[doydie]

We have an odd weekend coming up. Well the 9/11 ten year is traumatic enough. Tomorrow night is my DH 45 year high school reunion. But the next day we go to the funeral of the wife of DH coworker. He retired almost a year ago, or was it 2, so we haven't kept in touch with a lot of them. We know this young wife had asthma and diabetes but geesh, 54 is to young. So an emotional weekend. Plus I am still dealing with a lot of emotions ofg my Mom. That comes up when my sister and I have birthdays and Mom isn't there for our regualr lunch we always had. I haven't been able to eat a piece of coconut meruinge pie since. We always had that when we got together, just the 3 of us. I think the ting that bothers me the most and it is so selfish of me and that bothers me hugely is Mom was lying unconscious in hospice on my birthday and I will always wonder what my Mom would have gotten for me. Isn't that the most selfish thing you have ever head? But she loved to give. Some of her things she got at the yard sale at the retirement home she lived at and you wondered what she was thinking when you got it but you know it was give in love and it didn't cost her much. She hated to take the monthly checks us kids sent to support her. Well I guess I am done with my walk down memory lane. But my sis and I had a good lunch today.