Having an absolutely horrible day.

I cried getting ready for work. -- showed up with red eyes.

Things got worse after that.





N

I wish that your hot streak had lasted longer, but you could always get on a new one...

I hope you got some good sleep last night

I slept 6 hours I think.

Right now I am feeling anxious or else it is my stomach -- not sure of the
difference. Will take the antispasmodic in my purse along with a piece of
Klonopin in case I need one or both of them.


Hope you all have a good day.


M

I hope today was a good day Mari.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I know from experience that sometimes it is hard to tell if it is straight GI or your stomach is turning from anxiety, or a combination. It's such a shitty feeling

No matter the cause, Treating the GI symptoms usually helps, but it's best to treat the anxiety, too.

I hope you feel better, Mari

Today I feel good.


I am still eating some crap like ice cream yesterday.

I am sticking daily in the A.M. with mdoc's one tablespoon of ACV in 8 ounces of water. Also most days I take one or two capsules of probiotics.

And mostly I am eating foods that are working for me: bananas (sometimes with peanut butter), brown rice, occasional fried eggs when hubby makes them, . . .

To play devil's advocate, when I was living with my father and he was still drinking very heavily, I could see the early signs of dementia setting in. I couldn't tell if it was alcohol-related dementia or something else, or how bad it was, tho... impossible when someone is BP and that drunk all the time. But I could see the changes. Just my experience.

If you have spoken to your father on the phone and haven't noticed a difference, things can't be that bad- if there even is a problem...

I'm sure you wish you had a better relationship with your sister, but sometimes our sisters make that hard

Around here, taxi drivers can get you where you need to go if you give them an address, unless where you are going is off the beaten path.

For days, I have been sleeping day and night and doing twitter because it
distracts me while at the same time giving me people to react with ---
-- unlike t.v. for example.

Also we had an extra work meeting around Thanksgiving that threw me off.


Anyway, I tried to keep track but I lost a day. A few hours ago, I realized
that Monday is a work day!!!!!
ACK!!!!

I just want to go to bed whenever I want later and sleep all day tomorrow.

The only way to face the idea of getting up in the morning to shower
and get out the door on time is to give myself the option of leaving work early to come home.
I kind of bribe myself with these kinds of promises to come home early and
then do not follow through if I do not need to.



Hubby would like me to shower more. F him. He's comes from a culture overseas where they shower a lot.
Also, he did not grow up understanding mental illness and has
only somewhat figured it out after being with me for decades now
and DESPITE his own diagnosable issues.


M

"The only way to face the idea of getting up in the morning to shower
and get out the door on time is to give myself the option of leaving work early to come home.
I kind of bribe myself with these kinds of promises to come home early and
then do not follow through if I do not need to."

I'm sorry that you can't sleep all day today and have to go back to work
I'm glad that you have found a way to get yourself out the door in the morning tho... whatever works

"Hubby would like me to shower more. F him. He's comes from a culture overseas where they shower a lot.
Also, he did not grow up understanding mental illness and has
only somewhat figured it out after being with me for decades now
and DESPITE his own diagnosable issues."

I can relate to both of those issues...
I'm sorry that your husband can't be more sympathetic and supportive

I woke up too early.

And now that I have been up for an hour or so I want so much to go back to bed.

I guess I will see how I feel later -- allow myself to come up early if I have to


M