I copied and pasted this from another one of the other forums. I hope you don't mind.
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I came up with a made up word, BeEnd. awhile back. Let me explain. Since I have quit smoking I feel like my life has really just begun. be Since quitting smoking though, my mom, my cousin, one of my friends, have all passed, and my mariage has ended. End. BeEnd

I have a neighbor who I had a real hot crush on awhile back. He told me he wasn't interested and then we kept our distance for awhile longer. Him and I have been talking here and there and just now we talked for a long time. He informed me that he has at the most 6 months to live. He nearly lost his life to cancer just recently. The hospital had him on life support. I need to be a good friend to him now and get ready to watch someone whom I've thought to be special since the beginning of March, die. We talked about death and dying and about his funeral plans. It was creepy but without the crush on him any longer I can talk about these things without too much difficulty. I still hold a special place in my heart for him though. I just have a feeling that I'm going to need a lot of hugs, love, and support to hang in there and look after him in his final days. That's if he'll let me. He wants for me to come back to his place tonight when he gets home from a cookout. And right now I'm still in shock too.

For any of those who had been following any of the poems I wrote this year, well, this dying neighbor of mine had a lot to do with inspiring me to write them. The emotions he stirred in me had motivated me to write a lot of poems some of which I never posted on here. I had thought about trying to write a book half heartedly and while I was playing around with that notion I thought about what the title to the book would be. BeEnd. would be my title of course. The beginning for me and the end of so many others. I could go on to say what I had thought would be in the end of the book to signify the name of it like a completely new part of my life unfolding.

Well, thanks for listening.

befuddled2