Nikkey

Dear Nik-Key

David

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(((Nik))) I'm so sorry to hear this. Please remember to baby yourself.

Nikki we've talked some but i wanted to remind you that...
You are in my prayers and thoughts.Stay strong take some Nikki time and lurk as needed...we have you in our prayers healing thoughts and in our hearts too. you know if you need us we are right here for you my angel friend warrior.
Hugs


PEACE
BMW



I am sorry for the loss you and others, family, friends, neighbors... are carring inside.

Thank you all so much....sniff sniff. Lord, but this sucks! I have the coalition meeting to go to on Wednesday. I was going to skip it this month due to the struggle of the Holidays, but now I feel I have to go. I am the only survivor in the group. I think that perspective is needed. Talking about "it" is going to be very difficult .... I don't want to go, but I will.

The funeral is Thursday....... I am unsure at this time if I will be able to go or not. The coalition and people from NAMI asked me to go speak with the family the day after "it" happened.......... Alffe and Moi gave me the strength to tell them I just couldn't do it. Thank you both

I feel great guilt that I wasn't able to reach out to them. I know their pain, and feel badly I couldn't offer them some comfort. As I explained to the coalition, this IS something I will do in the future.. but right now, I am a mess and in need of support myself. I told them I thought I would do more harm than good... but they held firm that seeing a survivor 9 months out would be a good thing, even if I was still in great grief. It would show them, one can survive.

Though I agree wholeheartedly with this, and would have benefited myself from a visit with a survivor.... I believe a survivor has to heal a hell of a lot more than I am before they can face something like this. Perhaps this is only something another survivor can truly understand? Maybe in a few years.... baby steps.........

I can't begin to explain how this has compounded my grief over Dad's loss. I miss him so much, it physically hurts If only love was enough.......

Don't let false guilt weigh you down. Please take care of yourself now,and put those people that you are worried about into the Lords hands. He is able to do exceeding abundantly above all the we ask,or think... Eph. 3:20

I may use bible verses allot. Reading the Bible is why I'm still alive. It's why I've been able to survive what I've been going through. BF

((steve)) Thank you so much You have such a kind heart. I appreciate the comfort of your words and your friendship

Nikki....so so sorry...

I know that you are hurting,but please,please hang in there. Hang in there with every memory of the greater goodness that God has supplied in your life. By God,all things consist. BF

I'm sorry to hear about this...but if the time is not right, its not right.
Just sending you plenty of hugs and prayer.