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OhKay 03-05-2017 07:21 AM

When the anesthesia started to wear off, I was in more pain than I expected. It's a lot worse on the right side where the cyst was removed. The Vicodin has been helping though. I'm much better today and am looking forward to taking a shower later, but I think I'll be some degree of uncomfortable for a while.

Because she was going to be in the OR when I woke up from surgery, I chose to have my GYN leave a message about her findings on my VM rather than discuss them with my husband, who wouldn't understand her. Unfortunately, the VM got cut off, so there's some gaps in my knowledge.

Usually the little Nexplanon birth control implant that gets placed in the upper arm gets removed in the office. I've had two removed and have walked out with only bandaids, but for some reason I woke up from surgery with a HUGE bandage on the site and no post-op info or directions about it. I'll remove the bandage before I take a shower today to see what I'm dealing with there.

In addition to having the cyst removed and getting my tubes tied, I had a colposcopy, where the GYN can take a good hard look at your cervix with something called a colposcope, because I had an abnormal PAP smear about a month ago. I know that the she took 6 biopsies because she saw abnormalities, but that's about where the message got cut off, so that's all I know.

Boy, do I wish I could have heard the whole voice mail!!! I called the GYN's office to let them know I didn't get the full message. When they called back they said she was out of the office, but should get back to me Monday.
My post-op is scheduled for the 20th, but I'm sure the pathology results will be back well before then.

I'm feeling pretty numb at the moment.

mymorgy 03-05-2017 07:29 AM

you have been through so much. i hope you break down and cry for a release
love
bobby

OhKay 03-05-2017 08:18 AM

I really don't know why, but crying is a very, very rare thing for me.

mymorgy 03-05-2017 08:29 AM

I was never much of a crier but after Pumpkins died i almost totally stopped. I feel is all locked inside. tomorrow can;t wait for marcia to come and give me a lesson on compassion. I am so blocked with my sister and there is so much pain. oops sorry for using your thread

Mari 03-06-2017 01:06 AM

Kay,

I hope that you hear from the doctor Monday.


M

OhKay 03-06-2017 09:46 AM

Thank you, Mari :hug:

The Nexplanon should have been easy to remove. I have no idea what went wrong there, but the bandage on my arm was hiding an incision that had to be closed with steri-strips. I kept putting off my shower, but after I finally got my *** in there, I felt a lot better.

Unfortunately, I still need the Vicodin. I'm still pretty swollen, and from what I know about abdominal surgery, I think the two things are probably linked. I need a few things at the store, and since I won't drive, I asked my husband if he'd take me today, and he volunteered to go himself :)

I could have killed Buddy last night because he jumped from the floor onto my stomach while I was laying in bed. He only weighs 7 pounds, but he had momentum and hit me just right. Even worse, Rocky who weighs 25 pounds, decided to walk right across my stomach this morning… it was a rude awakening :(
Buddy crawls all over me whenever I'm at the computer. I'm trying very hard to keep him off of my lap, and he's trying very hard to get on it repeatedly.


Everyone in my family yelled. I cried. My tears were like blood in the water… a sign of weakness. I think I probably stopped crying out of self-preservation. Yelling is still rare for me, too.

I don't think you need a lesson in compassion Bobby. You have unresolved issues with your sister and that makes it difficult to complete the grieving process… that's something different.

mymorgy 03-06-2017 10:01 AM

i am sorrry about your cats. I think they have a sixth sense. you poor thing
love
bobby

Dmom3005 03-06-2017 10:47 AM

You will keep healing. And the cats will get over not being able to get on
the stomach. Just keep telling them no.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Mari 03-07-2017 04:07 AM

Kay,

I hope that the kitties give you a break by refraining from jumping on your stomach.

Everyone in my family yelled and cried. We were (are) loud people.
We curse a lot too.

When I am at work or in public I still have to consciously modulate my voice so I do not come across as loud and rude.
Certain curse words, thank goodness, have become more acceptable recently.


M

OhKay 03-07-2017 10:42 AM

Back to my pre-op weight… still swollen, but much less so this morning, and my pain is much better. Advil, no more Vicodin. I went to the BR, so I'm more comfortable in that sense as well.

My husband did go to the store for me yesterday :)
But we're running out of food, and since I'm feeling better and not on pain meds anymore, I think I'll venture out to do some proper grocery shopping tomorrow. I don't carry the bags anymore anyway.

My GYN didn't call me back yesterday… I'm ******!!! I put another call in to her office this morning. I'm going to ****ing flip out if she doesn't call me back today.

I narrowly escaped another morning walk-over from Rocky. I was awake enough to hear the little sounds he makes when he does it, and was able to roll over on my side before he got to my stomach, so he just rubbed up against my body instead :)


I grew up with a lot of swearing too, Mari. It took me a long time to control it, but I learned to do it pretty well with the occasional slips. I have almost zero control over it now that I stopped working and my husband, who works in construction, is my main contact with the outside world. I swear like a truck driver! Some people think it's really funny, others not so much.

mymorgy 03-07-2017 10:54 AM

i used to really swear ...i got it from going to a girl's school. lately it is reappearing. I like the f word

Dmom3005 03-07-2017 06:30 PM

I'm so glad you feel better. Please keep working on taking it easy.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

Mari 03-08-2017 04:12 AM

Kay,

It is good to hear that the pain is down. I wish you well in your recovery.

Rocky sounds so cute. How big is he?

M

OhKay 03-08-2017 08:57 AM

Rocky weighs 25 pounds!!! He's 1/2 Maine Coon, looks like it, and is double pawed. Buddy is a 7 pound male all-black domestic short hair, and Dottie is a 23 pound female with medium length fur who looks just like a cow lol. She got out into the hallway when the pizza man came last night, but she got scared, didn't know what to do, and ran back into the apartment lol.

The gynecologist never called me yesterday either. I'm very upset. I didn't leave my cellphone number when I left the last two messages because I expected to be home, but I'm going out today and I don't think they have it. I don't know if I'm going to bother calling back again though. I don't know when the pathology results will be in, but I wonder what I'll have to go through to get the results? I'm very discouraged.

Dmom3005 03-08-2017 11:06 AM

Its usually I think a week before they are ready. Not positive.

Just let them call the house phone, at least that way maybe a
message.

Donna :grouphug:

Mari 03-09-2017 12:22 AM

three beautiful cats
 
I did not know that cats can have extra paws:

Maine Coon Cat Video - Maine Coon Curiosities - Polydactyl Maine Coons - YouTube

:)

OhKay 03-09-2017 07:23 AM

Thanks for the video Mari. The kitties were adorable! :)
Rocky has tiger-like stripes like the first very young kitten. I named him Rocky because his paws were so big when he walked it looked like he was wearing boxing gloves :)


The gynecologist FINALLY called me back AND she had the pathology results!!! Two of the samples were from cysts (As suspected, I had one on my left ovary as well and it was about 3.5cm) and both were benign. The biopsy of my endocervix was too, and so were the three samples of my cervix which reacted to the contract because of cellular changes that are normal. I'm EXTREMELY relieved!!! :):):)
She was able to cut out all of my tubes rather than burn them, so my chances of getting ovarian cancer are greatly reduced now :)
I guess I did have some adhesions: some around my sigmoid colon that appeared to be congenital, so she didn't touch them, but I had a bit around my right ovary that she was able to remove.
She said I had released two eggs, so had I gotten pregnant this month there was a chance I could have had twins... boy am I glad I was on birth control and was getting fixed!!!
I guess that the Nexplanon removal was the last thing she did, and was hard to remove because the anesthesiologist had the blood pressure cuff on my arm throughout the surgery so it went in deeper and she had to dig it out.

I'm so happy that everything came back okay and I don't have to worry about any of this **** anymore!!! :):):)

But...And there's always another but...

I have to do something about my urinary retention (d/t MS) because what I'm doing isn't working anymore. I thought I emptied my bladder before the surgery, but when my GYN cathed me she got an 800cc return (that's a lot) even though I hadn't had fluids for 10 hours beforehand. And the last U/S also showed my bladder is absolutely HUGE now. The GYN mentioned that this is something I have to get taken care of, but I already knew that, and called my neurologist's office to ask for a referral about a month ago.

I used to cath, but when I was in the psych ward following my s/s attempt, I had to have someone within arm's length of me at all times. I was paranoid psychotic and thought everyone was too interested in what I was doing, so I started refusing to do it, and when I got better, I could not physically get the catheter in anymore. I know it's psychological. I don't know if I'll be able to do it or not again now, but I'm going to have to find some way to.

The surgery is over now, and I don't need any further procedures, so there is no sense putting it off any longer. I will call for an appointment today.

mymorgy 03-09-2017 08:32 AM

i looked at some videos ..i didn't know how large they could be...wow-Stewie, a gray tabby Maine Coon, holds the record for world's longest domestic cat. His full name is Mymains Stewart Gilligan and he measured 48.5 inches long (123 cm). That's more than four feet long!

mymorgy 03-09-2017 08:38 AM

such great news!

OhKay 03-10-2017 10:40 AM

I called the urologist and I have an appointment in mid-April.

I pinched a nerve in my neck yesterday morning, but went food shopping anyway. I got stuck in a line without a bagger and had to lift the grocery bags over the counter and lean over to put them into the carriage, and I ended up pulling a muscle in the right side of my chest and reigniting the pain in my abdomen. I should have told the checkout girl I couldn't do it, but I didn't want to cause trouble or be seen like I was being a *****. I was so ****ing miserable... I ended up taking a Vicodin, and it helped. I'm about 50% better this morning.

I have a ton of laundry to do. I know if I do it, I'm going to aggravate something/everything, but I feel incredibly guilty that I'm not doing it. This is MY problem... if my husband was here he would forbid me from doing it. I keep trying to remind myself of that. Maybe if I find something useful, but less physical to occupy myself I will feel less guilty. I'm so neurotic.

mymorgy 03-10-2017 11:13 AM

don't do it. give yourself a break!

OhKay 03-10-2017 11:44 AM

I would feel much better if tomorrow was a weekday because it's impossible to get laundry done on weekends here. Now it will have to wait until Monday, and I think that's what's really nagging at me the most.

Dmom3005 03-10-2017 07:25 PM

I think you need to remember your husband would not want you to do
it. This is the big part to me.

Try to feel better.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Mari 03-11-2017 01:17 AM

Kay
 
Monday is a better day to do laundry than a weekend when you have to
use communal machines.


How are you feeling?


M

mymorgy 03-11-2017 04:56 AM

yes how are you feeling? what are the cats doing?

OhKay 03-11-2017 09:32 AM

I'm glad I didn't do the laundry yesterday because my neck is still a real mess and I'm still having abdominal pain. I'm sure I would have at least aggravated my neck problem, and I can't imagine what it would feel like today if I did. That being said, I'm still bothered by the piles of laundry. I can't help it. It will have to wait though. I refuse to fight the masses for my shot to use the washers and dryers, so I will sneak in there early Monday morning and hope I get there first. That will give me a couple of days to heal as well.

We recently rearranged the furniture in our living room. My husband moved the love seat into the cat room (2nd bed room with 3 litter boxes and overflow of ****) to make room for the computer about a year ago, and just moved a big arm chair in there after we bought the new TV. The furniture is in pieces because it's "convertible" for easy moving and that's how it all fit in there. But now Rocky's been spending a lot of time hiding in between all the cushions, and my husband HATES it. So, he says he's going to get rid of all of it... not because I've been asking him to do it, but because of the CAT. Well, whatever works... I want all that **** out of the apartment, and my husband is usually, um, less than motivated. We'll see if it actually happens or not. Cross your fingers for me.

mymorgy 03-11-2017 09:37 AM

fingers will be crossed as soon as i stop typing :-)

Dmom3005 03-11-2017 01:43 PM

Just let Rocky keep sending him messages. He seems to want to do things
for the kitties. That is so great. Its not unusual.

Now I would take just what you need on Monday to the laundry. Please watch
the abdominal pain. Its going to be hard to take a heavy load.

So take extra stops. Or a wagon or something with wheels.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

bizi 03-11-2017 05:05 PM

dear kay,
I tried to read thru your thread.
It sounds as though the surgery went well and maybe you are having bladder issues.
keep us informed.
love you
bizi

OhKay 03-14-2017 06:46 AM

I have a little wire shopping cart I put a tall hamper in to wheel the laundry down the hall. It wouldn't get there otherwise lol. I got two loads of laundry done yesterday, and just put two in this morning. All I'll have leftover once I'm done is a set of sheets and towels.

My neck is still giving me problems, but it feels a little better this morning. I'm hoping I don't do anything to aggravate it again.

My husband never took out the furniture this weekend. We're getting a blizzard today, and as long as there's snow on the ground, there's no chance he'll take it out. It will probably sit in there for months before he gets around to it.

Dmom3005 03-14-2017 03:08 PM

Have the kitties remind him.

Heehee.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

OhKay 03-16-2017 07:31 AM

I've been having a very difficult time battling my fatigue lately. I've been succumbing to early naps that have been lasting 4-5 hours a day and it's hard to get up. Because I've been so tired I've also been experiencing some cognitive dulling/slowing that's been really frustrating.

I talked with my husband last night, and we came to the conclusion that I'm just having some trouble bouncing back from the surgery. Having MS just makes EVERYTHING harder I guess.

I think I need to take some time off from reading and posting on the forum because it's taking me ****ing HOURS right now and it's very discouraging and frustrating. I may check in every couple of days. I may not be around as much, but I will be thinking of you all :grouphug:

I'm okay, I'm just really ****ing tired.

bizi 03-16-2017 08:08 AM

Take all of the time you need. I am in the similar boat.
(((((HUGS))))
brain fog sucks.
bizi

OhKay 03-18-2017 09:48 AM

I haven't exactly been taking it easy like I should be, but I somehow managed to sleep in past 9:30 this morning. Whether or not a nap is in my future today I don't know.

I'm still dealing with neck problems, and battling fatigue, and having trouble with cognitive issues :(

bizi 03-18-2017 08:13 PM

I am sorry kay that you are experiencing cognitive issues.
(((((HUGS)))))
Do you think that is your ms or meds?
bizi

OhKay 03-20-2017 07:14 AM

MS is the reason why I have these cognitive problems in the first place, but medications make things worse, and so does anxiety at times. But fatigue, by far, is the worst aggravating factor. But that's mainly from MS too, so…

I think, I hope, I'm just having a hard time bouncing back from surgery. I don't know how long it will take before things will get better. I can't keep taking 4-5 hour naps every day and have been trying to break the habit, so far to no avail. I won't accept that as my new normal, especially since I'm not exactly 100% when I'm awake.

Mari 03-21-2017 01:47 AM

Kay,

'Hoping you recover from the surgery and that you get to the real "normal."


M

OhKay 03-21-2017 07:13 AM

I was hoping I just had a UTI that was dragging me down, but I dip my own urine because of the retention, and the last time it was negative for nitrites, which usually means it's negative. I had my post-op with my GYN yesterday (everything's fine and I don't have to go back for a year) and she cathed me and sent off a urine sample anyway. It will probably be negative.

Every time I have setbacks like this I want to blame it on something medical, but all the testing comes back normal, and my PCP tells me it's just my MS getting worse (unless there's a new med in play, which there isn't at this time). So I have to find ways to adapt and get used to the changes. I really ****ing hope that I'm just having a hard time recovering from the surgery. My GYN thinks it's a distinct possibility, so I'm a little more encouraged that this may be just temporary.

I'm on a linen-buying bender… sheets, towels, bath mats lol.
Fortunately my husband is happy to have the new stuff, but he may not be too happy when I buy another set of bath mats because I'm not happy with the quality of the first set I bought though. Oh well, TS.

I think I will shower early and pay a visit to that store. Then I will stay put. The laundry can wait until tomorrow.

bizi 03-21-2017 10:07 PM

can you take back the inferior mats?
bizi

OhKay 03-22-2017 08:33 AM

Unfortunately I can't return the old mats. I took the tags off and put them down in the BR for a couple of days. One of the reasons they bothered me is because they were dark navy… Dottie really likes to lay on the one that goes around the toilet, and it quickly got covered with her mostly white hair.

I had to go to two stores, but I got what I wanted (I will save the old mats tho). I'm very pleased with the towels I bought, and a set of sheets from Amazon should arrive today. The only thing that needs replacing now is the outer shower curtain, but I won't buy a new one until we move. My spending spree is over.

Going to two department stores in one day is too much for me… too much walking. I slept like a rock when I got home… just over 4 hours, and I got my 8 hours in last night as well.

I had thought that after my husband broke down my old dresser he had thrown all the pieces in the dumpster, but he left some of them in the trunk of the car. He has had WEEKS to throw them out. I got ****ing fed up with it, and drove over to the dumpster to get rid of the **** myself yesterday (not very heavy at all). I'm sick of all the pieces of furniture in the spare bedroom too, so I told him that I'd be throwing out a couch pillow or cushion every time I leave the apartment now. I hope that guilt will light a fire under his ***, and he will start getting rid of some things on his own. Not everything needs to be thrown out at once. It's better to do things slowly than to just let it sit there and do nothing about it.

I wanted to shower early yesterday so I could get an early start, but we had no water until 11am. I was happy to get into the laundry room first this morning, but was very disappointed to find that 1/2 washers were broken so my laundry is going to continue to build up. I hate this ****ing place!!!


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