This is Fantastic Bizi.

Now remember to also relax in that schedule.

Donna

I tried drinking warm Hops tea years ago. Hops is a grain which has been used in the making of beer. The tea is a non-alcohol beverage.

From what I remembered it was relaxing. I tried other things,and got away from herbs,and teas. I don't know why I stopped. I started trying more vitamins.

Now if Hops tea makes you desire a beer,please drop my idea. BF

Today is hubby's 50th birthday, he just got his cupcakes delivered to him with the big balloon. He was very surprised! love it! I don't think he has a clue about tonights party which is great! it will be alot of fun.
15 days and counting
bizi

Hi, Bizi,

Have fun at your party tonight!!


M

The party was fun, low key....jeff was really surprised. we had fun.
getting ready to watch an exfiles for his last birthday event before we get to bed.
bizi

Dear Bizi,

So good to hear that he liked his birthday and that your plans worked.

Mari

Had a very hard time tonight.....
long day at work, tired hungry,
drove home and stopped right at the entrance to our little bar. stopped in the middle of the street debating about going in for a dinner and a few drinks. Could not decide, so I sat there for awhile until I saw someone coming up behind me and then turned down my street to go home. Ate left over ribs from last night, a left over cup cake and a nectarine. Am full now, Jeff is not due home for another hour or so. He is playing for a rehearsal dinner. You see My mind was working on the fact that I could secretly go drink and get home before jeff got home....Integrity is doing the right thing when no one is looking. Being honest with myself, I wanted to have some fun....but realized that going there I would be letting down myself so came home.
I will see how long this fast takes me.....I can't see a dry mardi gras or new years or cruise in feb. I know that there will be drinking for celebrations. But that is months away. january 1st is my birthday, I am going to see if I can make it until then.
I was very close to giving in tonight, glad that I did not.
bizi

Hi Bizi With me,it took six months to slowly stop drinking. Then after another six months I was off of it all together.

I know it's hard at times,but it's worth it. I'm sorry that you had a bad day. These days are difficult.

I had a very high tolerance for alcohol. I could drink 2 six packs of beer each night. I also drank 151 rum when I wanted to get smashed. I started drinking vodka during the day before I stopped.

I stopped drinking when my doctor gave me Quaalude for sleeping for two years,and after that time I wanted to get off of them. He did not taper me off of them,and I ended up drinking again. At this time I was severely stressed,and my neck tension was the worse,and my hands shook. My mind felt like it was going to snap. I had problems for awhile. I made it through this period of time.

Then it was about 2 years later that I stopped drinking for good. I separated myself from my drinking friends. All they wanted to do was drink,and draw me back to it.

It was not easy,but I've been sober for over 20 years. I deal with my anxiety problems in therapy,and a better form of medication now.

Hugs to you. BF

Dear Bizi,

You are doing so well following your plan.
Congratulate yourself when you do well.

I think that we can have different kinds of fun. Your therapist can help you find new ways to have fun.

M

Dear Steve,

I wish I could take away the suffering you have been through.



M