Waves,

Wow. Just wow.
You are right. There is some hope . . or if not that . . . There is a statistical
possibility (low or not) within the realm of reality that things can be o.k.

Sorry, Bobby. I think I am depressed and tired today.


Bobby,

Your friend is not being helpful.
Geeze.


M

i just wanted to offer you a hug. am away from my home and on a lap top....
((((((((HUGS))))))))))
bizi

thanks so much
bobby

Hugs from me too.

Donna

Me three

love

waves

Hi, Bobby,

We are here for you.

Mari

((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I fell asleep early last night for two hours and then stayed awake .....i took a fifteen minute nap around nine. I feel so unstable. I don't know if the zoloft is interfering with my irregular sleep anyways and making it worse. I also don't know if i am a bit manic. I have read three long books in three days. .just historical romances. I am not worried as much about my taxes now and let it drop. If i get fined i get fined.if i have to pay a lot i have to pay a lot. I am worried about the air conditioning bill. I can't stand it though when my apartment gets hot. I also worry about my kitty cats.
I can't help but worry about abby. she seems to be doing okay except for a couple of days of not eating much. she is active.
I think the zoloft is taking away some of the depression but leaving me in a weird state.
Oh I think my friend Mike who is always depressed is bipolar II. His new landlord wants everybody(four) in the building to leave and he has places for them. three of the people don't want to leave and mike feels a loyalty to them and doesn't want to leave because of them.he knows that they will renovate the apartment building and have to live with a lot of noise and dirt and dust. He just wishes his life were over.
I got on the scale and weighed more than i have in four years. I don't know what to do. I had a big dinner on saturday with the greatest french fries and a lot of them and then on sunday my friend brought me a delicious bagel with cream cheese. I had two small slices of pizza this week. I am debating whether to go to the senior center today or just have zucchini for lunch...microwaves with a little butter.\
i bought some books also. 26 (in a lot) one day and 7 just yesterday....I have so many books i haven't read. I think i will throw out some that i think i will never read.
bobby

When is your next appointment?

Have you done the book-buying thing just recently? Is that a lot compared to what you usually do?

I hope you are not getting manic.... SSRI's can do that depending how you react to each. I went manic hard on Paxil... very fast, very big, very obvious reaction. Neither Zoloft nor Celexa/Lexapro did anything close to that, to me, but it's a very individual thing.

love
waves

on thursday. i have been downloading book for kindle every day. i download the ones that are free and occasionally buy one. I haven't bought a lot of books in a long time. I don't feel guilty although i have money issues. right now i have the air conditioning on and had it on all night. I also scan ebay for shoes.i had been buying cheap size 10s and then recently realized that i take a 9 1/2...no wonder i had trouble with the shoes. I also went on a splurge of v neck tee shirts.
I think i want to go higher on the zoloft to see if it further helps my depression. I still lack motivation and lately have been having a hard time going to the senior center. I have been staying alone most of the time.l
love
bobby