of course donna is right!
:)
bizi

marci was delightful yesterday and very helpful. she helped me walk to the bank and held my arm. she told me a family secret which I thought was a breakthrough about her father. also it is almost impossible to get another aide and then when they gave me one they were lazy and awful.
I was severely depressed all night long. My youngest nephew wrote me with family news. I couldn;t control myself. I said I wished I were dead and was spending another thanksgiving alone as usual and I should get used to it by now. I wished him a happy thanksgiving. I forgot if I mentioned I told the Rabbi I wished I were dead

did you get any sleep at all bobby?
I am sorry it is so hard for you.
wish it were easier.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I hardly slept but just took a little nap. Not being able to fall asleep adds to my depressive thoughts. Both kitty cats kept me company. That helped a little.
My nephew just wrote me and said he and his family are coming into the city in Jan for an event and will stop and see me. He tells me to be positive but he doesn't understand. if only I could be positive.

At least he wrote back to you.
bizi

Bobby,

I am so sorry that you have gone through so much trauma in your life, and you are reliving it now :hug::hug::hug:
I suffer from a little paranoia myself, and know how it can hold you back at times :hug:

I'm glad that you had such positive experiences with your friendly visitor and the Rabbi. And I'm glad that things are back to normal with you and Marci :hug::hug::hug:

I'm so sorry that your nephews aren't more present in your life. But I'm glad that you have such good friends to rely on, and please know that we all love you, too :hug::hug::hug:

I am in a lot of pain. I just wrote my nephew a provocative email and told him I couldn't be positive and how could you if your mother said let the state take care of you. I said true Jews are supposed to take care of their mentally ill relatives. Abby was with me all night.

I'm so glad Abby was with you. Cats are very intuitive :hug::hug::hug:

I wonder if your nephew will answer you, and what he will say...
I hope that you get a positive response from him (((HUGS)))

I agree with kay.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

haven't heard from my nephew. not sure what I am going to do. think I might write him again and said his non reply seems to be an agreement that my mother treated me awfully and thank God for alice for paying my rent. had chinese food for thanksgiving. it was great and still stuffed. talked to a friend for an hour. bought four pairs of shoes from ebay.