I hope you get your lease so that will be off your mind

I had a major meltdown today. I didn't get my lease. I intellectually know I will get it but it is so stressful. My therapist came at two. I didn't remember her telling me that she would come an hour later. My anxiety went through the roof. I told her I though she was hit by a car or something. she reached in her pocketbook and said on sat she went for a two hour walk with a friend and her dog and showed me a picture of her dog drinking from a fountain. I was melting down and in no mood to see her dog. I think I am too much for her. I told her that if she changes the appt to remind me that day or if she cancels remind me that day. I told her my anxiety is hitting me from three sides.that is my biggest problem. I was in such a black mood. Later after she left I think it helped me with my anxiety. I told her I was upset about trump and medicare and that any idiot could see his plotting to lower taxes for the very wealthy and then say there was no money for medicare etc.
she did help me fill in my new address book. i am too much for her.

Agree about telling her that if she changes the appt or cancels she needs to give you a second call.

Her doing the address book for me would be huge -- glad that she was useful.

Is it the case that the rabbi is more helpful than this therapist?

=-=
We all saw that Tax cut and the ramifications that would follow.
. . . . 'So very disheartening.

=-=-=

Would it help you to have a device to keep audio messages for yourself?
I have a "voice memo" app on my phone that I use a lot for work.
The weird thing is that I do not have to refer to it much --- once I make the
voice memo, I can usually remember unless the memo has particular details.

I do depend on my calendar on my computer, but that system is not fool proof.

I often take lots of pictures using my phone that I refer to later.
For example, if I jot down something on a scrap of paper, and take a picture of it
-- even if the pictures are less organized in a way to retrieve than the Memos are.

M

the rabbi is in a different stratosphere than this insensitive therapist. while I am melting down can you imagine her starting off looking for her cell phone to show me a picture of her dog drinking water from a fountain and adding how she took a two hour walk and being insensitive to my having trouble walking two blocks? I have trouble using the camera. I would have to buy a gadget for memos which I would rarely use.
I have to start remembering that I have faith in God and everything is for the good even if we cant understand it. Even Hitler was good. that is what I am going to work on. I guess I have to speak up when she does something insensitive and that will be a lesson. I will tell her her telling me about her two hour walk when I can hardly walk two blocks was insensitive.

Talking to her about the walk makes sense.

Is she useful to you in any way?


M

I have always had trouble with therapists. This forum is incredible. I feel I am understood and have been given good advice and you all have been empathetic -I really think she is over her head with me. she is not like a sledgehammer but she really isn't empathetic or sensitive. she is making me learn how to assert myself which I have a hard time doing unless I get furious.I think she has common sense but I hate when somebody assumes something rather than knows it as a fact. Do you know what I mean? Like yesterday she said something and I asked her if she were making an educated guess or if she really knew as a fact.
anyways trying to believe that everything is for the good is the only way I can think of to tackle stressful situations causing extreme anxiety is the solution and try not to let the anxiety get out of hand. I also have to learn to be kind and control my irritability

I am so depressed. I am not that anxious now. yesterday was really a nightmare

I hope today turns out to be a better day for you.

thank you so much

Thinking good thoughts for you, Bobby.



M

and always thinking good thoughts for you
bobby

Bobby

As I read your comments. My first and really only thoughts were.

Wow, Bobby has commented many times she doesn't think this
lady gets her.

Now I really get how she feels this way. My very first thought
was why would she go to telling and showing pictures of the walk
with her dog. And talking about a two block walk. KNowing
your restrictions, and how you want to do that too.

I personally think she is honestly doing you more harm than good
now. I really think you should look into whether you can do this
without her. I would rather you not have any one than her at
this point.

I know you need someone, but I see this as someone that needs
to talk to you about her not you.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i don't know what to do. i don't know what agency she comes from or whom i could talk to about her. I do need somebody to talk to. even issues with my stroke. I just realized today the building might not be late with my lease. I might not have counted right. I used to be really superior in math. Now I am brain damaged and need help.
today I forgot if I took my pills. I just thought of a system I will use. Now I don't know if I doubled the pills or not. Now I will leave a ramipril out.

Bobby

See if you can get ahold of the group that sends your worker.

Do you have like a case manager, or someone that can help
keep your records straight. Help you figure out when things are
due.

If not see if the company that sends your workers, has something
like that. They might also have someone that can come help you
figure out your medicine in an system that will work for you.

Then this person might be able to help you figure out who this person,
works through. So you can figure out who you might talk to about her.
And see if there is someone else that can come instead.

If you need more help keep asking questions we will all keep trying to
help.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Are you talking about how you get irritable around her?

It's o.k. to point out when she's being obnoxious / irritating.



M

It seems like she's trying to help you in the best way she can, but she's missing the mark, and seems dense at times. Sometimes therapists are just not the right fit, and I think that's the case here. Most therapists understand that, and aren't offended if you ask for a change.

I remember at one point you connected with a woman who set you up with a lot of services, including the therapist, but I don't remember where she was from...

I hope that your depression and anxiety improves, Bobby. I'm thinking good thoughts for you :hug::hug::hug:

she irritates me but i am already irritable. marci cleaned the monitor and i had to wait for robert to fix it. i did get my lease today.

robert spotted the problem in two seconds. I was wrong about when I should have gotten the lease. My math was off by a month. I felt so stupid and all that worry. I started exercising in the hall by walking. It is something although I can only do it two lengths two or three times a day. before I could do it four times with only a little problem. i don't know what to do about my therapist.

Glad to hear that the lease issue has been figured out and that it was finally taken care of. Don't feel too bad about the math. Doing the math can be hard enough even without having to deal with trying to recover from having a stroke.

I’m SOOO glad you don’t have to worry about that lease anymore!!! (((HUGS)))

the math was figuring out three months. I made a mistake and thought it was three months when it was four months! so ashamed
I forgot if I said welcome to the forum!
bobby

I’m SOOO glad you don’t have to worry about that lease anymore!!! (((HUGS)))

Bobby

Would it help any way if you could remember it comes due after the
4th of July. That way you wouldn't start looking for it till after then.

I know that might not help but I'm trying to figure out how we can
help you for next year. I don't want you to start worrying a month
early again.

Now for the 2 times instead of 4. My personal thought with this,
is this week do the 2 times and then in a week see if even one week
you can go one more time even one day of the week. Then each week
you could add one more day to that week. If you should happen to add an extra day any of those weeks then yah, you got even more.

The therapist, just keep working through the issues. Try figuring out how
to tell her the issues.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thanks for the excellent advice!
fondly
bobby

Thank you! I used to spend a little time on other parts of NeuroTalk, but with finding out a few months ago that I am bipolar instead of major depressive, and with my therapist trying to encourage me to be a little more social, even if it's online, I figured that this is a good group of people to socialize a little with.

Most of us have been on this bipolar forum for years. we are a great group of people and we welcome newcomers with open arms. You can post whatever you want since bipolar seems to affect everything. We are not judgmental and I can't believe how patient everybody is, especially when one of the members is having a meltdown. We are genuinely happy when somebody gives good news.
Keep on writing
bobby
ps you can start your own thread especially if there is an issue that is bothering you

Purple,
For lack of a name to call you. I'm Donna and I have an young adult
son with bi-polar, and my other two son's have other disabilities. My families has lots of members with bi-polar in it. And my husbands family technically does too. I'm happy to meet you.

I work for Indiana's Parent Center, which means we help families with children with disabilities in the schools and other areas. So I love to help when possible.

So we all enjoy helping and like Bobby says, feel free to start a thread of
your own if you like.
Donna :hug::grouphug:

Bobby,


'Happy to hear that you have the lease.

I hope that walking in the hall is working out for you.

Mari

Hi PurpleFoot,

I'm sorry about you recent bipolar diagnosis :hug::hug::hug:
The only good thing about it is that with the right diagnosis, you should be able to get better treatment :hug:
I was initially diagnosed with depression and anxiety, then bipolar II, then ultimately Bipolar I disorder at the age of 34. I have my ups and downs, but getting the right diagnosis has made all the difference in the world for me.

I look forward to hearing more about you... when you are ready :hug:

Kay

Yes, that was great advice, Donna! :)

Dorot called me for a survey. That is where I attend lectures over the phone on religious studies and have an aide go with me to doctors' appointments and where I have gotten the Rabbis from. Told the young woman my problem with my therapist. she said they might be able to help me get a therapist who comes to the home. also I might get a friendly visitor who likes to talk about spirituality. It was a nice phone call since I had a lot of positive things to say about dorot and possible more help. I warned her that I was bipolar, had generalized anxiety disorder and post traumatic stress and had had a stroke

Kay and Bobby

I think you both and everyone else know I only suggest things
that I try or that work for me.

Its something like my suggestions that I do.
When I need to do therapy at home, I try to do the things I
suggested too.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

That was a helpful phone call.

Dorot will provide you with more than you are getting now.


M

they are an amazing organization. I found out about them from a social worker intern a few years ago who was wonderful and told me about the organization. she worked on my being so self critical. she was gifted.

I am still spending and am worried-out of control

just bought three books some cookies, pair of pants and two pairs of shoes. I didn't need any of them, especially the cookies

I'm so happy that Dorot reached out to you... the timing couldn't be better :)

I'm sorry that your spending is problem for you right now, and is a source of so much worry. I go through those periods myself, especially if I'm tempted with coupons. Maybe if you do get a friendly visitor and a more suitable therapist it will help a little with your spending problem :hug::hug::hug:

I think you are right. I mentioned how my doctor upped the risperdal to 2 mg a day but hasn't helped. I just played with abby for 10 minutes with a wand and toy at the end. I am doing that more. I think she is bored a lot.

Kittens need a lot of exercise. You can try buying her some solo-play cat toys (the ones filled with cat nip are usually the best). The Kong brand makes some good ones. I know they sell them at PetSmart, but they should be available anywhere they sell pet stuff.

she likes jumping from high cabinet to high cabinet when I am watching. She won't play with toys by herself. I have to get on the floor and toss them or use the wands with the toys at the end. she is always eager to come when I say treats and she gets them. I buy everything from chewy even though they charge tax now. she used to love chasing the laser beam but not so anymore.