This community
Electronic
Spans the reach
Of humankind

That is what makes it so special

can we all shout out
AMEN!

Amen !



and 10 more "figures" so this is not too short to post

Oh heck no
Oh heck no
The disrespect
stops now
Now
Now
Me

As one deserving the daily measure
A buoyant lift unto the sky
You are one whose life path steps
Beheld with awe bring much to life
Your very words shaped instant treasure
Some very hard, the stuff of strife
And those emerged from moment's rest
Color tapestry and bring delight
Respected, yes, it is our pleasure
The mantle placed of wisdom right
Each here who dwell shall have respect
Be honored as one who brings much light

M56

this is a gift to me
thank you

with a heavy heart
i have reached a time in my life
all that is good seems so faded
i remember thinking as a young
strong smart mommy
who was born to kick butt with
love and kindness
i am a passionate in everything i do
even in my worse of times
it is a drive that comes from somewhere
to be honest i believe it is my anger
way back when
all that matters to me to this day
is that my children would like me
especially for who
i have become
it is in the afterlife i want to be remembered
she was the best mom and mimma ever
or at most
she tried her very best
to make a better life for them

why does this mean so much to me

i had to be the best i could
for
my children
i this sick mind
divorced at 24 with 3 babies
i did all i could to give THEM a happy life
and i would be the most happiest
just to know i had something to do with it
i always taught them
money in this fast mode Country
thaught them be happy in what you do
and that be your riches
to have the liking's of my fellow human
the love of my family

and so sad to say
this is not the case as they have
become adults
down right mean
to the bone
i have lifted my family when down and out
not to ask for anything in return
never ever
sometimes embarrassed to think
of some of the things they have done
yet i miss and wish them a happy life
even if i don't get to be a part of it

i hope as the better weather comes along
i too just like them
can move along and just maybe
i could meet someone special
just for me

until then i have my friends
here to hold me
wishing me well

my illness
the physical part
shall not ever get better
if by only a miracle
Jesus Christ
you carried your cross
therefore
i will carry my cross

if anyone here were to ask me
do you feel the love
that is a undeniable
yes

so for your uplifting love
i wish you all a happy healthy joyful life
in what i expect from my adult children
with any luck
it will be sooner than later

"WORDS" THAT COULD EITHER
MAKE YOU OR BREAK YOU
me

it will hurt me
especially if the message
and lesson by not contacting my
eldest child
someone i entrusted
and never thaught would screw me
out of paying for purchases "I" yes
this idiot
is being screwed with my dell account
balance over 2 grand and a monthly payment
of $72 a month
her purchase was for Christmas gifts
4 computer tablets
and because i was very surprised
at how she left my home at her last
Skyline featuring a well known poet
her name escapes me at the moment
is when there was a confrontation on
the mess she left for her sister Corissa
knowing that being a major problem
we are trying to work on "her laziness"
and it is this blowout i hear her say
"you shouldn't have had any children"
those words cut me up into tiny pieces
the one child i watched over there
always whenever
it will hurt me terribly
because it is a tradition she stole, crushed
into nothingness
it will hurt me terribly

how can i wish someone a happy birthday
who didn't want to be born
and they are not young teenagers
she is hitting her mid thirties
so much taking
and nothing in return
i do not speak of material possessions
but our Spiritual growth as mother and daughter
making this choice with a heavy heart
a heavy heart
me

no control of this happening
very aware of my situation
have my shrink
bi-weekly
see my pain doc tomorrow
the changes that going on with this
body and mind
in a bad place
me

today i made the phone call to my boy
and wished him a happy birthday

you see
my boy takes issue with having to share today
as it is a recognition of his day entering the world

it happens to be the anniversary
of my fathers suicide
a grandfather he never got the chance to meet
i do understand his reasons
there is nothing bitter sweet about this day
only SWEET MEMORIES of giving birth to a 9lb. son

i only learned about his remorse
that it too is something he suffers
with being bipolar depressed and is under
doctors care

needless
my sisters are alright

35 years ago
my father shot himself in the heart
in our 2nd car
station wagon
around the block from our home my parents
purchased together

if one were to stand outside the car
you could see the kitchen back of our house
in the evening hours clearly visual if blinds
weren't pulled down

i just don't get it
me

Hugging you and son