I just feel I need a change, my life has changed so much now. Sometimes I get angry and want to just hold chunks and chop to get out stress. Still not sleeping right, days and nights mixed up. Can only sleep when someone is awake. Afraid to dream......Just started to get an appitite back, for more then fruit or cereal.

I have had my long hair so many years now. All the way below the bra strap....I want to keep it longer, but am going for a hair style ASAP. I guess layered and maybe soft layers around the face. Something I can fluff and dry.

I posted this picture as I just cleared up my Rosacea and Katie snapped a picture getting ready for work today.



PS, I used the Lamcome Hydra zen for DRY skin for celaring it up. I ahve no makeup on except the eyes a touch of pink and tips or lashes some mascara. Not sure how stressful my work would be to get through.
I will post an after if it is nice, othewise i will be wearing a hat!

I am 52 years old

You are a beautiful woman, Di!! You do NOT look 52! Maybe early 40's?

I agree, keep your hair past the shoulders but layers that will fluff out with a blow dryer and a round brush. Keep your makeup soft and natural - you have wonderful coloring (skin and hair).

In my most stressful times, I walk. In the woods, on a track, in the mall... anywhere. I guess it's my bodys' fight or flight response - since I can't run (too much impact). It's good for weight, toning, it lowers cholesterol and stress.

Can't wait to see your after pic!
Anne

((((((Dianne)))))),



You don't look 52 You look pretty (but sad).

A hairstyle's a good idea -- get the whole nine yards -- shampoo, massage, hot oil treatment. Have someone take care of you for a change.

I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter. I know how hard it is to lose someone way to early. My baby brother committed suicide at 21. It's taken me a lifetime to realize that being here is just too hard for some people.

The next year is going to be absolute hell. Make sure to take care of yourself -- eat, sleep (the dreams will comfort you). And TALK. Talking and remembering will make it easier.

Di, always remember, you invested your soul in your daughter. You gave her everything that she deserved and MORE. Never, ever doubt that you were/are a wonderful Mother to a tortured little soul.

Read this when you get a chance: http://butterflywebsite.com/discover...ndrainbows.cfm Pay attention over the next few days. De will find a way to let you know that she's arrived safely.

BIG HUG (and love and blessings) for you and your sweet Angel.

Barb

It may be hard to think of yourself at this time.............But think of what Dee would have wanted for you!

Why not treat yourself to a make over! I can never decide what to do with my hair so I let the people who know what they are doing decide! Find a really upscale hair salon, make an appointment, walk in and tell them your life style and how you want something easy to take care of nothing high maintenance and let them at it! NO holds barred!

Then go to a nice mall with a Macy's or someplace and make an appointment or sometimes they do walk-ins and have your make up done! They do it for free! Tell them again, easy is best! Then hit the shops for a new set of any type of clothes!

It may cost a paycheck to do it.....but it's a huge boost during a hard time.

Take a day to yourself or you and a friend and just "do" for you!

Di,

As I suggested the other night, yes, do something now for yourself.

Go treat yourself and let them make you feel great. Go on the trip we talked about to visit that old girlfriend and put things at home and work behind you for a few days.

YOU DESERVE IT!

Peggy

Barb,
I wanted to share this with you, or anyone.
Last Saturday I think it was, just after the funeral, De's middle cat Dehila came upstairs from hiding. She woke me up making noise by the couch. She continued across the couch to the end table, across to the recliner where I was sleeping. SHe had this thing when she would visit with De of sleeping on my chest...well, she climbed up on my chest stretched out with her paws on the top of my chest paws crossed. All of a sudden she reached up with a paw and placed it to my cheek along side of my mouth. It was damp and felt like a kiss. Just held me for about a half a minute.

And I keep finding butterflies. It is winter and I didn't think I would see them. But, a trivate when I walked in the house was sitting on the floor. When I unpluged the curling irons and night light in her bathroom, there were butterfly hair clips.

Made me just lose it today a bit, how much I miss her.
Every medical care person, every social agency worker, school friends have taken time to send cards, call or take time if I am out to hug me and share a story of how De affected them. Many offer a prayer. So many have been so supportive, I ride the wings of prayers of many.

It is one week since the funeral, I think that is why it is such a difficult day.
I went in her house and I got angry with her, why did it happen, why couldn't she call if she didn't feel right. (police told her they would arrest her if she ever called 911 again). I am allowed 20 minutes a day to be sad or angry I feel.

But, now to upgrade, maybe the new hairstyle will help. I have a favorite stylist that took care of De too. I am a retired hairdresser and very particular not to get chopped short on top.
I will see if she had something open and can fit me in.

Thank all for keeping me going,
Di

di....try on a new hair style
http://www.clairol.com/default.jsp?hf=true

it's the Clairol web site. take another picture of just your face with your hair pulled back. upload the pic to clairol.com. you can see what a bunch of hair styles will kinda look like on you. lol..different colors too.

it's fun to play with. some wacky hair styles. i will say...i do not look good in a mohawk

it always makes me feel beter to get a new do. but i love to do the drastic. i have gone from hair to my rear....to chopped up to my neck.

a younger do to go with a young looking you.

Di,

You definately don't look your age ! I sometimes to feel the same way, and going to the hairdresser or anything that pampers YOU will make you feel better. That's what I do when I am having a down day or week. I go tanning !! It makes feel so much better and not having the warmth and sun in the winter, it helps me.

You will slowly make your way back to yourself, just got to have patience.

Go make yourself feel beautiful ! (not that your no talready !)

Hugs,
Dolfinz

I still can't believe how much you look like my sis in law!!!

Can't wait to see the new do!

Your mentioning the rosacea made me think of the stuff I buy for my husband- he has rosacea. It's made by Eucerin and it's called Redness Relief (I think that's the name) and his dermatologist was the one who told him about it. It was new on the market when he started using it and I found it at Walgreens but it may be available at more places now. I know one thing- it's ALOT cheaper than Lancome! Also, I think you look great but I can understand that you want to do something to make you feel better. I know you don't want your hair real short but shorter hair sure is alot easier to care for. Mine isn't "short short" but is layered- shorter in the back with a tapered neckline and a bit longer on the top and sides and I usually have it stuck behind my ears- and I just wash it, blow dry it (or you can just let it dry by itself), and go. I'm not one who's going to "mess" with my hair- no hot rollers, no curling iron, and no big "Texas hair"! Coming from the generation where we all had stick straight hair down to our waists, I just don't want to waste time fixing it. But your being a hair stylist will make it alot easier for you to make yours look like you want it to- mine is just not cooperative.