[Yellowfever]

Favortism and judgement is all what happens to me at work. My boss is willing to teach others but not me. It hurts because everytime I ask if I can learn something its like I am a burden. Then he is like forget it I will just do it myself. It hurts so much I been crying for two nights straight because of this.
He complains about how slow I am and how I get too distracted. I take ritalin only for him and I am seriously about to pop two doses without confirming with pdoc first! Make myself faster that way!!!! I push myself and push myself and no matter what I just am not good enough. But nothing I seem to do is ever good or right in his eyes. Work very very hard apparently nothing I do is good enough.

I am so miserable I cannot stop crying at all and hubby is not home. It hurts really bad I hate being alone and being me. Wish there was a stop crying pill I can take.

Yellowfever