thanks bizi if by emergenzy you mean zyprexa i don't know if can do that it is very sort of "controlled" possibly where i am going too dunno. worse than a benzo. need to have triplicated authorizatin from health authorities just to have it scripte.d but i will have a bit extra of my other meds, ya knever know when one can pop one outta the foil and it pop right down the toilet ooopssss!!! i've lost them while loading the pilminder and then months later found very dirty dingy bunny-dusted depakotes under my bed. UGHHHHHHHH not edible.

thank you and i will actually i know i will hav ea good time my firend has been asking me how to help with the possible "social" hazards" ive tried to give some tips that might bail me out rather than backfire and instead of being overfriendly with someone get verbally aggressive with my company and fight which wold escalate things all round.

OH but Mania LOOOOOOOVES to ride.....

anything... and i mean.... ANYTHING.... i could take that further but the mods would delete it use your emagination or emargination or e-machinations

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Mari you had that one coming.... don't toss a line if you're not prepared to catch a fish!!!

Hey thanks John,

i most certainly will, i've got one leg in the plane already practically.... hehe

you take care!

Blessings

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YEAH - travelling is FUNNN, unlike having yer boss micromanage your code and give you unreadable notes. i miss crazy boss with his elegant mathematical discourses and exquisite handwriting via his exquisite pen an instrument so delicate only one with equally delicate feel could... er... pilot (no pen pun intended). nor plane iether. just plain.

that is hilarious and terrifying at the same time. i guess that goes with what you describe....

you sound like you have full mixed characteristics but that they are incheck insofar as you don't blow most of the time and do a good job and have a marriage that hasn't failed like many .... but the song is still the same constantly keeping that in check must be exhausing.

i am sorry. in away i wish once, you could have a pure manic episode or maybe better a pure hypomanic episode so you retain lucidity all or most of the time as you do now..... but with mood above baseline and performance enhanced. mania gest confusing after a while. it is all i can do to remember things at work i forget everything else. i get crossed when ppl try to remind me coz it gets mixed up is all. i can't concentrate recently and realized whta i thought i did the past week that i did write is like totally wrong wrong wrong and i have to do it all again an itwas the hardes t part i hope i can focus more when i come back. lots of pressure my boss said (GEEZ, THANKS!!!) so i started to get anxious but then i got spittin' angry instead and the anxiety went poof. that if ind happens when i am strongly above baseline ... hard to break the wave... only shave the crest and more water just comes over the top heheh. very labile yes ... reactions can cut back and forth like jumping jack flash its a gas gasss gassssss

oh i loved that movie with Whoopi Goldberg! when they pentothal'd her and she held out... and the scene with the cast iron pan???? oh man!!!!



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Waves,

Hang in there, sounds like you have it all under control.

Let us know how the trip went.

thanks CurlyDawg!

i don't see problems. i have had trippy things happen in the past but not florid psychosis and they can't see into my head so i think it will be ok....

i don't feel like i have evertthing under control (if you saw the state of my packing, and the work that didn't work out.... but that's ok. i feel like things aren't supposed to be in my control - we don't control everything... i'm just going with the flow....

the nice thing about feeling good is....

* I FEELGOOOOD.... dana nana nana na! *

now if only i could have a BEER. hrmphhh!

~ waves ~

Waves

Have a good trip. And I personally do think I understand why he is concerned.
Not that I think I can explain it to you.

But I understand somethings from how my sister explains to me, with herself.
and Some of her friends.

Donna

Thanks Donna

i'll be on and off this weekend... i leave on monday

i had thought not to bring the laptop but that might change since i can't - as originally intended - bring my guitar as i risk its health quite seriously if they refuse to walk it to the hold like they used to in the "old days" ... i might just buy one there... if i'm really gushed to play... believe me it would be about the same or LESS cost wise LOLOL!!! and easier... and just give it away before i leave... si don't have to pay for it to come back.... unless, of course, i fall in love with it and then welll ya know... oh dear i might feel like i'm "cheating" on my guitar though. is that kooky or kooky. it's not manic though, that's just me. me and my guitar been friends since i was sixteen and when the airlines were less like the SS you could pull all kinds of tricks to keep it in the cabin... took it everywhere i went - and i flew a lot.

anyway if i do bring the puter so i might even be able to pop in while i'm over there.

take care.... i've been voting for Derrick religiously.... i hope he makes it... which reminds me.... haven't done it tonight yet!!!



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Mari,

You need to buy you a less expensive guitar that travels well and don't mind a few scuffs

(((HUGS)))
If you're gonna go even when pdoc says don't then

Can you text/phone pdoc from the road? You gonna visit friends?