waves, you are just amazing to be trying to help ginnie when you are in the midst of a bad depression yourself. As my mother-in-law would say, "Bless your "

I hope you continue to have success with the Zoloft, with few side effects. My husband is now up to 75mg of Zoloft a day, and is doing well so far, with no ill effects. I hope you will have the same positive results.

no no no, not computer problems.
crap
you don't need that right now at all.
Maybe it will be something simple???
we can only hope.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Heck technology...

Heck Zoloft....

Oh my sweetie... I hate to hear you are within this...

What's the matter with the puter ?? Can we help anyhow ??

That zoloft'd better start working NOW !

I send you lots of hugs and Im here if you need to talk

Dear Waves,

I hope your father settles down enough so that you can get some peace.

M

about to take my 6th dose of 50 mg. it is Saturday morning. Saturday would be my 7th day but i shifted dosing forward 12 hours to morning dosing, to try to improve night restlessness. so day 7 will be tomorrow. i just realized that.

i still don't sleep enough at night and am exhausted in the day. sometimes crash, sometimes not.

also i have had chest pain since day too and it has not shown signs of improvement so far. i can tell it is the zoloft because it builds up and then eases off between doses even though i am close to steady state by now. yuck.

OK.... i opened the stupid piece of junk computer. as expected, nothing "visibly wrong" (like a loose adapter, flaky wires... nothing).

it has always has problems and they have got worse and worse. imho they're best off replacing it. but they first need a UPS or imho they will eventually fry anything they plug into our wall. the current here is flaky. falters sometimes, peaks others. surge protectors protect from PEAKS, but only within specified range, and they do *NOTHING* at all in case of DIPS in current. i told them the computer gets conFUSED, emphasis on FUSED. but noooo.... UPS = more "junk" in the house... DUH.



i am so frustrated with this. and with rehashing this problem over and over and over and over. and each time they look at me and go "the computer is acting up again." ARGHHHHH!!! And NO, we don't have (trustworthy) repair shops/people we can go to, although i frankly think we are beyond that point with this poor machine.

~ waves ~ tired and irritable and wishing the chest pain would stop.

I am very sorry to hear about the chest pain, have you noticed this before when you have taken the zoloft? Or did this come out of the blue? zoloft has been a good antidepressant for you for a long time maybe you are having cardiac issues? could this be the case? am sorry you are having them irregardless of the cause.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

i took Zoloft several times spanning several years, without chest pain or breathing problems even during titration.

Chest pain is a known side effect of Zoloft but i had never had it the way i had it this time.

It has remitted over the past 2 days (WHEW!)

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LAST TIME i took Zoloft, when i went to 50 mg Zoloft, i had intermittent bouts of chest pain that came with difficulty breathing, sometimes lightheadedness, fatigue. i was always weak and tired. some bouts came out of the blue, but any activity would trigger one. eg: brushing my teeth i would get out of breath and weak to the point of feeling faint and having to lie down.

i felt it was unlikely to be the drug as i'd had bad spring allergies with chest pain, coughing/difficulty breathing, fatigue. i thought it was "just" my body acting up on its own.

NOW GET THIS:

i saw, only last night, that Zoloft can cause BRONCHOSPASM!!!!


well i'll be darned! how did i ever miss that back then!

so now, my theory as to what happened last time is that i likely had bronchial sensitivity from my earlier troubles and was probably predisposed to this side effect of the Zoloft, but that it wasn't "just" my body, acting up all on its own.

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THIS TIME, chest pain was constant and without accompanying respiratory distress. i had an easier time with allergies this year although i've had a bit of cough. i do find myself panting doing things that normally wouldn't cause it, but not like last time. could just be fatigue.

The chest pain has seemed directly related to the Zoloft since it got worse during the day, as the drug peaked, and then slowly better. first time for everything, i guess.

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in the past, i've had lucid dreaming with Zoloft titration. i love that. unfortunately i have had no such luck this time or last. oh well.

Zoloft is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get!

~ waves ~

Dear Mari

i loved the pretty orange fish you posted for me! thank you for finding that! and that is some feisty meaning. i could use some feist. (i enjoyed the buddhist iconography page too.) pdoc and i have been talking about situations (all too many) when i end up feeling like a mollusc. unfortunately depression predisposes to that. and anxiety too. well there is a lot mixed up in it. anyway. i so loved that little fish. beautiful.

I think the Zoloft MIGHT be helping a little. i have been more active but still housebound. i still have terrible problems with every little thing. i have been cooking a fair bit. sometimes actual meals or complex things. sometimes just very simple things like a batch of basmati for mom and i to snack from. i still have a long way to go. i am fearful of going up on the Zoloft. i have bouts of aggressivity which are probably a product of surroundings and mood - pdoc does not feel it is the Zoloft.

but i don't think i want to risk upping the ante on it with more Zoloft. it's basically when i really really need peace and cannot get it, after a while, i blow a gasket. it's more general exasperation and not really directed. however if someone contributes to the "bad situation" or tries to interact with me at such a time, they are liable to get snapped at. and then i feel bad and cry and feel like an evil monster.

~ waves ~ in good company of this lovely orange fish

Hi... just a bit of general goings on from my microcosm here

i have not found an explicit enough way to let my parents know when i cannot engage. especially my mother. eg: i say: "i do not want to speak or be spoken to," and 5 mins later mom "needs" to know something and says... "just this one thing then i'll leave you alone" ... and this is in the BEST of scenarios. it seems to be thing with her. this used to happen when i was growing up and had my own room, and would close the door with a sign saying please keep out along with issuing a spoken request. she'd INVARIABLY knock on the door with "just this one thing" ... worse than Lt. Columbo, dang it!

Suggestions on how i can handle momma Columbo? General statements do not work... even specific ones don't... sigh. ignoring her hasn't worked either btw. so now what??? any ideas?

so far the only effective thing is when it gets so bad i snap OR go into a meltdown and she then goes to sulk in their room ... renouncing anything she might have planned to watch on tv, etc. then i feel like a total ***** for chasing her out of the main living areas.

i would like a peaceful way to block interaction for a time.

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i had to fill out a form the other day. took a lorazepam preventively because i was winding up but i never got through it. i started.... i entered 2 things. both of them wrong. the very first was my birthday. i thought about it carefully, about which order i was supposed to put the day/month in. filled it in and still screwed it up. my head is not with it.

it was one of those write inside the boxes form, don't erase etc etc. my mother ended up doing the rest of the form with me present. heck.

so i know my head is not all there, at least, not all the time. sometimes my concentration is good. other times it is like what concentration, who me?

but i tell ya. when i took lorazepam twice one day (2.5 mg am and 2.5 mg pm) the next day i felt so much better (calmer), even just on waking. i won't take it regularly like that, but i am going to be a bit more free rein with it for the moment. whatever works. pdoc said it would be fine for a while.



~ waves ~

p.s. i posted separately for different things, so there are 2 other new posts on the previous page

Hope you are doing OK., I am thinking about you and of course bizi. I need to go in too to the dr. I am going to have another endoscopy and then the other parts too will need to be looked at. Be brave and I will too. ginnie