I had potato soup from Subway for dinner today.

I am trying my best to get back on track of dieting.

But its not been the best. Just life.

I have to get a new battery for my scales. Stupid thing
just reads E as in something.

Donna

thanks Ginnie
practically all of the time it just seems like me complaining and whining about my depression. you are so brave. i wish i had some of your bravery.
lately i have been so confused as to what to try. today i am not going to the senior center. I just took a bath and washed my hair. it won't be dry in time. i spent the morning finishing a fluff book and felt guilty that i was reading it because it had no value except to escape. i still don't feel like calling the eye doctor for an appointment. i really don't think anything is wrong there but who knows. i am tired of worrying about my health. I am mad at myself for not being able to continue on my diet. Yesterday i had four of those oranges. they were on sale. they were delicious. today i probably will have spinach and eggs. i wish i could make friends with my depression.
bobby

it really is hard to get back on track of dieting. life is really complex. i am afraid i will have to get batteries soon for my scale. all these little headaches. i hope we don't gain back all the weight we lost. that would really be dismal
bobby

Hi bobby, Oh I am not brave at all really. I just scrape by and come here for the same reasons you do. I struggle with the depression too. I miss my career, being able to walk good, all kinds of stuff. I read for escape all the time, and burry myself in that book, to where all things negative slide away.
I try not to beat on myself, none of us ask for these conditions we have. I come here and talk and give comfort, in that way it helps me to remember I am not alone, that others suffer as I do. It also humbles me, that so many have worse conditions than I do. I try to treat myself kindly. So much time revolves around doctors visits, it ticks me off. I tell my body parts to take a number, I'll get to you when I can. I lack motivation too. I am also gaining weight which I worked hard to loose, as my activity level as gone down as the conditions wosen in my feet and ankles. I am just like you, struggle, pray, help others, move on to the next thing. I just refuse to let the depression beat me down again. I take Saraline to help too. My support at home is really good, and the friends I have made here right on NT, have helped me to cope.
I am going to go to the store and see if there are some more of those oranges. Just the color is a happy color. Keep trying to distract yourself, and tell your self kind things. I am always here, to listen, I do care. None of it is easy, no matter what ails us. We are a family here bobby, and we can support each other through space and time right here.
I also found something really beautiful yesterday. go to Google and look up Virtual choir. There is a conductor named Eric Whitacre. He directed 2,000 people through space to sing together. It connected the whole world in song. It made me cry, and appreciate all the races coming together, instead of fighting. 48 countries were joined. That music lifted me up to a higher place, and brough some peace. If you can, listen to it, and let me know what you think. ginnie The name of one of the songs was called Sleep, and there were 5 lulabys of Jewish heritage that were beautiful!

Bobby

Not going to the center because you took care of your self is okay.

But get back tomorrow, if you can. I think you will call the eye doctor
later this week. Maybe on March 1st. I think you should just get it
out of the way. I know, easier said than done.

Nothing wrong is better news, so its something to hear.

Donna

keep taking care of you!
((((HUGS))))
bizi
ginnie is so wise, bless you dear ginnie.

because of you i just called medicare and my eye doctor. i called medicare to see if they will cover a second visit in a year and they said for a routine eye exam no and for diabetes once every 12 months unlesss there is an exception for something. i called the doctor's office and asked if it would be covered by medicare and they said yes because it is for medical reasons. i didn't ask what type of medical reasons but the secretary said that medicare would pay.
i scheduled it for as school as possible and really nervous. it is thursday at four o clock. eeks.
thanks for pushing me
bobby

thank you ginnie for your beautiful reply. it made me feel better. i went and listened to some of his music. it was beautiful and the concept really interesting.
bobby

Glad you listened to it. It is a connection to all of humanity. ginnie

i don't think i am going to go to the center today. i am really anxious about the eye appointment but will be glad when i get it out of the way. I am telling myself whatever God wants, God gets. I have no motivation to go to the center and don't feel like pushing myself. I think i might take two clonopins instead of one now and one at night
bobby