thanks. had a big fight with Stella.am going to make another appointment with the g,i, doctor. the laxative on triple dose still not working. had potato chips last night and hamburg. I feel so gassy and so uncomfortable. I finally too magnesium citrate and phillips caplets.

I am going to get some mag citrate today

as I have not gone to the bathroom in 4-5 days.
The lithium was causing diarrhea so I only took 2 mag oxide pills.
I usually take 3 pills. So for the past 2 nights I have taken 4 without any results.
sigh
bizi

how awful. I bought a lot of bottles of it because it has always worked except once. I know a cheap place if you want to order a lot. 1.99
walmart sells it but it is out of stock right now but if I remember it is only 99 cents. I just bought a liter container to make sure I drink enough water. Now I have to force myself to use the bike.
you must be so uncomfortable
love
bobby
Magnesium Citrate Saline Laxative Oral Solution, 1 fl oz.
– MarketCOL
right now they are having a sale of buy one and get half price for the other. swanson's only lets you buy six.

I ended up just taking 4 mag oxide pills for 2 days and that worked so I did not have to take the mag citrate thankfully.
bizi

that is great. you must feel so much better.
love
bobby

Sometimes, I increase my oil intake (chocolate works).:D

Also, I periodically follow my mdoc's suggestion from two (or three?) years ago:



Take one Tablespoon of Apple Cider Vinegar with one glass of water (and to rinse the vinegar from my mouth and teeth with water.)

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She initially made the suggestion because I was getting stomach aches.

I discovered that the Apple Cider Vinegar helps with being regular.


M

Thanks. I will definitely try it. I think I have apple vinegar cider.Does it have to have the dregs or whatever it is called? I started wondering if I was going to have to have an operation. How long should it take for it to work?
I went back to sleep and had the worse realistic nightmare about my mother and sister. I wound up not having all my favorite things and hardly having anything and was told there was no money to replace them.They left them some where. In reality they were so cruel to me. Late in her life my mother told me that the state could take care of me. She even gave money to my nephews who one became a millionaire, another one a possible billionaire and another very well off.Their father is a millionaire. I found out by accident when the accountant mentioned how much my mother had to pay gift taxes. I at first didn't know what she was talking about.
I will never get over my mother's cruelty. I am so depressed.My close friend knew how scared about not having a home and having to live in a shelter that she offered to pay my rent. SHE HAS NOW BEEN DOING IT FOR OVER EIGHT YEARS.
My mother really poisoned me. I am so depressed. four months before she died she spoke to me and said she loved me. My sister died a few years ago.
Her heart and lungs didn't work together so she was on oxygen for at least two years. when her doctor told her he couldn't help her anymore, she rapidly declined and died. I had sent her flowers when my nephew said how bad she was but to save money I had them sent the next day so she never knew I sent them. It was a beautiful orchid. One of the kids took it.

Bobby, am sorry that you suffered.
(((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

Bobby

I wish I could help you with your constipation. But I don't have
any answers. I think it sounds like its just going to take time.

It also sounds like you are upset that Robert wants to come so
that Danny can just play with Marci, I think I would let him know
that too. Because it really isn't nice for you to hear that and then
just feel left out.

I am not thinking he really figured it out that it felt that way.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I can't let him know. That is why I left more toys with the doorman and didn't suggest he come up. Marci finished the last can of noodle soup. I don't know if it sounds petty to tell her not to eat anymore of the noodle soup. In my manic phase I told her she could have any tunic she wanted. Later she asked if she could have a particular one and I must have mad a face because she said she didn't want it because it would probably be too small. She makes about 40,000 a year. She works a lot of hours and does some sleepovers. Most of her jobs are just taking care of elderly people and not cleaning

Bobby

I would tell her that you would appreciate her not eating the noodle
soups because its one of the things you can eat with your stomach.

That way it doesn't sound petty or anything else. I think she will
get it. And then when it comes to the tunics, maybe pick out one
or two that she can pick from. Instead of just telling her she can
have any she wants. That way its still your choice which ones she
can have from.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

good idea about the noodles. I have already given her some tops. I really don't need to give her anymore. Cleaned off some stuck paper on the table. It was easy. Angry for all this time she hadn't done it.

recently just bought her a new top for over 20 dollars that retailed for 71. I also wish she would say thank you when I have given things or she has taken things but I guess that is how she was raised

How are you doing bobby?
love bizi

Bragg organic
Apple Cider Vinegar


=-=-

I mix one tablespoon with about 6 ounces of water, drink it, and rinse
out my mouth afterwards.
M


Good luck to you.


M

I haven't been feeling well. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. I see the g.i. doctor in a week on thursday.
love
bobby

thanks Mari. That is the vinegar I am using. It worked a little yesterday. I had some this morning. I keep on taking lactulose three times a day but I think I am going to stop. I think it makes me feel worse. Yesterday I tried a lot of popcorn and that helped a little. I will probably go back to Phillips but keep on trying the vinegar. I am constantly tired. my blood pressure medicine,metformin, ramipril, welchol, gabapentin, clonazapam, zetia and my antidepressant Aplenzin can cause constipation. I think laculose is making me feel worse.
fondly
bobby
I am not going to take anymore of that laxative. It has made me feel worse. No quality of life.

I do have some quality of life. I was just cuddling with Abby and before that Pudge. I just bought some valerian root that might help with my sleeping problems. Also just bought something stronger than Gas-x that didn't work for gas and bloating. I am still trying. I took Phillips caplets and it worked. Of course there is reading and msnbc. Just love Rachel. The antidepressant usually works.

I am glad that you see that you do have some quality of life.:)

(((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

I'm glad the kitties are there for you.

I hope you can get on your bike today. I think that might help
too.

Have a good visit with your psychiatrist when you go. I will probably
not post before you go again. So making sure I tell you.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

thank you so much. I took a little nap and listened to music. I am debating whether or not to go get my hair cut. I am still so very tired. I will try the bike later.
Love
bobby

I walked both ways and got my hair cut and washed. It is hot out and I am a little nauseated and shaky. I saw the super and thanked again for the ac and told him it was only 207 when I thought it would be 400

I wish I felt physically and mentally better. I am not depressed but I feel sad if you know what I mean. Part of the reason I went to the hairdresser was because I wanted to interact with somebody. One of my friends sent me a funny email so I called her.It was a bummer. Her grown up children have been making her life miserable. Her ex husband just died and he screwed up his will. Her two daughters(one lives in Switzerland) are at each other's throats and they have never gotten along. They are in her fifties. They keep on wanting her to intervene. She worries about her son. She says she wishes she never had children although she dearly loves her exceptional grandchildren and great grandchild. She has stomach problems too and has tried everything. She refuses to go to another g.i. doctor. She refuses to have xanax or klonopin because she said she has read as you get older they can really deteriorate the brain, That really made me feel great. I will have to do some research.
I haven't heard anything about the new therapist. My apartment is neater now.
Then I got a huge heavy bag of medications .that upset me.
I tried to read something religious yesterday but didn't get very far. I am reading another book that is good but I am having a hard time reading it because I have been feeling so sad.
More on Benzos and Cognitive Damage - Mad In America

Dear bobby,
How on earth would you begin to treat your anxiety if you did not take benzos? I think you need them don't you?
I am sorry you are so sad.
Your friend probably needed to vent with all of her difficulties in her life.
You are sensitive and am sure it effected you somewhat.
(((((HUGS and LOVE))))
bizi

i just called the psychiatrist's office and I asked him to lower the dosage of Aplenzin. He mentioned today doing that today. I saw one of the side effects was anxiety. I started remembering that my anxiety increased when he put me on the higher dose. If that doesn't work and I become depressed again I will ask him to up it again.

Good idea Bobby.

I hope if your anxiety should raise a little you can come
up with some other ideas to help it too.

I think we need to brainstorm some ideas that might help.

For one I sure wish we lived closer to each other to help with
that.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I wished we lived closer too. You are such a good person. I might open a bottle of wine. I just can't stand this anxiety.
fondly
bobby

I did open the bottle of wine. It helped. My stomach is bothering me still. I don't think the wine helped my stomach.

I am going to skip the antidepressant and see what happens to my anxiety. I have been eating so much and I think that is one of the reasons I have been having trouble with my stomach. I don't dare get on the scale. I have been so anxious and jumpy that it makes me overeat. I feel guilty that I feel so rotten I been having a hard time feeling compassion for all those poor people in the Bahamas but so relieved that that murderer almost is letting the poor kids who need our medical treatment to stay.
I finally called access a ride to see if they will approve me. Yesterday I spent over 30 dollars on carfare besides the 125 at the psychiatrist. He said it has gotten a lot better.

In Summary
Common side effects of Aplenzin include: dizziness, insomnia, nausea, pharyngitis, weight loss, and xerostomia. Other side effects include: agitation, arthralgia, migraine, palpitations, skin rash, tinnitus, tremor, anxiety, asthenia, chest pain, confusion, hostility, hypertension, myalgia, pruritus, urinary frequency, vomiting, anorexia, diaphoresis, dysgeusia, and flushing. See below for a comprehensive list of adverse effects.
Activation of mania or hypomania

I have been having agitation and anxiety and hypomania

the psychiatrist hasn't contacted me yet. I didn't take the antidepressant and I am not as agitated or anxious or manic. I hope he calls me and orders the lower dose. I couldn't stand the anxiety and agitation and I don't want to start the habit of drinking wine.
bobby

Good luck Bobby.

I don't know what to tell you, but to do the best you can.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I just called the psychiatrist's office just now since I didn't get called back. Donna answered the phone and I said I hadn't heard anything and she said she would ask him again. I said would I hear today? She said she thought so. today I wasn't anxious or jittery but now I am depressed and sad.

I just got a call back and he will send in a prescription .I could have picked up samples but that would have cost over 30 dollars in cab fare and I just had some wine. I think the pharmacy has to order them. They are expensive and they usually don't keep them in stock. I don't know if I did the right thing by not picking up some samples. I hate being bipolar! I hardly ever have wine but I had yesterday too because I couldn't stand the agitation and anxiety.

I just called the pharmacy and they will have it in stock on Monday. rats. I had some more wine and took the higher dosage. I just have to be patient and hope that once I get the lower dosage it will still work for my depression. I will keep on taking the higher dosage and when I get really agitated and manic I will have more wine. I don't know what else to do. I hate the depression and I hate being manic and agitated and anxious. I think the depression is worse

Sorry you have to wait for the prescription.
Over the weekend be careful.

Could you cut up your doses of klonipin and spread them out....I don't know if that would help or not.
I am sorry you are having such a hard time right now.
((((((HUGS))))))
love bizi

I have extra klonopin but I already take 2mg in the morning and two at night. I will split them and take 1 mg when I wake up and one around lunch and one a little later and one at night.
I am going to make fennel tea now. I want to see if that helps my stomach. Now most foods don't appeal to me. I had chinese food today and my stomach felt okay. It is late in the evening or when I wake up in the morning my stomach bothers me, I don't know what the g.i. doctor will say. The thought of most foods and vegetables make me feel nauseated.
love
bobby
Fennel Tea - The Perfect Digestive Cleanse
cecilia invited me over to watch tennis. I was slightly tipsy and almost threw out my keys when I went to throw out stuff. The player I wanted to win won. He seemed sweet. She gave me tiramisu and some chocolate and I enjoyed that and it didn't upset my stomach. Tomorrow I will go over again the watch Serena. I also play a lot with one of her dogs Prince, He is so special and exuding love.

the fennel tea worked! I feel so much better. I am listening to Josh Groban and rereading a book I had really enjoyed. I guess I will be up all night. I might have another cup of tea. I am relieved.

stomach still bothering me. I finally got on the scale and I lost three pounds. I thought I gained three pounds.
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I am sorry you did not sleep. Did you go thru the motions? or never went to bed?
I have a night time routine....use argon oil to remove make up, WAsh face and apply benzo peroxide lotion then rosacea metrogel cream. Brush teeth with electric tooth brush takes 2 minutes. lotion to neck and spray tonic to throat.
Take meds for the night and set up pill box for tomorrow.This takes me a good 20 minutes total to do. Then put ear plugs in and kiss jeff Good night. I do this the same every night. We have lights out anywhere from 11;30 to 1230.
I have been sleeping fine irregardless of how much I have drank.


bizi