i'll be thinkin' 'bout you and cheals tomorrow, allie cat.

good luck.

Johanna

Alisonhope surgery goes well. I haven't broken a bone in years but have had so many surgeries. In both my big toes I've had to have the joint that connects your toe to your foot removed, cartiledge taken out and then put back on. Not a pretty site after surgery. Good luck!

Today, I am having a horrible day. Out of pain med's and doctor isn't in. It's going to be a long day until tomorrow. Not sure what to do. Normally take care of this ahead, but due to unforseen circumstances didn't. Now I'll have to pay. Muscle relaxers don't work except make me tired. I guess I'll just be tired today.

Linda

I do beleive it is time to add some cheese with my WHINE my God there are so many popele out there without health care of any form! I am fortunate to have a policy given to me by my wife or should I say her employeer... it is limited and surgery is not an option with the option of meds, but they are covering my pump and this is going to rid my body of oral med problems. Once it is brought one line fully the narcotics once absorbed by my liver is now going to the nerves that need them most. I know not where to post here or the RSD thread, but one led to the other and I live with both so here is where I lie hopefully surgery will follow in my shoulders for the TOS afther Saggital Blocks going in and the pump to cover pain in the nerves coming out... So a visit to Dr Sanders is just on hold and not removed from my wish list!!!

Getting to the Whine list is the miners and their families as well as the rescuers whose lives were lost may God comfort their soul's and be with the familes whose help is needed ! And I whine...

The Soldiers whose ranks go down and I do not mean rating, but the count of dead and wounded so we may live in paece! And I whine...

How soon we forget about souls lost in the bombings and how their families carry on! And I Whine...

So many homelss as I stay dry , so many without food and I worry about the extra pound for me the pain is just a small peice of the pain in consideration to what others live with... I forget many nights when I bow down to pray when it comes time to add my thanks, that my thanks come in the way of what suits me and not what is what I am thankful for and this is the gift of family, life and most of all another day in which the Lord has given me another chance to try and be a better me tomorrow!!!

GOD BLESS ALL

Alison,
thinking of you and Chelsea and hoping all goes great for you both.
In CA we met a guy who had shattered about 6" of his leg and ankle in a fall work comp case him- double
showed us the xrays of the repair - plates, screws pins etc
My son shattered his wrist in 2001 did a pretty good job of it too = pins and such to fix it also.

Mark you're right - sometimes we need a reminder to remember all the others in this big ole world that are living in horrible conditions and to pray for them also.

I have been offered a job by comp and of course not what I can do despite my doc saying I can't do ANY work. Idiots don't listen or do an IME or any other testing they take a desk jockey opinion not one who has actually seen me or laid hands on me!!!!!!!!!!!(or did my surgery!!!!!!!!!!!!) so feeling a little ticked off and left out to have no pay YET again like the last three years it took to appeal...not that the money is an issue Marc can support us but I earned my living like all others here and deserve to be paid for the injury my damn job caused me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok not bitter at all. I want to ...ok enough of that now have to go off benefits and back to LTD and fight to get what is rightfully due to me but has been denied since time began.....p/o'd!!! ok yeah quite a lot but have to deal with this...can't harbour this in my soul too much to deal with emotionally.

I hope that all who read this understand I have a union to help me Thank God for that and I am not alone as I have amazing support with the union reps. I don't think I guess I have the right to complain, but it really does effect you even if you do have the help. I feel helpless as I can't do anything to make things change. I can't do anything to make it better or to change my circumstance.

I hope that this isn't sounding pathetic or lame but needed to get it out and if there is anywhere to do it I suppose it is with those who understand. Those who are my real family ....seen as I have two brothers and their families to help...but don't get it all the time .....but no parents so I am now adopting you all as my surrogate parents. I need you all so much and can't say thank you enough. Ok my tears are flowing now in appreciation and in care for all of you and my love for you all for all that has been done for me said at the right moment said with care prayer and love......
ok enough...
so all my love and huge hugs to you all.
from my heart,
Victoria

AlisonI hope all is going well with Chelsea after her surgery. Not always fun. Acutally, never fun.

MarkI agree with the whining issue. I try not to because it doesn't mean anything. My faterh for years would tell me he didn't understand me. He knew I was in pain from all I went through but I didn't outwardly compain. Why? Didn't change anything. I'm still in pain. But, when I watch the news I cry. How can I complain when people are murdering their children. Shooting innocent college children execution style for what? Pedophiles targeting our children. Home invasions. Too much. I would just like to think we can support each other. The mining incident is too depressing. The Minneapolis bridge collapse also. Each day we are all faced with a different dilema or crisis. Dealing with it is a very individual reality. Once, Mark, you said how important humor was. I think if I did not laugh every day, even at my self, I don't think I could survive. I try to find humor in as much as possible. The horrible ambulance ride from NY to NJ where when we arrived at my house I actually got up off the stretcher and walked in the house because I could not take one more minute on that darned thing! Then as the ambulance left the driveway, it smacked right into my dad's car! Oh well. Don't ever ride an ambulance on the NJ Turnpike. Unless you get some good meds first!

VictoriaAnd yes, you do have the right to complain, and *****. I am so sorry you don't have your parents physically there to support you. Keep them in your heart. I am very lucky to have parents and a mother-in-law to help me and my family. I also have two sisters who are always there.

I wish we all did not live so far apart. Wouldn't it be great, as we write each other now, to say, have a barbeque and really get to know each other and their families? You learn so much from this site but realize we all live so far apart. I know some of you on the west coast get together, at least that is what I have gatherd from posts.

It is comforting for me to read and post each day. Sometimes I feel I am pathetic. I do have local friends but it isn't the same.

Sorry to ramble. Don't know if any of you are familiar with High School Musical? Tonight is the sequel. My daughter has two friends over to watch. Of cours we have had a storm. Direct tv went out downstairs. They raced upstairs to my room. That went out, back down. Finally back to my room. I have kids and hubby trying to watch tv all over. oh well. Sorry!! Linda

Linda- MY 14Yo is also glued to TV watching HSmusical 2....

the little guys are super cute today, too....the two yo asthma baby is totally wheezing with a cold, but they are dancing and playing dress up. I wonder....should i discourage my sweet boy who is turning 4 from dressing up as a princess? He's such a cute one

I am sure he'll hate to movies i took today when he gets older.

Most Doctors suck BTW. My PCP said something to me today at my pre-op visit that made me want to kick him while he listened to my heart. (wouldn't have hit a good spot, either) I am sooooo forutnate to have Dr Jordan who understands, listens and appreciates my troubles.

I wish for all of you to have the same good fortune as myself, one way or another. As Mark said- roof over head, good health insurance, good organic food for my kids to eat, sweet caring husband (most of the time!!), eternal sunshine here in CA, safe cars to drive, generally healthy family (myself excepted??? ), a 14yo who was sweet enough to make me a choccy cake today, and so many other coutless blessings.

((((((hugs)))))) and happiness to all of you- and be happy for all the little things that you have.

sorry for the ramble....

Johanna

JohannaLet him dress up! He won't be able to or want to when he's older. Just part of being a kid. My 15 year old thought he could grow up to be a Power Ranger when he was 4! We still tease him. I wish I had some cake! My 17 year old daughter likes to bake. Maybe I'll ask her!

Linda

omigod i cannot believe the email i got from this kid last night, you guys. she lambasted me! got wind of the fact that i, in jest mind you (you know me, as does SHE now, c'mon!) said to a friend something to the effect of thank god chelsea had elected to opt for the surgery instead of the long cast deal because i was utterly exhausted from taking care of this 32-year-old infant since late last week...

so now apparently i have NOT taken her injury or her pain seriously, from the MOMENT she called me from the ER on fri. night. and she is ******! she feels i have no compassion for her, that since i am so "used to" being in pain that i just act like it's no big deal and have been entirely dispassionate throughout this whole ordeal. and here she is, so helpless, in so much pain, and blah, blah, blah i have done her wrong, etc., etc.

well, ya could've fooled me. i have run myself ragged all week! spent over $1,000 so far on hospital bills and to cover her overhead while she gets her short-term disability stuff underway and none of that is a loan, mind you. drove all the way up to sunland twice to bring her stuff at her dad's over the weekend and to haul her **** back down to my house sun. night, found and took her to the surgeon's office mon. for a consult, the internist's tues. for medical clearance, and a dozen other things! are these the actions of someone who doesn't think this is a big deal, i ask you?

man, she really hurt my feelbads. i don't know what to say to her (and she is not speaking to me). truly i feel her thinking is distorted here - perhaps it's the vicodin talking, i have no idea. not something she's used to taking, i can tell you that much.

i haven't even repeated to her some of the things her surgeon has said to me about her case which would REALLY set her off, or the comment her friend who was with her at the party made about her drinking and maybe it would be a good time to have a "conversation" with her about slowing down.

nope. she'd definitely shoot THIS messenger. i hate walking on eggshells.

why does the mom always get blamed for everything?

guess she's gonna have to figure something out, because we are at a mexican stand-off and her student loan is due next week. but here i sit, still trying to figure out why on earth she thinks i, of all people, am taking this lightly. i guess it hurts so much because i know EXACTLY how that feels, and it ain't good. i've wracked what passes for my brain and i just can't figure it out.

other than that unfortunate comment, which was admittedly a pretty tasteless joke. harmless, i thought at the time and i really didn't mean anything by it. the only other thing i can think of is when she called from the ER to tell me the ankle was broken and was crying hysterically, in trying to calm her down i told her that a bad sprain or torn ligaments can be WORSE than a break. which is TRUE. a medical fact, jack.

as it turns out, chelsea does not have any torn ligaments. thank god for that. sorry this post is so long, i don't have anyone to talk to about this and i feel just awful. i just can't figure out what happened between us. and i'm in a horrible flare on top of it. should i say, made worse, because of it.

better go get my woobies out the freezer... thanks for reading this far, you're the best.

they're cute when they're little.

alison
"Be Brave"

for sure they are soo much easier when they are little
I'm sure she will see the light soon and she probably feels bad too, but youth and "something" stands in the way of her apologizing right now.
{couldn't think of the word i wanted to use in place of "something"}