazy/unproductive week ... full of familiar feelings that I still haven't learned to deal with.

If I could be honest with both myself and you - I think that talking about it is a good thing... and perhaps not just talking to friends... but maybe reaching out to a medical professional/therapist... who could help us deal with these feelings that take over our lives.

I know it is easier said than done... and like always, I don't reach out for the help.... instead, I muddle through it... just as you are... I do what I have to do... and miraculously, I get through it.... just as you are.

I think you're recognizing a pattern... and you've got to learn a way to break that pattern. (Easy for me to say... ha ha... when I can't always do it.... !)
But I always say... recognition is half the battle!
The next part of the battle is convincing yourself how exciting it is for you to go on another adventure!

So what.. you're going alone... how lucky are you to be going....!! that is where the focus should be...
make this an adventure... try to think differently....
applaud yourself for doing this alone...
do you have any idea how many people wish they could do this... but can't...

remind yourself how lucky you are my friend....

and now... I'm heading out the door for a job interview... wish me luck and I'll report back later..

keep talking...

ADDY: First of all, GOOD LUCK in your interview !! Let us know how it went... I'll be thinking about you

And now, sweet and dearest friends, thank you so much for commenting my thread and for encouraging me... I hate the fact that I seem to cant enjoy what I do because I always feel exitement but, + fear, nervous, etc... feelings that seem to "beat" the excitement !

Reading your posts give me courage and peace... so, thank you so much !!!

I have good vibes about your interview! Onward and upward!!!

Love, Barb

To Blue : Many hugs.
You WILL have a great time.... I just know it, and what a treat to see 4 bands on the one adventure! Don't forget to take your camera with you so we can all see what a wonderful time you have.

To Addy : Good luck with the interview.

It's actually just one band, but 4 times...

to everyone !

Hey Blue...

How exciting!!!!

Nothing like seeing your favorite band once but FOUR times!!!
I wish I could see my favorite band just once!!!

Please don't let your fears over ride your excitement!
You are going to have a good time!!!

Try to make a couple of new friends! Just say Hi, I'm ... but my friends call me Blue and you are?

Strike up a conversation from there.. find out what their favorite song is... their favorite band member... where they are from... how far they have ever traveled to see the band...

I'm guessing you will walk away with a friend or two.

Just remember you are there to have fun!!!!


Abbie

Great advice everyone!

I enjoy watching people when I'm in crowds... and I also enjoy striking up a conversation... I learn so much about people ... how different we all are, etc...

and about me... arrrgh... I drove for over an hour in the rush for the most unprofessional weird interview... I think it was a waste of time...

so... I'll just chalk it up to another of life's experiences...

And maybe I'll write a book one day.... lol... about how weird life is...

I've had interviews like that where you walk away just scratching your head. One time the interviewer spent the whole time telling me that it was a "family" business and singing the praises of all the family members. That was at least 20 years ago and I still don't get it. They picked the wrong guy to interview people!