[nightnurse30]

One of my biggest struggle with being out of work, is feeling like i am not making a difference in anyones life on a daily basis. As a nurse, i've always found my work very rewarding and uplifting and i miss it so much! But lately, i'm finding that i am making a difference in the smallest ways through other people.

The other day, one of my coworkers (and a very good friend) told me how she is so much more aware of her patients complaints of headaches or odd neurological symptoms because of what she has seen with me. This friend was one of the first people to help me after my accident when i was at my worst (stuttering every word, hallucinating most of the time, very weird visual changes, dizzy and falling every hour, obviously awful headaches, etc). She said because of me, she is a better nurse after watching me deal with my TBI and PCS. I never thought of the impact i would have on my nurse friends.

Also, my last therapy session, my therapist said she spent 2 hours studying intensely about my PCS right after our last session. She has some experience with it, but watching me struggle for the past 6 months made her want to understand the psychological component more so she could understand what i was going through, and so she will be wiser with further PCS patients.

Trying to find a positive out of the negative that is our conditions. Hoping positive thinking can get me through all this!