[rjbillsfan2013]

Hello,

i find i cannot rest/relax no matter what i do, i havent napped or slept more then 3/4 hours since my most recent concussion in august, i am in constant pain and distress. i take melatonin try to be on the same schedule, recently been given ambien.

last night i took ambien, rolled around maybe an hour or two of sleep, woke up and took another, probably not a good idea but im desperate for rest and then maybe got another 2 hours and just rolled around til like eleven.

i woke up feeling like **** like i always do but worse, and i cant rest during the day my constant headache and ear ringing and because all i think about is if this doesn't go away ill have to kill myself eventually. i cant even believe im saying that but i think about it all the time because it doesnt feel like i will get better.

i find no comfort at all for anysecond of the day.

Has anyone initially been severely uncormfortable/in pain and unable to rest and through the months gotten better?

i cant get off the internet because its the only thing that can distract my mind from my constant pain.

i dont even care about cognitive problems or anything i just want to hear that i can become comfortable in my own skin eventually or else i fear i cant do this.

idk where else to turn, this is my only outlet for hope and come back to it everyday its all i can do.

the thing that is eating me up is i havent had one concussion, where everyone says ull be fine. im afraid i got a couple close together and will suffer for life or and the thought that keeps poopin up is if im not better in a year ill end up shooting myself, i dont mean to think that its just a vision in my head.

i need to get past this so i can rest and heal but it is impossible to relax with ringing and pain and everything else

sorry for venting and positve responses only please ( this is so hard i pray for strength

do the months become easier, please?