I read the posts here, though don't usually respond. what if you have children and family who wish you dead? Who exactly would you hurt if your folks are gone and your friends would understand? Just a thought since my kids are trying to make me homeless. I wonder about my choices since I do not wish to be on the streets. Yes I am getting help from attorneys. I am getting council. Being disabled on the street does not have much appeal for me, nor does living in a housing project, or in my car. I have to bring my family to court. This is not fun, nor is there guarantee that I would win and find a way to keep my home. The gov. didn't abide by my family trust and I am being made to uphold this same document. I am held in place by a family trust and being blackmailed by my son in law, this on top of 8 surgerys in 8 years. I am real tired, and to tell you the truth this site is what I keep going back to for support. I also have no money and must beg for pro-bono work. This is where I am at now, all in all really angry at my family. I could care less what they thought. ginnie

ginnie, your "choices" aren't very appealing and I'm so sorry. Not only are you living with physical pain but the pain of family betrayal. Hard to find a "reason to live" but that's what you need. I'd care if you weren't here..you are valuable to me as a friend, someone willing to share with "strangers" their intermost fears. Strangers picked me up off the floor years ago and gave me back my life....may we try to do the same for you? You matter!!!

Ginnie ... surround yourself with some positive energy here and arm yourself with some positive resources to fall back on.

I recently "lost" my 3rd job in less than 2 years... I'm 57... and thankfully live in a country where I can reach out for help - I'm was/am amazed to discover there is financial aid should I need it.

Those thoughts went on the back burner and gave me some spirit to "fight" my fight ...

It has taken time.

Every story is different.
But its worth a try to pull some hope and understanding out of someone elses' story.

I really really miss Nik-key and Curious, too

Thank you for allowing me my truth. I have been praying for a long time now, almost 9 years, that I have not been allowed to see my daughter. I have to take my family to court now, and I am wondering if I will have the strength to look my daughter in her eyes, I think I would be sick to my stomach right in the court house. I have been black-mailed to a degree by a family trust. Yesterday at my lowest, I did receive a bonified miracle. A judge will take my case pro-Bono. He thinks I do have a case, and now my real fight for my existance begins. After all my health conditions I wonder how I am going to be strong enough to deal with what is coming into my life. I stirred up the bees nest in my family now, and they are a bit africanized. I am not strong right now, I have been working on this issue for all of these 9 years. My health as people know here hasn't been so great. Two doctors are waiting to do their tests on me and I won't do it now. I am refusing all medical until this issue is resolved and I again have some hope in my life. I cannot fight with a law suit and still take care of all my medical problems. It is too much for me to handle. Thank you all for your prayers. I need them as much as all of you do. I am here, I will be here, I am not going anywhere, and no to heaven right now eithor. I do want to see this through, to gain control of my life again when it has been controlled to every degree by somebody else. Please keep in touch alfie and all of you in this forum. I am very afraid, and sad that my family wishes me ill. Money does terrible things to families. Greed can ruin a person. I have been witness to greed, selfishnes, and down right ill will from my family. It is really sick. You all seem to have such strenght, and I feel my strengh is at an all time low. This is the time I need to stand straight and face the issue with courage. How do I do that? Ginnie

How do you do that?? Dear ginnie..you continue to do what you have been doing...you survive inspite of all the obsticles...that is the definition of a hero..but you won't be doing all this alone..we are here for you and like Addy said..try to feel our positive energy coming your way.

I have to say that I do understand your "bitterness" ...the other side of anger is deep pain...am reminded of the book Tear Soup and how we grieve our losses..you have lost your family over money.. I am so sorry.

On a positive note...lets hear it for the judge..proBono!! Hurray!!

I sure don't feel like a hero. more like a coward because I am afraid. You were right about deep anger also. I did have council, and the bottom of that is they didn't think I could change the situation, so they kept telling me to learn to live with it. I can't do that, so I was backed into a corner, and now I am coming out swinging with both fists. The anger is propelling me forward. I do need all the positive vibes I can get. I wait now to hear from this Judge again, he is sending me some paperwork. I am never a quiet person, but when that judge called me personnally, well I was speechless and could only say "thank you sir" This will be a heck of a summer for me. I will be in touch right here to talk to you and this site to help me through yet another problem with the family. All of you already helped me get through my last surgery. I guess at some level, I knew where to go for help, right here. I keep in touch with several people on e-mail too. When a person is given little choice in their lives, it makes living difficult. My mother who created this trust, did not expect my family members to hold me hostage in my home. The details of greed and selfishness that I have been witness too can break the spirit. When I need those good vibes, I will be back with I hope good information. thank you alffe and to the other responces. ginnie

The fact that you are afraid and still came out swinging speaks volumes ginnie. Please remember that we are here for you.

(((ginnie))).... I've been away camping.... so just caught up with this thread...

I am absolutely thrilled that a judge came forward to help you... wow!!! that is huge!

Keep up that fight girl... slowly but surely, you will rise to the top. !!!

[hello andy and alffe, thank you. I still wait for the judge to send the packet of information. I think there is some finacial disclosure stuff. I also have a paralegal friend, who offered yesterday her services to get me through the correct proceedures. Like if I have to call the judge, you don't call the lady on the other end a secretary but an assistant. This waiting is hard. I spent all day yesterday rounding up all information I have been collecting for nine years in hopes one-day that someone would listen. I wrote a single paragraph. I do believe there is divine intervention at times, or maybe group vibes that send good wishes toward this judge. I am not sure I should say his name on this forum. When there is an end to this, I will tell you the whole situation. In the mean time, anyone have any good boxing gloves?, I'm up for a fight., Knowing somebody cares helps. ginnie PS.Pray for the storms to end for the whole country. I am in an uninsured home on the west coast.

My daughter was called by that nick name when she was little, ginnie