Hey everyone, I'm new here and on the night of new years eve, I decided to get overly drunk and tripped running straight on my hands, right knee and head. Now I went on with my night and can't remember much of how I felt, but I was able to communicate fine, don't recall being dizzy as I jumped right up and laughed it off to avoid embarassment, and just about that. The next day I felt like I was I was everything was dark, I was just really down and I had a headache where I hit my head. I worried about a concussion at first but my dad told me if there was bleeding, I would ”know” by then. So I went on with my day, went to my cousins house for new years etc. I felt normal the next few days after until about a week later, when I started feeling depressed. I went to a friends house and drank quite a bit, and I wasn't very energetic or social, in fact, it felt like I had nothing to say when in a group and tbh I can't remember if my head hurt or not then. I drank 2 beers on another occasion and my head was pounding by the time I went to sleep. Oblivious I never noticed the signs and decided to drink AGAIN but hard liquor a few days later in an attempt to change the depression, but once again I was a mute who felt like I lost myself, which was pretty much how I was sober, and I had a terrible headache the following day for the whole day. Now I can't remember if the headaches were between those first few times I drank because I wasn't too observant, but by that time I definitely had one most of the time sober, and I decided to ”rest” by watching TV for the next 2 weeks or so

Now throughout this timeframe, the depression and depersonalization was the worst part. I have never actually considered suicide, and I know I wouldn't because I love my parents and I wouldn't hurt them, but during this past month, there were soooo many times I actually felt like I wanted to, and that terrifies me because I was always the most optimistic person who couldn't understand why anyone would throw there one life away when things can always be better, but I've completely lost myself apparently. I also felt/feel like there's something obstructing my thoughts, I don't know if its what people call brain fog, but I no longer get racing thoughts or have any personal debates going on in my head, its always simple, slow, unproductive thoughts. Towards the end of the month I felt the headaches dimming, and felt I was better and possibly made the stupidest decision of my life. Still clouded with depression and looking for a quick fix, not thinking what I had was a result of PCS, I decided to go do MDMA for the last time without a doubt. I felt some effects, but I didn't get any happy euphoric feeling, just a headache once again where I hit it and some of the effects, but nothing making me happy, just more depressed and I decided to go home.

The day after my head hurt in the same spot, and I didn't feel most of the terrible after effects I've felt in the past(my head actually hurt less the following day than the times I drank) but I knew at this point that a) I am never touching drugs again, and b) I definitely have something wrong with me(I'm aware I was stupid enough not to realize it before, I think I did actually, but I was just in denial). I pieced it together back to my head injury, and it really makes the most sense, and the symptoms I was feeling are similar to a lot of other peoples' experiences(I think...).

I'm going to see a doctor asap, but now I'm extremely scared that my decision to drink and do this hell of a stupid drug could have permanently screwed up a hope of recovering, being the anxious person I am. I was just wondering if anyone had any insight/knowledge about this?

I'm 18 if that means anything(turning 19 next month) and not to sound rude but I'd prefer not to be scolded for the mdma thing because I'm already terrified about any damage it couldve caused and never plan to touch it again

Thank you

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's hard at any age. We don't judge here. You made some bad decisions. We all have. Whats important is you don't make them again so your brain can heal.

Hi Terowyn,
Welcome! It takes a lot of courage to be as upfront and honest as you have been in your post. I hope you are able to get to a doctor who understands the complications of a head injury, and can help in your recovery.

I have found this forum to be an awesome support system... and although I don't post alot, I still visit and read as much as possible. You will find a lot of help and support here.
Best Wishes :-)

Hey everyone, I'm new here and on the night of new years eve, I decided to get overly drunk and tripped running straight on my hands, right knee and head. Now I went on with my night and can't remember much of how I felt, but I was able to communicate fine, don't recall being dizzy as I jumped right up and laughed it off to avoid embarassment, and just about that.

The next day I felt like I was I was everything was dark, I was just really down and I had a headache where I hit my head. I worried about a concussion at first but my dad told me if there was bleeding, I would ”know” by then. So I went on with my day, went to my cousins house for new years etc. I felt normal the next few days after until about a week later, when I started feeling depressed.

I went to a friends house and drank quite a bit, and I wasn't very energetic or social, in fact, it felt like I had nothing to say when in a group and tbh I can't remember if my head hurt or not then. I drank 2 beers on another occasion and my head was pounding by the time I went to sleep.

Oblivious I never noticed the signs and decided to drink AGAIN but hard liquor a few days later in an attempt to change the depression, but once again I was a mute who felt like I lost myself, which was pretty much how I was sober, and I had a terrible headache the following day for the whole day.

Now I can't remember if the headaches were between those first few times I drank because I wasn't too observant, but by that time I definitely had one most of the time sober, and I decided to ”rest” by watching TV for the next 2 weeks or so

Now throughout this timeframe, the depression and depersonalization was the worst part. I have never actually considered suicide, and I know I wouldn't because I love my parents and I wouldn't hurt them, but during this past month, there were soooo many times I actually felt like I wanted to, and that terrifies me because I was always the most optimistic person who couldn't understand why anyone would throw there one life away when things can always be better, but I've completely lost myself apparently.

I also felt/feel like there's something obstructing my thoughts, I don't know if its what people call brain fog, but I no longer get racing thoughts or have any personal debates going on in my head, its always simple, slow, unproductive thoughts. Towards the end of the month I felt the headaches dimming, and felt I was better and possibly made the stupidest decision of my life.

Still clouded with depression and looking for a quick fix, not thinking what I had was a result of PCS, I decided to go do MDMA for the last time without a doubt. I felt some effects, but I didn't get any happy euphoric feeling, just a headache once again where I hit it and some of the effects, but nothing making me happy, just more depressed and I decided to go home.

The day after my head hurt in the same spot, and I didn't feel most of the terrible after effects I've felt in the past(my head actually hurt less the following day than the times I drank) but I knew at this point that a) I am never touching drugs again, and b) I definitely have something wrong with me(I'm aware I was stupid enough not to realize it before, I think I did actually, but I was just in denial). I pieced it together back to my head injury, and it really makes the most sense, and the symptoms I was feeling are similar to a lot of other peoples' experiences(I think...).

I'm going to see a doctor asap, but now I'm extremely scared that my decision to drink and do this hell of a stupid drug could have permanently screwed up a hope of recovering, being the anxious person I am. I was just wondering if anyone had any insight/knowledge about this?

I'm 18 if that means anything(turning 19 next month) and not to sound rude but I'd prefer not to be scolded for the mdma thing because I'm already terrified about any damage it couldve caused and never plan to touch it again

Thank you

Terowyn

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Welcome to NeuroTalk. Sounds like you have been through the wringer.

If sounds a lot like PCS but could also me a combo of the impact and drinking/drug toxicity. The injured brain is far more intolerant of chemical toxins, alcohol drugs etc. You need to do everything you can to detoxify your brain.

This would include, no caffeine or alcohol or other stuff. Get started on a daily vitiamin regimen of a B-100 complex, 200 mgs of B-6, 500 to 100 mcgs of B-12, Vit C, Vit D, Vit E, Omega 3's, magnesium, calcium, plenty of meat protein (pork is best), all of the anti-oxidants. Do not take Vitamin C on an empty stomach.

This regimen will take a while to start to show a difference ( few weeks) but the detoxified brain will feel much better.

You also need to rest in quiet and low visual stimulation.

My best to you.

Welcome.

'Anosognosia' or the inability to recognise one's own deficits and symptoms is a common effect of head injury, one which many of us suffer(ed) from, and which has led many of us to do 'stupid' things which exacerbated our injury.

It's good that you seem to have recovered much of your insight and are now able to make good decisions. The brain is usually better able to recover than you might think, though it often takes a long time. But don't beat yourself up about having done 'stupid' things, your lack of self-awareness was probably just another symptom of your injury.

Best wishes.

No judgements here, just a welcome. I am glad you found this site. There are a lot of good folks on Neuro Talk that can help you. I am glad you were so honest. We can't correct a mistake unless we know we made one. You are also wise to seek the council of a doctor. For sure you should drink no beverage like that for awhile. Your brain needs to heal. There are others who have experienced this kind of head injury, and sometimes depression does come with it. Please have hope that things can get better. Seek all the medical advice you can get, and tell your doctors the truth. Liquer only hurts you, as do any kind of drugs. Be good to yourself. Hopefully this problem will go away, without much more intervention that alot of rest. Seek council for the depression if you can't kick it, there is nothing wrong with going to see someone for that. I too have a councelor, and I am grateful that I do. We will be here for you if you ever need to talk. ginnie

Terowyn,

Welcome to the board. I didn't make all the decisions you did about putting chemicals into my body, but I made plenty of bad decisions about being in stressful situations over the first couple of weeks after my injury. It definitely ended up hurting me more.

Starting to actually rest my body and my brain were the most important things that helped me start to heal. Getting started on vitamins was a close second.

Glad you found us here and are ready to start your recovery for real. Let us know how we can help.