tamisue,

I understand your grief. I have gone through this in steps over time, starting in 1971 when I had my first understood relapse or major manifestation of PCS.

Have you sat down and taken inventory of your lost functions, your limited functions and your good functions ? Once you do, maybe a counselor can help you re-invent your life based on your good functions. Please keep in mind that you likely have capabilities you have not even discovered yet.

I am going through this same struggle right now, too. At my age, I am trying to come to grips with the things I have not been able to do or accomplish due to my PCS and trying to figure out what goals I can take on and reasonably achieve in the next decade.

Just know that you are not alone.

My best to you.