Oh my, I feel for you, big time.

I really don't know if there is such a thing as patients rights. I mean, I'm sure there's some concept of it out there but I find in Canada we're just so darned cooperative and compliant that we do ourselves harm sometimes, in the trust we extend to professionals.

I'm guilty of that. I answered so many questions on paper from the NP that I was almost delirious with fatigue. There was no prize at the end, just interpretation of data that ended up harming my health because it upset me and will bias any further care for me. Everyone who sees it, can never un-see it.

Likewise, it appears you overdid it and you can't undo it. It might have worked in your favour though with the insurance interview because you were likely showing symptoms that may have otherwise been in check. So there's that.

And there's rest. And forgiving yourself for not being able to see the future. It's not your fault, you were trying something with a good attitude. It's admirable, even if it didn't turn out how you expected. Big hugs to you.