Depressing tv documentary
 

Hi,

I watched more than an hour of a 140-minute documentary on PBS tonight.

56 Up
http://www.pbs.org/pov/56up/


The producers have been following and checking in with a group of people every seven years starting in 1964 when they were seven years old. Now they are 56 years old.

(I remember watching the last one seven years ago so I thought I wanted to catch up with the people.)

NOT A GOOD IDEA.
It was depressing to (re-)watch people over their whole lives up to now.
The people were mostly happy and well. They can look on their lives with good perspectives and seem mostly happy.

Still, I was a problem and I am not too sure why.
I think I will not watch the rest.

Mari

Hi,

I have been reading about Red Palm oil as an anti-oxidant:

Apparently, one is to find a sustainable brand.
http://blog.doctoroz.com/dr-oz-blog/...inable-choices
. . . So I put some Juka's Red Palm Oil (100% Organic & Natural From Africa)in my Amazon cart to buy when I get paid.

Mari

http://i419.photobucket.com/albums/p...ps76acff60.jpg

what an interesting looking nut!

I cooked tonight!
 

Perhaps I have more energy.

During the day today / Wednesday, I seemed to have more energy than I usually do.

After work I stopped to buy material for soup.
Usually, I supervise hubby while he makes soup or dump the ingredients in the kitchen and tell him to make soup, letting him work out the details.

Tonight I shopped for what I needed:
~swiss chard
~kale
~onion
~mushrooms
~baby carrots (no chopping necessary)
~rotisserie chicken

When I got home I found a head of garlic in the fridge.

I gave hubby the chicken for tonight and tomorrow and said I wanted the bones for the soup.
I started the bones boiling in water while I prepared the other ingredients.

I "pre-boiled" the carrots in a large frying pan before adding them to the big pot. I do not know why I did that or if it was necessary. It felt helpful. Dunno why.
I sautéed the garlic and onion separately
I tossed the mushrooms in the frying pan with some oil for texture and dumped them into the boiling water.
Lastly, I cleaned and tore in to appropriate sizes pieces the kale and swiss chard.
Then I added salt and pepper.

For the finishing touch, Hubby squirted a half of a lemon over each bowl of soup. We both enjoyed the soup.


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I cannot believe I cooked something that involved so much work.

I even cleaned up. :cool: :eek: :D

M

Wow! I am impressed. Good job and You even cleaned up! WOW!
happy for you and the soup sounded great!
yes it does sound like you had more energy.
have a great day.
bizi

Very depressed today.

Up then down....
life of a bipolar....
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I slept six hours. :Dancing-Chilli:

'Woke up with out the alarm clock, had two cups of green tea, took a shower, and took care of banking stuff --- a big morning! ;)

M

sounds like a great morning and it is friday!
bizi

Energy levels with low mood
 

Mood and sleep low.
Energy up -- I am trying to be careful and not to mess up.

tales from the pharmacy
 

Hi,

Usually I call in my renewals.

Something told me to stop by the pharmacy during my errands on Tuesday.

I needed to renew four meds.
The person at the computer said that the Klonopin could not be refilled.
I stood at the counter long enough for her to carefully examine my computer record.
She called the head pharmacist over and those two CORRECTED the record.

Someone goofed a month ago.
Thank goodness that I was there to get those two to fix it.
I pick up all four of my meds -- including the Klonopin -- on Wednesday.

M

well I am glad that things worked out!
glad that you were able to get all 4 meds and not have to make another trip!
My key board is sticking so I am not able to make question marks or periods!
We have a new keyboard, jeff spilled his beer on this one a while ago, he just needs to install it!
bizi

5 hours of sleep
 

Hi,

I desperately need more sleep.
I woke up with the alarm and made some tea.


I hope I am ready face the day soon.

Mari

Mari, I am hoping that you can catch some sleep this weekend.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I slept 6 1/2 hours. I feel better.

I hope to sleep more tonight.

M

brain is foggy
 

I am so lost.
My brain is not working and am not sure if it ever did.

I got some work emails in the last few hours that I do not know how to answer.
I cannot admit that I do not recall.

M

depressed and overwhelmed
 

I am not coping very well.

Hi Mari,

Is there a colleague you can turn to for help?

I am sorry you are having such a hard time.
:hug::hug::hug:

Hi Mari. I'm sorry that your are going through emotional pain. I hope that you feel better soon. It's hard to keep the meds straight sometimes.

I have 4 meds to pick up when I need refills. I had to call my tdoc to have my Xanax refilled. They are real strict with Xanax. I'm always glad when my tdoc calls me back,and tells me that she has called my pharmacy.

It should not be so hard for us to get our refills. We get a months worth. I think that it would be nice if we got three months worth. I don't like going to the pharmacy ever month. It's a strange system,and we are fighting difficult hardships with our mental health issues. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am sorry it is so hard right now.Do you have to answer the emails tonight?
bizi

Hi, Waves,

It feels like there is no one.
I cannot reveal the bipolar or the medication that makes it worse.

M

I'm so sorry Mari. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hi, Bizi,

I tired to answer some but apparently my answers were not to satisfaction because I got some more.

Finally, I simply said, "I will see you Monday."

M

Thanks, Steve,

I have been feeling lost this whole weekend.
I was home inside the whole time --- usually I go out to run an errand or two or buy gas. Maybe I should have gone out.

M

ugh!
well then try to let go of it and rest before you have to go into work.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Mari :Heart:

I wish it were possible for you to seek help without being asked to justify it. I understand feeling unable to reach out. I am sorry. :hug:
Mari, this works. The problem is solved for now.

Does going outside feel grounding to you? Hopefully, once you get out and about tomorrow, you will feel somewhat better. I do hope you can sleep tonight. :hug::hug:

waves

When I feel really down,I don't go anywhere either most of the time. I understand the feeling,and a false sense of guilt for not doing anything. Sometimes I cease all activity. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am sorry that you felt lost this weekend.
Maybe you can listen to your favorite music for a while....
bizi

These work situations have a way of working out. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am heading to bed Mari, I hope that you can rest before work monday.
nite
bizi

I seem to have missed everything.

Sorry.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Hi

I slept 3 hrs.
The good news is that tomorrow and Thurs I can do not have to come into work and can work from home those two days.
I will sleep longer and, more importantly, get a break from dealing with people directly. (Tthey can send email that I can try to ignore. ;) ).

M

today must have been a hard day.
glad that you will be able to work from home soon! yeah!
bizi

Glad you can work from home.

That should help.

donna:hug::grouphug:

Mark Twain said in the 1800's,The more I learn about people,the more I like my dog. Mark Twain

BF:hug::hug::hug:

Bizi,

That sounds about right.
I like most people.
I tremendously dislike all bosses I have had in my life except a manager I had when I was a waitress at Denney's when I was 19 or so.

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The other day I reminded Work Buddy we had a meeting and that he needed to be there so I could stay home and "work-on-my-suntan."
He said he would handle the meeting and that I should work on my suntan.

I think he is thinking I use the expression as general time for relaxing but I really did get some 80 degrees bright sun in the early after noon for 15 minutes.
It was lovely.
I going to miss a b.s. meeting Thurs as well because I am choosing to stay home.

M

glad that you got some vit. D!
We are expected to have lots of rain and wind today....poor jeff, we decorate the house up and then may not have any trick or treaters we may have to stay in the house and use umbrellas, guess it can't always be nice for halloween, this is the first year for rain since we have been here for the past almost 13 years. Do you pass out candy any kids show up?

bizi

Oh Mari, sorry to hear, and hope, very much you are
 

feeling better. Recently went thru a similar period and i know it affected me cognitivitely as well as emotionally and physically. Hope you will be doing better sooon, if not already!:hug:

i am so glad you are taking care and nurturing yourself
bobby