OK so I had an argument with my dad and hit the top of my head real hard on a concrete wall. I instantly felt numbness like feeling in both my arms and legs and partial numbness on the right ride of my face. The numbness went away in 2 days but Tinnitus started the next day followed by light and sound sensitivity in the following week. Its been 3 months today since all this happened. I must say life has been a total wreck and every single day is a struggle for survival.

I am an extremely introvert guy and never had any friends in my life and have been always super depressed and very unmotivated throughout my life even before my accident( I was diagnosed with mild depression after the accident anyway). I never went out and always felt like killing myself for not having any social life when I saw others having a time of their life on social networking sites. I have always been in my own company since my early 20s and liked to be alone mostly and avoided social situations because of my depression and felt awkward in social situations and was never able to keep any job for more than 6 months because of lack of desire and enthusiasm.

My fiancee of 5 months left me after the concussion. I immediate family members are upset with me and feel I am not pushing myself enough and making excuses for not getting out of the home( It feels terrible when they say this, I have given up trying to explain them how its like). I am burdened with expectations as I am 27 years old and should be earning and starting a family by now as per our Indian culture. I left my job and everybody in my family looks at me like I am a loser expect my parents who have stood by me all the time. I pity myself all the time cursing every god in the universe.

This incident has further put me into major depression. I cant go out because I cant walk for more than 1 km at a stretch and have to walk very gently talking baby steps with cushioned shoes and always foam earplugs in my ears. I cant drive or travel at all because my head has become very sensitive to even minor bumps on the road so I prefer to walk. These small road bumps make me feel very uncomfortable on the top of my head and its difficult to explain the pressure feeling. On a better day I walk a little more and Tinnitus is louder the next day. I feel drained easily and I have slowed down a lot and taking things real easy. I am not even working at 10% of what I was.

My health is deteriorating and I am putting on weight. My 2 major complaints are Tinnitus(seems to have soften than before but still fluctuates a lot) and head sensitivity to road bumps which holds me back from going out. My hearing is normal but I suspect high frequency loss which may be the cause of Tinnitus. My neuro put me on citicoline, Levacecamine, Resveratrol, B12 suppliment which I am on right now. I must say I am feeling little improvements every week except for some setbacks here and there. I wonder if I have taken oral steroids in my first week for Tinnitus ( None of the Ents prescribed it in the beginning) .

I am feeling miserable at this point. I have ruined my life and good health.I have no friends, family support, no relationships, major depression, no job, no knowledge of whats happening around me, no interest in anything and no desire to learn anything, no health, no money. I have hit rock bottom in life and feel so frustrated. Tinnitus is driving me nuts all the time. Sorry for being so negative, i cant help and feel crap. And pardon me for my bad English and long post. Please give your suggestions. Thanks for reading