very hard posting here....
sorry that your mother laughed at your expression of a mean thing that happened in the past. glad that you self soothed.
It stinks that she reacted that way.
keep taking care of you.
((((((HUGS))))
bizi

Big mess at the airport and tons of stress for all of us.
 

I got all kinds of flack for my driving at the airport.

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After twice missing signs, I said F this.

I told them it would be o.k. for them to get into the airport through
the Arrivals instead of Departures. All they had to do was
go up the escalators in order to be on the correct level.

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I am still recovering from the stress.

I did get them to the airport safely and two hours early.
All they had to do was go up stairs.

They said "bye" and walked into the building and took off.

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Afterwords, hubby criticized me. He has enormous stress about this stuff.


I will not drive anyone to the airport in the future. They can take a taxi,
a ride share, or an uber in the future. Or not come visit at all. I don't care.
I need to take care of myself.



~Mari

I need to take care of myself. what a way tostart the new year. simply great. better late than never

Mari

Or there is one more Option, The hubby can drive them to the airport,
and you can stay home. If he or they balk at taking any other way
to the airport. Just save that option for the last thing. Also you can
even suggest that hubby pay for the Cab.

I personally think its great that you finally told your mom what she
said. I think it was very hard to say it. And I think it coming out
the way it did was much better for you. Even with her laughing thinking
you were kidding. I honestly think it probably horrified her when she
found out she really said it. And that she apologized when she figured
out she had really did it. And that it had hurt you. I'm hoping it
will help your relationship now.

2019 will be your year.
Donna :hug::grouphug:

No f'ing way I would drive to the airport.

They should all be grateful you did it in the first place. Good for you for refusing to do it again.

I'm glad to hear you say you are going to put your needs first :hug::hug::hug:

I hope that you don't get roped into that project your father was talking about. It sounds like a s- show. I hope you can just say, "NO."

I hope that you don't get roped into that project your father was talking about. It sounds like a s- show. I hope you can just say, "NO."

even though I feel lousy I couldn't stop laughing!

I think I solved all of that by listening to him about what exactly
he saw as the problem.

Then I told him that the problem has nothing to do with his role.
The other people on the team will deal with that.
It seems to me that he is only supposed to put all the stuff together -- not figure out how it is presented.

My Mom was happy with my solution -- apparently she had been hearing
about his "worries" as well.


M

I am so happy for you and you don't have to face another family ordeal.

I'm glad that you were patient enough with, and are close enough to, your father to really understand what he was saying. I'm sure that you alleviated a lot of anxiety for both of your parents :hug:

Fetzima
 

I found this in my room -- I guess I got a sample from pdoc and ignored it.


It is a serotonin and norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor (SNRI) indicated for the treatment of Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) in adults.



One of the things that turned me off is that, as a new drug, it would be
expensive. Also, I prefer old drugs with lots of history over new drugs
that have only "recently" come to the market.

M

mari, since you have tried so many other AD's, maybe your pdoc can tell the insurance company this info and get an authorization to pay for the new med. Does this make sense?
bizi

Yes, of course.
But I do not want to take it for so many reasons -- mostly that
I am not interested in the med merry-go-round.

M

Mari,

I don't blame you for not wanting to take a med that doesn't have a long track record, or being weary of taking new meds at all :hug::hug::hug:

The insurance company may authorize a new med, but that doesn't mean it will be affordable, and there's no way around that. I know that from experience. I was discharged from the psych ward the second time on Abilify before a generic was available. I had a $300 deductible, and it cost me over $500/mo on top of that :eek:
My pdoc gave me samples after that, but just filling that ONE prescription put me in the Medicare donut hole. And in the end, it did not break my manic episode.

Yikes,

That was a lot of money.:eek:

The TOTAL COST of the Abilify was added to the cost of all the other meds Medicare and I had already paid for for that year... many, but not expensive ones. Your total drug costs that can get you into the Medicare donut hole include what you pay AND what Medicare pays.

Facebook for siblings
 

My brothers and sister and I periodically chat in a group text. Sister reads but
does not respond much.

Brother Number 2 complained about the texts from the brother number 1 waking him up and the number 1 brother said I woke him up once.

It was more or less agreed that we would communicate via FB so brothers
would not be awakened.
I created a group and sent a good morning FB group message to the brothers and sister (sis will ignore it but she will read it.)


We'll see how the FB plan goes.

M

It is good that you decided to use facebook to try and better communicate. good thinking!
bizi

I hope that the FB plan works out well for everyone :hug:

Texting not straightened out yet.
 

1) The FB thing didn't work.

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2) Sis and I then started a group text that the boys ignored.

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3) Then brother number 1 sent a group text about whatever b.s. he is up to
and admonished me not to text back at 4:00 in the morning.
And sis reminded brother number 1 to stop texting at 9:00 p.m. due to
brother number 2 wanting to sleep.

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<<Sis and I either have the phone sounds off at night or keep the phones far from where we are sleeping.>>

The brothers apparently sleep with the phones near their ears.
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SO WE ARE BACK TO WHAT WE WERE DOING WITH BROTHER NUMBER 1
BEING IN CHARGE OF COMMUNICATIONS.



M

I am sorry for the messed up communication....sounds frustrating.
bizi

I wish that the FB thing had worked out for you :hug:

I personally hate group texts, so if I don't want to deal with them, I'll shut the sound off on my phone, and read them when I'm awake/free/in the mood unless something significant is going on. I don't know why brother #1 can't do that. Maybe you should just take him off the group text list...

My sister's and I leave each other messages on group messages if they
are something we need to know. Its been working very well.

We were originally working on getting dates that we could work on
mom's house. Well then we did dates for the christmas gathering.
Next we left each other important things, like when a member of
our family was sick or hurt.

Like I left a message and prayer request, because I couldn't put
on internet that they pray for Will, they requested updates to
that. And when my sis Dee & husband Walt got hit from behind
the other night by my SIster Karla's Daughter Samantha's ex boyfriend.
She left that on there. HEehee,

ANd the responses, but its giving us lots more information than we
got before. I'm sure hoping we continue this, we know its not necessary
to respond right away.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Three of us happily call each other to talk on the telephone but Brother #1 does not call.
He works on the Tugboat 24 hours a day unless they are home on shore.

He sort of sleeps in rotating sailor shifts -- sleeping a shift and then working
a certain number of hours/shifts >>I HAVE NO IDEA.


And if he is in a different time zone, I would have even less of an idea of when
he efffing sleeps.



'So over this.
FINISHED.


M

Donna,

That is great.

I am happy to hear that this works for you and your sisters.

M

S- that sounds complicated and very frustrating. I can't blame you for wanting to at least take a break. Let someone else come up with a plan. You've put enough time and energy into trying to make everyone happy :hug::hug::hug:

yes I hear you loud and clear.

You have tried so now it is someone elses turn.

Why must it always be you to organize?????
It is not fair!
bizi

Yeah.:(

You are right. I'm done for now.



My little brother wants us to care about his two little grandchildren so
I say nice things about his pictures of them on FB.

I know that 47 degrees is cold for you. I'm glad that your husband was able to get the heat on, and you have your electric blanket :hug:

It is minus 18 at my folks in northern IN. with a wind chill of minus 45. They have a wind advisory all morning. My sister in south bloomington have the same wind not as cold but their furnace is not working right.
sigh
I really feel for my family.
burr!!!!!
bizi
it is 37 here. Bur. for us

woke up worried this morning.
 

I sometimes go to work with four hours of sleep or less and by the
end of the day I am not with it -- not in control of my self/ my emotions,
my actions . . . Sometimes I almost feel that I cannot see straight.


On good days (even with four hours of sleep) and bad days I can (somehow) be high energy -- talking fast,
going back and forth between two or three sets of kids in two rooms ---

---multi-tasking

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But that chaos probably (DUH) might be o.k. for some of them but
is not considered professional. . . . and some of them do not respond
well to the chaos -- esp if they are having a bad day too.


I may have crossed a line.


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In the future, when I am an that messed up, I should figure out how to
walk out and go hide in my office or drive home.


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'Sorry this is long.

Students get used to me and we all adjust to each other well enough most
of the time.
But it's new in the semester and we have not settled into a comfortable
enough pattern with each other yet.



M

Good luck in settling in this semester mari.
(((((HUGS)))))
Wishing you could sleep more.
bizi

I went to the dental hygienist.


Afterwards she gently said what she says after every visit:
she would like me to do a little more on my own than I do.


I said, "i'm already doing what I can do."

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The Good news I think is that we are getting out of the cold period
and moving to our more normal weather patterns.



M

I can understand how you react both ways to being overtired (((HUGS)))

I don't have to work tho.
I'm sorry that you have to struggle with so little sleep and have to go to work, and have concerns about how your behavior when you get overtired may effect your students :hug::hug::hug:

I wish there was a way you could bail out early, or hide under your desk at the end of the day :hug:

It seems like you go to the dentist's office pretty often, so you are caring for your teeth and mouth :hug:

Kay, this is a good idea. THX.

I do have the ability to stop class early and let students leave.

. . . . . Especially if someone is causing a ruckus.

It sets a bad precedent. But I can remind myself of that option.



I would not be able to do it every day.



M

Mari,

You have to do what you have to do to make things work :hug::hug::hug:

dermatologist
 

Yesterday I noticed some little bumps on the palm of my right hand.

I did not worry about it much but today I woke up with it on the right wrist as well AND on the left hand. And the itchiness has increased.


I put some cortizone on both palms and wrists as my sister instructed --
-- she says that the Docs often prescribe cortizone.


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Hubby helped me navigate the health insurance portal so I can
find a dermatologist on my health care plan within driving distance.
I printed out a few pages of nearby names so I can call from work Monday.


M

good luck. One of the medications I had tried recently caused me maybe two months of itchiness all over my body. calamine lotion helped me.

Am hoping you are able to see a dermatologist . If they are too busy to be seen, then ask to be put on their waiting list.
bizi

Since the bumps are bilateral, and I know that you would be aware of any potential changes that could have caused them, I'm glad that you are going to the dermatologist to get them checked out, Mari :hug:

I hope that you can see a dermatologist soon without having to search too much, and the bumps end up being something benign and easily treatable :hug::hug::hug: