do you know why you are drinking too much? it is so difficult because it makes you feel good while you are drinking. how do you feel when you aren't drinking? can you make a list of all the things you are grateful for and that you enjoy?
love
bobby

It is common for Ambien to do that. She might need a different medication. Ambien is weird.
http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders...ia-medications

hi bobby
I think that I have a dependancy on alcohol....
and I like the way it tastes.
I think that I have more fun when I drink.
Am spending too much money on alcohol.
I just bought a 12 pack of these little bud light razzberryritas.
8oz can with 8% alcohol. they are so good.
I think that I had 4 of them tonight.
I think I am done for the evening...should get ready for bed am tired. I am hoping that I sleep better tonight.
thank you for your support bobby,
I have an addictive personality...over do what ever strikes my fancy.
drinking, eating, being on the computer are all areas that I abuse.
sigh
bizi

got this off of facebook, talking about one way to be poor...
 

http://elitedaily.com/life/motivatio...-happy/905962/



Passion Poor

Living without passion is one of the hungriest times you’ll face. It’s when the pain in the pit of your stomach is strongest, and when you think you could drown in the emptiness of your being.
You find yourself walking around as a ghost, just wandering, exploring — looking for something to fill you and ignite an ache deep inside you.
If you’ve never been passion poor, you’ve never been hungry enough to go out and find yourself one. We’re not all born with passion, the same way we’re not born full. You have to go out and find it. You have to go and feed yourself.
You have to experience a lot of things and go a lot of places you wouldn’t normally go unless you weren’t completely starved of inspiration.

???????????????????
 

Bizi,

Please explain how this reads to you? Clearly it must resonate with you in some way. I would like to understand.


That is the most depressing thing I have ever read.
What about those of us with 1: mental illness, 2. taking major drugs that dull us?

Is it useful to embrace squalor?
Facing bankruptcy . . . [Have you ever faced bankruptcy? I have.]

As an adult:
I did this -->>>>. . . not having enough rent, being broke and living on my home made bread pudding (I altered the standard recipe of bread, eggs, milk, sugar by making it higher protein with lowish sugar and lots of eggs).

I have truly and completely been broke --
Those were not times I cherish or would ever re-create.

What is this author's version of living with passion?????????


M

I only read what was posted. I didn't read anything else on facebook though so there's obviously more to it than what bizi posted.

I may be wrong but I just took it to mean something similar to saying life is short, make the most of it. Smell the roses. Live each day to the fullest. I didn't read it about being poor or hungry or about squalor. I read most of it as being metaphorical.

:confused:

:hug: for you Mari.

It is from Elite Daily The Voice of Generation Y

I read the whole link.

I am going to edit most of what I wrote.
I am angry about advice re embracing passion --
-- - about how being poor builds character. . . .

Bizi,


Big hug: :grouphug:
I am sorry that you are struggling.

Talk to your pdoc or your mdoc.
Maybe the mdoc can help you.

Are you being too hard on yourself about areas that you "abuse?"
You are a good person.

Mari

I too read only what was posted. It seemed to me that specific paragraph was what was relevant to Bizi. I thought that she posted the link to give a reference, which I appreciated. I umm, kind of yelled at her about indicating sources for bits of writing. :o Anyway, I much appreciated that the link was posted so we could see the authors/source.

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As to the paragraph posted:

First, I spent considerable time doing loopity loops over the quadruple negative in the last sentence.

"go a lot of places you wouldn’t normally go unless you weren’t completely starved of inspiration"

Having decided that was one negative too many to suit their point, my brain proceeded to hack to pieces the remaining rhetoric. :o It struck me that they associate the lack of passion with an intense pain in the pit of the stomach. I would argue (because I'm bloody argumentative, right) that if one feels such pain, if indeed one suffers for the absence of passion, that is itself a form of passion.

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When I was quite done demolishing the writing in my head, I finally started thinking in terms of what they might be trying to say, and what Bizi might have seen in that paragraph. I decided on this:

"If you don't have something that fires you up, go find it. Go find new stimuli."

I admit, I had a weird feeling about the going places I wouldn't go unless starving (a dumpster came to mind), but I assumed rosier scenarios. So much for that! :o But back to the working assumption, I thought of Bizi saying she wanted to find hobbies at times, and thought it might be along the lines of that: trying new things until some thing sets off a spark.

waves, who went to bed thinking I should be a professional critic. I seem to be able to find fault with everything... a lot of fault even.

Bizi, you are being observant, and this is good.

Addictions, as best I can tell, are not things that are overcome. They are things we live with, cope with. You are honing your coping skills. You will keep getting better and better at it.

:hug::hug::hug:

waves