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Thanks, Mari. I think today I will try to focus on myself -- my person... have a shower, change the bedding, wash some hand wash.

Depending if there is cooking or not I will perhaps start to pull out some clothes. I change the closet out seasonally, but did not do it this summer because we never got real heat. But it had gotten messy, and without the changeover, it is messier. Also there are some summer things kind of added to it. I want to try to get rid of some things though.


waves

Maybe you can have a family sit down to talk about all of the stuff? So you may have a better idea of what you can get away with in regards to the recycling of things.
Good luck taking care of yourself. I took a shower the day before yesterday, it feels so glorious when I am done...it is just so hard to get myself to take one.
bizi

Thanks, I know what you mean. :o I am stalling as I type. And eating peanuts with coffee. I did change the bedding, and am running the washer, with my sheets and some personal items. If I don't get myself in the shower w/in 20 mins it will be too late. (By 6, because we eat at 7 and I take an hour to shower.)

waves, I forgot that the broccoli salad had bacon in it so maybe it was an apple wood bacon ????
bizi

Ahh, ok, thanks. The best I could do is regular bacon around here... but I don't really eat meat so would skip the bacon altogether. Bacon is a significant taste component though... would not be anywhere near the same doing it without, so I might not bother. Anyway thanks for letting me know.

You know what I'm thinking -- this is a tangent -- that apples might taste really good with broccoli. :D In winter when we get apples again I'll try a broccoli-apple-nut salad, perhaps with a little ginger and cinnamon. Will toss with lemon and a little oil, maybe olive, maybe sesame.

waves

Dear Waves,

It has been awhile but I remember that the changing of the seasons help us put the past behind and prepare for new beginnings.
It helps best when the season change is gradual. In addition to the weather, we see other people responding to the changes by wearing different clothes (esp colors ?).



Mari

I don't feel the seasonal changes much since not working. I am out and about very little.

I am sort of outside of normal life right now. :o

I wear the same t-shirts in the house, throughout the year. I wear something on top if it's cold. Those things are always around.

I do the same thing :) T shirts in a temperature controlled environment are fine for any season.

I love reading the posts on this board. They cheer me up. Nice caring people all around.

Come to think of it I didn't change clothes too much even when I was outside a lot :) I was kind of crazy that way. Would freeze in winter lol

I had insomnia all night and now I know why. I forgot to take my 12.5 ambien with flexeril. It has been working great and the big dose of ambien is because I am a big guy. How could I forget lol

glad to hear mark that the ambien works!:)
sorry you missed it last night.
bizi

I am feeling dreadful. I've been on and off down, but still managing to get by, but too much is happening now.

I feel tired and anxious most of the time. Sometimes I also feel down, and sometimes I feel irritable.

I am running out of money, but at the same time, I feel crippled. I have a rock in my gut which quivers violently every time I look at job ads for more than 5 minutes. And then there's the obsessive part of me that won't send out resumes because I expect to be away for a bit so couldn't interview yet. Then I proceed to worry about my priorities, and argue with myself about whether it's right to put the resumes after anything else at all. Then I feel overwhelmed by my own internal argument, and go off and play a game so I can shut it all out. Why does my head have to do that. Why do I make up and impose arbitrary rules on myself. It is seems frighteningly similar to avoiding cracks in the sidewalk.

Right now, I am supposed to be happy. I mean, I know that I am somehow, about a nice thing that has come up. But a lot of pressures are involved, and emotional things. Anxiety has completely overshadowed the happy exxcitement. Now it is all nervous tiredness. I want to get in touch with my happy again. Why can't I feel it.

waves