Ok guys, here I go again... Rambling again I guess....

But, there is something that it is relly bothering me these days... Fear... Since the first moment I wake up, to the last minute of the day Im awake, I have fear... Fear thinking about my future... Not my professional future, not my economical future... no, it is about my health future....

I fear I can loose my vision... I fear I can loose my hair... I dont know... I know it is bad to "attract" bad things, that is precisly why I want to stop thinking negative things, but I just cant !!!!!!!!!!

Has this happened to you ?? What do you do to throw negative thoughts away !?

Im feeling desperate....

Thanks.

Oh boy! Talk to a counselor. This reminds me of my dad who spent his entire life obsessing about his health and fear of death to the point it interferred with his life, mom's, and my sister and mine. (And still does.)

Maybe an anti-anxiety medication and therapy? Fear is no fun to deal with sweetness.

xanax is GREAT for that - see if your doctor will prescribe some. It is an anti-anxiety drug and it really works!

I know what your talking about. Fear leading to dread. They are phobias. I've been battling these phobias since I was a teenager. There is evidence that I had OCD also when I was under ten years old. With my phobia's, I feel like something bad is going to happen deep down. I have these suicide thoughts bothering me when I think about these things.

Xanax is good for the short term treatment of phobias. Usually the things that you dread don't ever happen. Fear has torment. The fear,torment problem is very hard to live with. I sympathize with you.

My phobia problem started suddenly from a tramatic experience when I was a teenager. At times I've had many phobias tormenting me at one time. I didn't get help until several years later. I know how real these problems are,and all of the misunderstandings that people have about this. BF

Thank you a lot dear friends !

I will definetely ask my doc about Xanax...

I hate this feeling !!!! You know, I always thought that depression, phobias, all that stuff was felt but without realizing it.... But, me, myself, feel tired of my fear, tired of being depressed.... I think there are people who feel this stuff and dont evn realize... but in my case, I realize it ! And I dont want to feel this... oh boy...

Rambling as usually....

Thanks.

When you start thinking about a frightening thought,try to do this. Try to what I call,change the channel so to speak,and think of something else,and don't think of the other thing for 15 minutes. That other thought should loose it's intensity.

I went to the show at the Fair when I was growing up. They showed people with all kinds of unusual physical conditions. When I got home I looked at myself to make sure that I wasn't getting some of those same things for months. That show scared me,and I was afraid that I could get problems like those people had. I got over that after awhile.

Talk to a counsellor about these fears. You can get help. It's good to get help when you are young. Doctors know more about phobias then they use to,much more.

Parents may never understand. My dad tried to understand,and sister,but they never could really understand. My mother didn't understand. At one time I was making bad grades because my reading got distracted,because of the OCD. People don't seem to understand this type of thing either. I don't understand it myself,and I surely didn't pick this thing to plague my thoughts. That's where we go back to inheritance. We inherite the good traits,and the bad traits form the family tree. We can make the right choices on how to deal with these challenges.

This problem may also be biochemical,and you may need medication. The trait is in my family tree on my mothers side. I see it clearly now,but didn't see it when I was a teenager.

I fealt bad about myself,as if it where me,and that it was my fault. No. I inherited the trait,and I struggle with it.

I believe that I saw a post in the Sanctuary that you wrote. Please read Isaiah 40 on up to the end of Isaiah. You will find a lot of comfort verses in those chapters. BF

Thank you dear BF
I really, really appreciate your message. I will follow all the advices you gave me. Thank you a lot.
It mean a lot.

Hi, I hope today is going ok for you. I understand exactly how you feel. Yes there are other's, like myself, that feel this way. I've actually had many things happen in my life that folks have accused I brought on myself. However, things that can not be explained. I simply refuse to acknowledge. Fear is not an easy thing. Fear of the unknown is the most common in my opinion. And to battle something that you are unaware of is impossible. Thoughts can be controled to a certain point. And when one finds that their thoughts can not be controled in a productive or positive manner. Help is warranted. I'm glad that you have the strength to ask. That means to me that you are perceptive and have the willingness to overcome. That's such a great thing. (Smiles). I'm very proud of you for expressing yourself so well. I have found that even on dreary, rainy days there are always wonderful things to be seen in our fantastic world. The glory of nature and the artistry of everything around us. The miricle of life as we all evolve from then till now. It's all beautiful. Just as one first wakes up in the morning and makes their way to the latrine. To glance in the mirror and say out loud. "I love you". Have a wonderful day. Soft hugs

My counsellor is going through information from" Paniccure.com which is a project of the Agoraphobia,and Panic Disorder Foundation. I hope these organizations help you. Millions of people all over the world are struggling with phobias,and/or multiple phobias. BF

Fireball: Thank you for sharing... for the advices... and for the hugs !!

BF: I will check the site you metioned ! As always, thank you A LOT, I appreciate everything you are doing for me !