Dear Friend,
That's a lot of paper work and deadlines to handle.
Good luck. We'll be pulling for you.
M.

I'm concerned about tonight. I still have a lump in my throat. I'm not thinking right.

I'll feel alright,then I'll feel like something real bad is going to happen. I'll feel depressed,and then I'll feel alright,and then bad again. I'm having mood swings that are hard to cope with.

Last night I became cold,then colder,and warm. I wasn't thinking right,scared,and then I thought that I could die. I felt a little suicidal. I am so tired of this,and when it gets worse like this,it's almost unbearable.

It helps me to talk on this forum. It's a life line. BF

Keep posting.
You are connected to us.
M.

It's 4:13 AM,and I didn't have a panic attack. My thinking is clearer tonight. The obsession wasn't there thank goodness.

If I didn't have the obsessions,the fears would be easier to let go.

It's a inability to keep my subconscious thoughts under control according to that last post on the Anxiety & OCD forum. It was better tonight. It doesn't flare like that often,but it did last night. BF

Friend

I caught up with the thread. Please keep us updated.

I hope you can start paying one thing, then the next.

Donna

I hope so Dmom3005. I'm having a hard time with being frightened by one of those agencies. I can't think right when this fear elivates. I may have to sell some of my sterio,and radio equipment. I don't know. Thank you for talking to me about this. BF

Steve, i'm glad to see you are hanging on. it is hard work, and you are doing the best you can. there is a lot of "real world" stuff going on in your life right now... so you have triggers. please take a moment to pat yourself on the back, just for hanging in there with all this, ok?

and i want to underline what Donna said about doing one thing... then the next - just one thing at a time.

a thought: when i have things whirling in my head over and over, it helps me to make a list. i find it freeing is all. i don't try to write the list in order. that comes later. when something pops in my mind it goes on the list (no numbers!). somehow, once a something is on the list, i seem more able to let go of the thoughts about it.

after you make a list like this, the next thing is to figure out the priorities, since, for most of the things you mention, there are deadlines. i do this by writing in numbers next to each item, with 1 being the most urgent thing to do. so, for example, i might end up with a list like this:

2) renew car reg
3) prepare taxes
1) pay phone bill

then, i do one thing at a time, following the numbering. if everything is about the same OR you are too upset to prioritize, don't worry. just pick anything, and get the papers ready. check it off on the list. then take a break. then do the next thing. etc. only after you finally go and get a certain thing done, come home and cross it off the list completely.

also, when i am too overwhelmed to handle things, what sometimes soothes me is to do something manual and repetitive. it can be anything, useful or not, like polishing surfaces or washing dishes or folding clothes or macrame or whatever.

here's hoping you're doing ok tonight. i'm thinking of you.

and keep posting.

~ waves ~

This is the second time that I've freaked out about things in under one year. I have a list of things,but the IRS is whats scaring me.

I'm a little better tonight,or this morning. I hope that I get things straightened out with them. I didn't know that I owed them anything,because I didn't work that year,and I was waiting for my Social Security Disability hearing. BF

i had filed taxes in years and finally called the irs advocate division. the guy was so nice. his brother was mentally ill. this guy couldn't have been sweeter. he helped me so much and put up so easily with my anxiety.....right now i am back to not filing taxes but i don't think i have to..
i am also experiencing general terror a lot
bobby

BF even though you have all this clutter, and stress one thing I hear is going forward and not letting it over take you, as you battle all. The legal, renewals, axiety, you are seeing light at the end of the tunnel to not cave in.

that is amazing. If only you had one person to be a partner in it all to do even the renewals. I don't know your age, if you are 50 are the senior centers in your are? Often there are retired folks that would take the renewals and sit with you there to sort them, chat as you write checks, help address or stamp them.

I think too when the daylight savings comes, the IRS thing is out of the way you can breath a sigh of weight off your chest.

It is terrible to have all this overload, but I hear good things from your attitude. Somewhere, somehow you are coping. Put a sticky up on your fridge, with a smiley face. Put a to do list, and check off each as it is dealt with.
After each check, take a big breath of air and let it all go...then pat yourself on the back.
Your are being sent from afar, and
di