Bobby,

I wonder if you are both depressed and manic.

Or maybe mostly manic with anxiety.


I hope you can manage to be o.k. somehow.


M

I don't know what i am. I do feel much better now that xmas is over.
I would feel a lot better if i could lose the weight i gained. right now i don't feel like going to the senior center today. I had some bison tonite and it was good.
I think i will order more. I am making coffee. I think i am going to start reading.
My anxiety is still high. I am getting more worried about the lab results. I am telling myself not to worry about high cholesterol. I also have been taking more klonopin than is prescribed. I still have a lot. I have a class on the phone today.
I should be so relieved about the jury duty. As i said i don't know what i am.
bobby

Hi, Bobby,

Yes, it is good that people over 70 are excused.I hope that the class is helpful to you today.


M

I'm happy that you are glad that you are exempt from jury duty...

I would have liked to serve. I asked my PCP to write a letter saying I needed to go to a court house that was handicapped accessible (the one I was to report to wasn't). He said the gov't doesn't want people on ant-psychotics serving on juries. He wrote a letter and they exempted me for life.

Aside from the unpleasant lab results, you're sounding more positive today :)

It doesn't matter that you're skipping the senior center... I'm glad you're getting back into reading, and you're looking forward to your class later.

I've tried bison a couple of times in restaurants and have really enjoyed it. I don't know if I could do it justice if I cooked it myself. I would hate to ruin it. Do you have it delivered refrigerated or frozen?

I have been thinking a lot about your anxiety. Sometimes when you take a benzo for a long time, especially at a higher dose, you can become kinda immune to it. I would discuss that with my pdoc if I were you. My only concern would be that you cannot take extra xanax.

I also think that there might be some truth in what Mari mentioned about a mixed episode. I don't have any experience with a mixed depressive episode (mainly depressive symptoms + symptoms of hypomania), but your really high anxiety that isn't responding to the klonopin may be mild hypomania. I know it's hard for me to tell the difference between high anxiety and mild hypo sx. You have also been binge-buying. Mari's a pretty smart cookie. In case this is a mixed episode, you really should be rescheduling that appointment with your pdoc.

I know you're probably tired of me trying to push you towards seeing your pdoc, but I think it's important since you've been suffering. But I care about you, and I only have your best interests at heart.
I know that I would not be doing as well as I am if I wasn't as honest with my pdoc as I am, and been reaching out to her when I need her the most.

:hug::hug::hug:

Kay

when i see him in two weeks, i'll ask him if i can switch from klonopin to xanax. I think i already asked him but will ask him again. my anxiety is a real problem.
I am on risperdal..i didn't know that could get me off. i just filled in the form with number two pencil. I can't believe i found one.I tried to fill it out on the web and it didn't give me all to fill out. the woman i called said something was wrong with the site.
I have been up since three. I am hyped up with three cups of coffee. I know i should cut down. I can drink it before i go to sleep and it doesn't interfere.
I really appreciate your caring and i am sorry i am probably frustrating you.
I am sorry
bobby

besides financial worries and health worries and being alone my anxiety comes from bipolar II, gad and post traumatic stress. that is a lot to ask for from a pill
bobby

You're not frustrating me :hug::hug::hug:

These are your decisions to make :hug::hug::hug:

We don't have to depend on one pill. Most of us need more than one, and we need to tweak them often. :hug::hug::hug:

thanks...i am also on welbutrin and risperdal and zoloft but klonopin for anxiety.
i am also on ramipril for blood pressure, fish oil for cholesterol and metformnin for diabetes
bobby

Drug interactions could be the source of your anxiety. :confused:

When you mix drugs who knows what can happen. :wink:

I had a friend years ago, she was as normal as anyone could be. She secretly went to more than one doctor and was prescribed many different drugs for anxiety. She went crazy. After her husband found out what she was doing he had her committed, yes forced her to stop all drugs. She straightened out after that. But she went kicking and screaming to get help. I always envied her for having someone who care enough to get involved when he saw she was in trouble. :hug:

i have always had anxiety, irritability and depression and wasn't diagnosed til 12 or 13 years ago. my psychiatrist knows a lot about drugs. although i do my own research i trust him. Your lucky friend!
bobby