In addition to logic, consider intuitive body healing.

Things are going to get better.

Some things/ feelings will be released or slide into dormant mood so that you can feel better.

M

Actually, this too is logical.

I had better work on releasing those feelings then, eh, and, in the meantime, perhaps try to contrast their effects, like with diaphragm exercises and benzos.

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Thanks for listening. I can really spew, in general, but in the past months it seems I've hit record spewage levels. If only I could write for real.

I hope you can get some sleep. I am setting about doing a load of laundry and some handwash.

waves

You guys have some interesting conversations in the middle of night for
me. I should check in when I'm up.

Hope you start to feel more your normal Waves.

Donna

I am not well at all.

I am depressed, cranky and anxious.

Still not eating as much as I should.

I hurt my shoulder now too. Using NSAID patches because I figure I cannot take the pills.

Biting my fingers to the bone.

Worried about money and other things.

waves

dear waves,
can you tell yourself this too will pass? i guess it means that your medications aren't working. should they be adjusted? I know how you are feeling except for lack of appetite. that i wouldn't worry about. just think, you can eat fattening food now or later. i sound stupid don't I?
love
bobby

I meant to restart the benzo but I keep forgetting to take it.

Sometimes I've taken it. Other times I've been so exahusted I haven't, just because I felt like I'd be knocked out.

I do not tell myself this too shall pass. That's what I tell other people, when I don't want them to worry about me.

Of course it is true -- everything passes, including life.

I just thought I'd post an update. I am sorry it couldn't be better. It is what it is.

love

waves

p.s. I cannot eat fattening food really -- too filling/makes me sick. I have to eat things very plain, and priority is to get down as much protein as I can, to make minimum. Other than that I get a portion of veg and/or fruit, and that is important or I won't go to the bathroom. For minerals/electrolytes, too. Also it just so happens bananas are easy on me, so I have those often. And cooked apples. All plain though. And in between, starches because they are easy on me, but not much because I just can't eat much, so by the time I've got a bit o protein and a veg or fruit down... I'm full and don't get hungry for hours!!! Fatty foods are hard on me, and that's where I'm losing all the calories because I normally eat a good bit of fat. Some complex foods are ok (like the christmas bread was ok, thank goodness, but I could only handle small pieces of it).

Waves

Sending you some hugs. And this to shall pass thoughts.

Donna

I'm so sorry you've been having such a difficult time since your trip away.

I have read a lot on the forums about morton's epsom lotion and wondered if you can get it where you live? It sounds as if it's extremely helpful for aches and pains.

feel stronger soon.

Have you ever considered an Hospital Strength Sustagen powder? I think they make one that has extra fibre in it these days too. It can really be helpful during very stressful times on body and mind and is easy to take. It's not something that people should rely on, but very good for short term.

Thank you for the hugs, Donna. Right backatcha to help weather that horrible, horrible cold you are in. I am still reeling from reading those temperatures!

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Thank you so much, Lara, for the kind thoughts and suggestions.

I will google the Sustagen. I was thinking of looking into something of the kind if this keeps up, although I have started being very careful and getting very nutrient-dense food, so perhaps that is enough. I will go to the doctor on Monday for my shoulder anyway, so I will ask if he thinks I'm ok on food, or if I should take something like that.

The shoulder right now has a very sharp pain, and it's strong enough to limit movement. I think I pulled something. I should probably get an ortho referral, and I want to see if it's ok for me to take Mobic in the meantime.

I will check Morton's as well -- might not be enough for the shoulder but we could use something like that for other things.

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