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Oh Abbie, I'm so very sorry. I'm so very sorry.

I'm thinking of you ((Abbie)) and hope you can feel everyone here caring.

Thank you Doody... I know everyone here cares...
I am still feeling very numb.. kinda like i just don't care what happened. (Please don't jump on me for that... that's how I feel)

Funeral is tomorrow...

abbie

We wouldn't dream of jumping on you Abbie and I bet you aren't the only one in his family feeling numb. It's really a blessing and will get you through the coming days....there's plenty of time for reality down the road. Please take good care of you....give yourself a hug and rock yourself.

hugs sweety.

Abbie

It's not surprising at all - I call it going on "autopilot." It's very common, and it's a good sign you're aware of your own needs at this time. It says nothing of the love you shared with your uncle. It's just nature's way of making you comfortably numb in order to perform on stage (attend the funeral and console others).

Abbie, what Kathy said is so true. Autopilot.

My therapist used that term with me many times when describing what I did after my daughter's father left us when I was extremely ill and then my sister died. I totally went on autopilot, only ... mine lasted for years. Literally, years. I just did what was necessary to take care of me and my daughter. No men. I withdrew, cruised...went on that autopilot. Just a few close friends and family came into MY inner circle.

That's one of the reasons I liked being on Paxil. Made me more on the numb side, and that's what I needed.

I think otherwise, we may just go totally zonkers.

Numb is good. So is sleep and rest and taking good care of yourself. ((Abbie))

Yep, I echo KathyM's and Doody's words!

numb is good - it is your mind taking care of you.
Talk to your doctor, too... reach out.
I know that is easier said than done... been there
xo Addy