I told jeff what happened and he asked me why did I do that.
It is hard to explain, I am seeking a way to get more motivated in life, exhibiting some depression both my pdoc and tdoc worried about that and wanted me to try a small dose of an ssri which scared me since the last time I tried that I went manic. so my illogical thinking thought that if I went off the geodon then I would maybe experience some hypomania and give me some extra energy....bad thinking. This all happened in such a short amount of time...I really had not even thought of going off of geodon until I realized that I accidentally missed the dose then it just was impulsive and then the thinking came about after I took the evening dose with my nite meds.... hind site.
The therapy was getting to be primarily about my drinking behavior and how I was abusing alcohol and should quit. I don't want to quit....until I have a better handle on my drinking I am not going to see her until then.
thank you for your comments and support.
bizi