Dear Bobby,

i am glad you are back on your meds. i hope the lower doses are less troublesome.

wouldn't it be ok, if Luc just made some difference... even if it wasn't a world of difference? adn the same with Rabbi Nachman...

every bit helps...

hope is important... so stay hopeful... but maybe keep to a more contained hope. a bit of improvement.

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Lao Tsu

take a step with me Bobby. :heartthrob:

~ waves ~

that is so sweet.
(((((((HUGS)))
bizi

thank you so much Waves...you almost made me want to cry...ii have to remember what you wrote. another issue is bothering me big time which i don't want to discuss but i think you can guess it...it has to do with my loneliness and an impossible situation. i can't tell if as i get older my depressions are getting more frequent or what. i am determined i think to stay on this diet and then hopefully i will be able to take longer and longer walks with Luc. He is a little rascal but oh what a doll. I started taking fish oil supplements yesterday since i constantly have read that omega threes help with depression. I started taking four. It was foolish of me to stop with the medications but every now and then i guess I have to rebel and see if i really need them. It is sort of sad that I need them.
thank you again for your wonderful post. it was so comforting
love
bobby

Dear Bobby,
You are very brave to keep soldiering on.

M.

I can relate to your desire to not be on meds....yep. I need mine too.

Dear Bobby and Bizi,

i too hate the idea of needing meds. and even though i don't need to be on them all the time, i still have to be aware and be willing to take them if things go awry... before things get bad and screw up things like work...

Dear Bobby,

yes i know the loneliness-related issue. :( i wish i could help... i have suffered too in similar ways... never figured out how not to, either. :o so all i can say is, at some point it will just "spontaneously remit" ... i hope that comes soon! :D meantime, do the best you can to surround yourself with love from your fur family, friends and distract yourself any other way that you can.

excellent that you are taking omega threes! i almost bought some for myself he other day! :) and that is exactly what will happen with your walks. they will be short to start with and that is OK. that is necessary. just be patient and have fun with Luc. :) :hug:

love

~ waves ~

again thank you so much for your comforting post. i have been under so much stress for so long i wonder if that has anything to do with my feeling so lonely and mostly disconnected. i have a few books to read. it is hard to read.
you are right ...usually it suddenly ends for no rhyme or reason. I ended a friendship with one friend who i spoke to practically every day. she was just too abusive and i couldn't take it. I am thinking of forcing myself of trying to go to a religious group for fifty and over that meets on tuesdays. i have a hard time going by myself initially. i have to start again trying to meet more people rather than isolating.
bobby

i am feeling less stress. abby is feeling a lot better after her operation. luc is calming down a little bit. i am feeling so lonely. i keep on telling myself that God is with me and i shouldn't feel alone but is such an abstract concept. I have had what i call miracles happen to me so i keep on calling on them to know that God is there among other things. this weekend i read a book of prayers by Rabbi Nachman.
tomorrow i take luc for his shots and then i will be able to take him out and be forced to start going out with him. hopefully that will put a dent in my loneliness. i have some very close friends but i feel sort of frozen. i don't know if that is from all the stress i have been under or what. i don't know how my bipolar is affecting me.
Bobby

Dear Bobby,
Abby is feeling better and Luc is setting down with you -- I think I'd like to visit and see your family. :)

Of course your stress if affecting you.

More miracles will come to you.

Hubby bought a Rabbi Nachman book a few weeks when you first mentioned his name. I want to look at the book but have not done so yet.
M.

what book did he buy? my favorite so far is courage.............he is so forgiving,,so forgiving...so much wisdom from someone who died at 38.
I would love for you to meet my family. They would love to meet you.
I am having trouble sticking now to the Ornish diet. I am afraid to get on the scale for fear i gained back some weight. I am so restless.
bobby