Happy Birthday, Dear Bobby!



How lovely of your friend to take you out. I hope you have a wonderful time together at your favorite restaurant! (and good food too! )

love

~ waves ~

Hey there...

how did your outing go yesterday? did you enjoy yourself?

how are you doing today?

love

~ waves ~

i took your post very seriously and that is probably the reason why i am feeling so down. thank you for taking the time.
bobby

thank you so much everybody. I really appreciated it. I was really down yesterday so I couldn't reply. the dinner went very well. it was just alice and me and two drinks of sangria. I told her i was blessed to have her as a friend and blessed to have her help. she said she was thankful for being able to give it to me. we argued over whether i was dumb or not. I have been feeling very dumb lately and she said no i wasn't and that was one of the reasons she liked me. that was sort of funny.
my friend kathy,one of my oldest friends since childhood called and wished me a happy birthday. she is going on a trip to Utah to her husband to the national parks. she made me laugh. her husband is a celloist and went round trip to california with his cello having its own seat and collecting frequent miles. they used the cello's frequent miles as part of the deal. I could just imagine the cello with the beret. they called it cell and their last name. the cello even received mail! another friend invited me out so I will be going celebrating three more times. I skipped the senior center today. I was just too depressed.
bobby

thanks Waves
I feel so ungrateful.

Love
Bobby

Bobby

I can't bring the threads back like you guys can. But I read the fact that
mine upset you.

I'm sorry. Confused a little. But I'm sorry.

Wasn't meaning it that way.

I'm not feeling well this week, so don't take my words to heart.

Just take my apology.

Donna

Dear Bobby

you are very smart Bobby. Depression likes to tell us we are dumb. And it likes to make us sort of not as with it too, so that we aren't up to our usual selves and sometimes slip up and then we point fingers and think we have proof of being dumb, when allllll along... it's one of Depression's mean tricks. One of the meanest. I'm so glad you and Alice have each other.
i love it! confused... unless this friend is taking you out 3 times? don't worry, you don't need to explain. I am glad to hear you are definitely going out again... three times gladder if it's three times lol.

i'm sorry. i know what you mean. past two days i've not been good either. this is a complicated time and it might take a little while for the Zoloft to work.

do you mean you don't feel grateful, but believe you should feel grateful? are you placing expectations on your feelings? i know it's hard, but try not to do that. sometimes we just feel the way we feel and that's it. sometimes we don't have it in us to feel more, you know? tonight i ate dinner that my mom cooked. she put some sort of spice mix i didn't like on the turkey, which was also overdone. i didn't complain, and i kept thinking to myself, beggars can't be choosers - i should be grateful. i wasn't. but that line of thinking certaiinly did NOT increase my inclination towards gratitude!!!

I've been feeling angry and resentful and some ugly things. but you know, they are just feelings. I probably need to pay attention to these. We can't eradicate feelings we don't like any more than a tiger can pull out its fangs. And we can't force ourselves to feel something we don't, any more than we can grow a third arm. Feelings are part of being human, at the best and worst of times. Depression is the worst of times. But in any circumstance, you can acknowledge how you feel. You might not like it, and that's ok - something to acknowledge also. You can also remind yourself it is just where you are at, right now. But remember, you have felt other things before, things you like, and you will feel them again. You will be able to feel grateful again Bobby. It may be "temporarily disabled" - like Depression tripped a breaker or something.

You are still you, and you are a good soul, Bobby. Love you lots. (((hugs)))

~ waves ~

waves said all of the right things....I agree with her.
You are wonderful.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hi
I don't think your post upset me. I have just been in a terrible mood and that is why it is taking me so long to respond and to read the other posts. I am so sorry.
bobby

dear waves
I think you are right about depression makes one feel dumb. it fits. thank you for the answer. today i have been having awful imaginery. i went to my therapist yesterday and told her how depressed i have been but she wasn't able to help.
about the cello....my friend's last name rhymes with cello so it is really funnier.
love
bobby hoping you feel better.