well offically had to pack the car with essentials and make the grueling three hour drive to my bf place to move there as my parents kicked me out and the emotional and verbal abuse was getting to be too much...mom was changing everything I was saying about me into something about her....so now in Kingston..........beautiful Kingston...nice little city .....until I move to Calgary in two months......b@$5@37$ couldn't even wait two damn months........they deny it say I left and it is all as always my fault......dealing mentally with a lot of garbage and have to realize that people don't all have good ententions at heart as I do....I live with others as a priority they have themselves as the priority so I suffer......better here.....but need time to digest will be sad not to have a relationship with them, but this is the second time they have done this to me and denied they did it.....they live in denial...not my style....if I do something wrong I own up to it......so Ideal with it and don't have to brood......however as I said not all of us are the same....they can't understand my pain and never will.......they said as I left i hope you can get the help you need to get mentally better.....ha ha ha...my pain doc just told me I was dealing with my pain very well and he was surprised by how well........but my folks think I have a psycologyical problem....hmmmmmm

ok thanks for the vent guys love ya'll
hugs,
Victoria

thought you could use some.

distancing yourself from family can be the best thing at times. i know. i am in that situation right now. it hurts. but them lying is even worse.

you aren't the bad guy in this victoria. they need the help. i'm glad you are out of there in a safe place.

Victoria,
I do not know your family dynamic's, but as a Mom, my child would never be put out. I would support and in a mohterly way care enough about whatever their needs are to help them, physical or mental. I know I had been making it tough on De to get more intrvention to become independant as I would not be around forever, but I always would hav ehr welfare and sfety as no. 1.

I can not even imagine being put out.
With my lose, I would give anything to have my daughter near me to mother her, nurse her needs and love her.

Maybe in your situation you have become the mother and they thought your being home was to take care of them in a role reversal, but here you needed understandig and care and she lost it.

I would tell Mom, if she lost you, how would she ever cope with the huge chunk of her heart ripped out.
I hope that I can send you the support that you have sent me.
Love you, and hope things can work out for the best to your needs.
Di

ok tears are flowing......thanks Di!
love and hugs.....
Victoria

I am so sorry that this had to happen. Right now you need to do whatever is best for you. Perhaps being in that toxic environment was being detrimental to your health as well as theirs. I hope that now you can go further on towards your healing proccess. Perhaps this is exactly what your parents need in order to heal themselves. Whatever happens, know that you did not deserve this. Home is supposed to be your soft place to fall. You and your bf need to make your home a plce where youcan do that.
I am sending you a wish for strength in this trying time. KNow that I am here for you. You can pm me at any time.
Tracy

I'm pretty much like Di in that I still have grown kids at home too.
we should charge them rent because they're healthy and working, but they're supposed to be saving money for when they do move out or to buy houses.

only if my kids were doing something totally illegal or criminal or stealing from us -that is when I would kick them out .

it might be a good thing for you to move out now anyway since it was getting pretty stressful at home.

well-I changed sound cards in my computer- and my voice recognition program is working much better.
I did all this with only two corrections.

thanks Jo.
Glad to hear things are working better now with the new sound card.....always learning is a good thing!!
love and hugs,
Victoria

Ohhhh I am soooo sorry to hear about this victoria Hopefully though being in a loving environment with that great man of yours will help. If you end up back here and need a place to crash my place is here for you.

Stay strong...I know you can get through this!!!

BTW - two months till Calgary?! Have I mentioned I love it out there? You better have a spare room for visitors

Talk soon

always a room for visitors...always!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going in March and we think we have found a house to rent out there and Marc can walk to work.....

thanks for the support is apprecated as always....
love and hugs,
Victoria

Darn you are quick girl Well count me in for a visit...I love it out west...you are going to be so spoiled with the open skies, the mountains...

Hang in there - sounds like the countdown is on till you get a clean slate to begin lviing again!