I'm just wondering...

...My symptoms have been progressively getting worse every few months. I'm trying to just accept that I have a brain injury and the way I feel all the time, so I can move on with my life and find work-arounds, etc.

But, its hard to do that when things are constantly getting worse.

My days are never good. I'm screwed up 24 hours, 7 days a week. Its just a matter of how tolerable they are. How can I explain it...a good day for me is a bad day that I tolerate well. Today, not tolerable at all. I find work-arounds and accept my disability...then I start to move forward with my life, and then I wake up and things are worse than they were the previous day/week...and they stay that way for a long time(weeks/month). This whole month has been terrible.

What I struggle with is all cognitive and psychological problems. I have other issues but they are nothing compared to how horrible my thinking is. I have trouble expressing myself. Words and sentences don't come out right...and sometimes, they don't come out at all. This is a constant problem for me...I have a work-around that Mark taught me. Its called "Stop to think". This works on my tolerable days but doesn't on days like this.

Does it ever get better?

Do the symptoms ever just stabilize?

Or, is this roller coaster something I'm going to be riding for the rest of my life?

I just want my symptoms to stabilize so I can attach some work-arounds to my tool belt and get on with my life.

Okay, sorry for the vent slash ramble. I just felt it was necessary for me to get over the problems I'm having today.

Nick