Waves

I really think you just need to tell it to others. To make it real.

I personally don't see any reason. You can't just paste it on your
chart.

I am not doing a good job of writing down Derrick's seizures.
And I will be brought on the carpet on Wednesday if I don't
get them written down.

So I have to calendar them soon.

Donna

Dear Waves,
You are keeping your patience.
I'm reading to see how you do without headaches or migraines.
I hope that you do well.

Mari, with you.

Dear Donna,

thank you. i think i do need to talk about it to someone. my pdoc isn't here and i haven't told my parents because i don't want them hovering over me and grilling me about this or that... you guys are supportive without being hovery or grilly.

but i am being explicit about dosages etc because it isn't being written anywhere else.

i can't cut/paste from here because the chart is highly structured. only a few columns are in note form and those are done telegraphically (lists of abbreviated stuff). but a lot is numeric. there are graphics and tables that get generated automatically based on some of the numbers.

~ waves ~

Thanks Mari. that was really sweet.

that's one thing about this amorphous sort of depression. impatience requires energy and a mental investment i don't have to put out i guess. as you said before i'm waiting anyway. might as well take an itty bitty pill once a day while i'm waiting and see what falls out...

well i just woke up. today i have a bit of sinus congestion which is hopefully only to do with my having suspended my steroid spray. i hope it is not a migraine coming on. i had to suspend the spray because i am suspicious of hypersensitivity causing a lot of drip and making me cough. i get that with allergies anyway, and have to take pills, i don't need to add to it with the stupid spray and have to take pills even more often - the same pills that i was trying to avoid taking all the time by using the spray. dog chasing tail.

ah. i think murder she wrote is on. Jessica Fletcher, here i come. tv is a good depressed adult-sitter.

~ waves ~

Waves
I'm glad things are going well when they are.

Donna

hugs to you my friend.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thanks Bizi and Donna.

well i shot myself in the foot suspending the steroid spray. i got 10 x worse without it. i've been having sinus pain since yesterday (it's tuesday here). i am waiting for 8.30 to call the doctor for an appointment tonight. maybe he will send me to an ENT. and i have to talk to him about the cough too - unrelated. i am not looking forward to this conversation. too many things and need scripts too. he gets irritable when there's too many things. sigh. i have been putting it off and now it's one more thing.

i just hope he lets me have my chlorpheniramine. sht. maybe i should get the scripts first, and see him on a different day. but if i do that i'm afraid i'll put it off indefinitely.

well thank goodness i haven't had any more "Zoloft headaches" with this going on.

~ waves ~

Waves

Keep us updated.

Donna

Dear Waves,
Day Three already!! That's great!

Did you call the doc and get an appt for tonight?

Let us know about whether or not he sends you to an ENT.

I looked up chlorpheniramine. Wikipedia says it could have SSRI properties. Interesting.


'Sorry about the ENT symptoms.
'Happy that you are headache free.

Thanks for the updates.

M.

Dear Mari

the doc had a recording saying he wasn't taking appointments during this period (i.e. walk-in only). probably means the other doc in town is on vacation and he's covering. likely the office will be jam packed.

i am seriously thinking of just getting some scripts for now. if there are a lot of people, i might just call them in tomorrow morning so i can pick them up without waiting, and see him another time. the sinus stuff seems to be getting under control again. i have been throwing everything in the medicine cabinet at it, and doing saline rinses.

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SSRI properties were originally discovered in brompheniramine - another 1st generation antihistamine - it is structurally identical to chlorpheniramine but with a bromine atom instead of chlorine. several in that class of antihistamines were tested and chlorpheniramine had the strongest SSRI properties apparently.

i found out about brompheniramine some time ago but only recently that chlorpheniramine was even more active. i took antihistamines in this class verrrry frequently ever since about age 5. i asked my pdoc if he thought my serotonin "circuitry" could be underdeveloped due to the use of these drugs in childhood. he said it was theoretically possible but no way to know, no research on that stuff.

chlorpheniramine is, to this day, the most effective antihistamine for me. everyone is touting the second generation ones but i've tried two so far and they just didn't work as well for me. here chlorpheniramine is prescription only.

~ waves ~