Hi, Waves,

I was taught to push through no matter the feeling (both parents were into this).
I believe I was taught wrong. BUT I am able to practice this pushing through stuff when I need to call on it. (It is rather confusing.)
Sometimes I sense that I cannot trust my self and instead move foreword anyway.

Excellent. You are building on that. I get it.

Completely logical.
I admit to being a little lost here and the part right after:

What will be worthwhile?

And yes, the sliding into other avenues is unlikely
This means you have a plan (of sorts at least) and are clear on the plan.
Also on how to implement the plan. (? yes ? )
O.K. YOu are prepared to change your mind if it is pukey.

ABSOLUTELY!!!!! http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys/smiley-bounce015.gif

Yes. Three times a week or more. That is doable.
Each time you take a step forward, reflect on that and how worth it was and how you feel about it.
Then take the next step.
Believe it is worth while -- even if you only believe 75%. 75% is way more than nil.

Mari
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The pain is focused right at the ball of the foot. It extends a little down towards the arch, but is mostly at the ball. I use a 2"x 1" NSAID-medicated bandage just on the ball of my foot shifted slightly down. It helps to stay off feet. The medication works well also, but it will not do squat if the inflammation gets bad, with swelling etc. The "prescription" for that is complete rest.

I had a very bad experience with that. In 2005, I had gotten hired as an Engllish teacher (EFL) at a very prominent institute here. I was having the foot problems but could get about with medication, caution, etc. The weekend preceding the orientation week, both my feet blew up into big red balls. It also snowed bunches so ice everywhere on Monday. The orientation was in an adjacent city. I called and cancelled, because I could not hack the travel, with or without ice, and did not see how I could hack 8 hours in a classroom right then. (I could not even keep regular shoes on without pain.)

I basically blew the entire job in so doing. And boy, did that Scottish lady ever get mad! She had already assigned me classes, so I really screwed her over. :( I still feel very bad about it. I wish I had and feel like I should have figured out a way. But I still don't know what way I could have figured.

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The fascitis, which affects mostly the inside half of my arch overlaps with the sesamoiditis pain on that side. Also, when I do stretches for the fascitis, I have to hold back or the sesamoid area screams. I do the same stretches on the other foot with no fascitis but worse sesamoiditis: oddly, its sesamoid does not complain. I don't think the causes are related but it does seem that each might make the other worse.
:confused:

Ok, yes, then I will investigate it with you. Hehe. :cool:
My doctor talks a lot but does not convey information.
[/quote]He shoulda been a lawyer. Or a politician! :D
I hope it lifts soon and you feel better. :(:hug::hug::hug::Heart:

waves

Waves,
how did you reinjure your sesamoids, from the stepper?
bizi

I didn't reinjure them... they act up sometimes but haven't had this much in years.

Usually it's excessive weight bearing that makes tthem complain -- not aware of anything I did.

So you don't know why they have acted up?
that is odd.
sorry that they are acting up.
bizi

Thanks Bizi

They acted up worse than usual is all. I've been hauling big/heavy stuff around, and doing other things.

I have gained about 4 lbs over the past 6 weeks or so. :(

I'm a little afraid it could be the gabapentin which would suck. THe timing would be right.

Up until a couple of months ago, I was definitely continuing to lose weight and I don't think I've changed my eating much.

I want to keep the gabapentin on board because it really keeps the number of migraines down, and I tolerate it very well now that I am not on Depakote any more.

But I will reevaluate if I see more pounds. I had lost 27 lbs. I don't want to have to start all over again. :(

waves

wow waves you had lost 27 pounds!!!!
That is fabulous!!!!!
congratulations ...how did you do it. over what time frame? what diet did you use or just portion control? curious minds what to lose weight too!
bizi

Right or wrong, it is a useful skill to be taught. I can see where it needs to be mitigated though, or could hurt. I am glad you can summon it up as needed. That sounds right/useful.

I was taught that when the going got tough, the mother got going. :o

Sometimes, like right now, I can assess my feelings not to be in line with reality. Maybe it is a similar thing.

Just saying that my choice of C# is based on personal like/dislike, not marketability. If I'm going to invest, might as well invest in something I like more rather than less. That said, C# is also a fairly up-and-coming with a growing market.

Oh just what I am doing... any of it. :)
Yes. Mainly to learn by doing, i.e. writing code. I have what seems to be a solid tutorial I am working from and there are plenty of online developer resources. I am also looking up the acronyms I run across and reading up to get the theory behind some new methodologies. (This is where the good resume buzz-words come from. :))

I may be better at self-teaching than I thought, but I am still a dreadful student. I didn't do anything today and very little the past few days. I cannot get motivated. I maybe sound motivated but I am resisting like crazy. It doesn't help I've been tired and just sort of off-feeling.
:):):):hug:

I will try to do that stopping and reflecting thing.

I like that 75% clause, LOL. Makes it more doable.

waves

Bizi

No diet, no predefined portion control. Just not eating when not hungry, which includes stopping eating when I stop being hungry.

That is over the period of about a year, but I lost maybe 20 lbs in 6 months, then it slowed down and stuttered a little. I had another spell in Feb where I put on maybe only 3 lbs, but it's more now and it makes me nervous... because I wanted to lose more, not gain it back!

Actually come to think this recent gain may all have been in the past 2-3 weeks ... and I think I've been dabbling in pleasure eating a bit more than exceptionally... guess I'm paying the piper, but gosh I hope it's this and not the gabapentin.