I think this time it was from all the chickpeas I ate-too much fiber.There was a lot of gas and the laxative hasn't worked. I will definitely see him on Friday. I called Dorot and left a message and am waiting to hear from them.
I really like the book I am reading.
love
bobby

dorot will call me back this week. I am sort of listening to the Bible from audible.com -I am no longer a member but I got it and another one when I first tried it. It is much easier than reading it. I have got to get closer to God. My bipolar has been out of control and we tried so many things to help. I see him on the fifth of september. I don't think he has anything else in his bag of tricks.
I keep on taking generic tylenol for my legs and lower back and hope it doesn't do damage to my stomach. It is easier to move when I take them. I started taking Inositol. wonder if that will help
bobby
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there seems to be only one safe salt substitute for high blood pressure
Tasty something or other but boy is it expensive.

How is your day going?
bizi

spent some time with stella and it was great. we stayed in the lobby because I was afraid of my stomach. She admitted that she gets very nervous when we are walking together. It sounds as if she is going to get a great babysitting job for a seventeenth month old but they live on the island.
they will pay for two months of transportation and she is going to buy a cheap car. She is Greek and they are Greek so I bet they will have her talk both English and Greek to William.
she showed me his picture. He is so adorable. I bet it will be great fun and the pay is fine!
So far I have just had creamed spinach and 2 cups of coffee. Now I have so slowed down in reading but I just love the book I have been reading for three days.
I am sure you will have a grand time tonite.
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bobby

I am glad that you got to spend some time with stella.
bizi

I spent some time with her yesterday too. I am so out of control. Haven't been able to fall asleep yet. Usually I am asleep at this time. Then I bought more toys for Danny and a couple of bones and snacks. I couldn't stop myself. I really need God. I only had a can of chickpeas and a can of soup, Maybe I can lose some of the weight I just put on. Sleeping pills don't work for me. I started to try to do healing meditation. I have such a long way to go.
I am really relieved about the weather lately. I don't have to use the ac.

the scale says three pounds less. Rat I ordered some oat bran pretzels that are so good. I won't be able to stop eating them. I am so nervous about the two
doctors appointments. I don't want another operation in case they find the other artery clogged. Three years ago it was 50 percent clogged and it was very unpleasant when they first tried to put a stent in and then had to wind up for the next week to open the artery and clean it out. At least I was asleep for that.
I am afraid of injecting myself with the new medication which is supposed to lower the cholesterol dramatically and has given so many people bad side effects. I read how two were suing the company. With my bipolar I can't handle stress.
Bobby so tired

I am sorry that you are not sleeping. I take 2 different kinds of melatonin. a long acting kind and a quick acting one. Think they help plus visteril. Also wear ear plugs now because jeffs breathing was keeping me up...
Glad you have your music!
love bizi

great news. I don't need surgery on my other carotid artery and I was able to inject myself and it didn't hurt! also blood pressure fantastic.
I am so manic
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bobby

bobby

All but the maniac is good news. I'm also going to say maybe
the maniac right now is because of the good news. Or because you
were so worried.

But please when it comes to all the side effects unless you have
problems stop looking up the medicine to see if you are feeling things
from it. Give it time first please.
I'm also glad your blood pressure is down.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

yesterday i slept two hours and am still manic and can't sleep. I am listening to Josh Groban and I watched the tennis matches. My eyes are tired but I am hyped up. I have been manic for a while now and usually only get 4 hours of sleep or less. Donna I feel safer when I know possible side effects even if they make me worry about something that probably won't happen. I am so glad I consulted with another cardiologist. such a special man and he made me feel safe and really explained the medicine.
fondly
bobby

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I could seriously watch this all night.
bizi

I am so happy. I was really manic yesterday and could hardly do anything. Robert came over to help with the computer and pick up the toys I got for danny. i think i bonded a little with danny,at first he was trying to bite my arm playfully. He is an aggressive chewer. I had bought him a leash that he couldn't chew through. He destroyed another one when he was visiting before. Most of the time he was sitting on my lap and I was petting him and abby was glaring.
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bobby

finally slept five hours last night. just heard from my nephew who is a financial analyst. I had sent him an email for help with his opinion on a bond. Was so disappointed that I didn't hear from him. It turns out he was on vacation.

I might get a therapist who would come to me. I told Linda that my apartment was clean but messy. I told her I had a lot of books etc. She told me to box them and give them away. I haven't felt that angry in so long!

Who is linda?
bizi

she works at Dorot.
I was so anxious today I couldn't even read. I kept on thanking God.
Love
bobby

what is dorot? is that the senior assistance center or the relgious services...sorry can't remember.
bizi

I am sorry you are so anxious.
May I ask what meds you take? any antipsychotics? They help prevent mania.
bizi

I am only taking klonopin and aplenzin, the antidepressant. I see the doctor on the fifth and will tell him about it.The spending and overeating has got to be stopped. I just bought another toy fr Danny.
Today I slept again for over five hours. I ate late last night on top of other things, I ate a lot of raisins. I just feel sick. I turned on the ac last night because I just didn't feel well.
My stomach really bothered me but it could have been the raisins, I had so many. I had so much gas. I only took the laxative he gave me this morning and I don't know if it worked or it was the raisins. I am so glad I didn't cancel the g.i. appointment for tomorrow.
Then I really screwed up. Oh first I went over to Cecilia who had been sick for four days to watch tennis and after a while my back hurt so I went home to lie down.
Then I sent an email to Robert about coming over for more toys on either sunday or saturday. He wrote back and asked if he could come over when Marci was here because danny likes her so much. I said okay but she will be here on Tuesday morning since she had an appointment in the afternoon. That triggered me. She only cleans for me because she cares about me and that I am bipolar. Now I was told that the apartment had to be neat if a therapist came here. Even though she comes for four hours I think she really only does work for 2 1/2 hours. I finally had to tell her to clear off the dining table. She doesn't clean off the cat hair on the chairs. I will see what happens when I tell her to. She usually eats my food. Last time she had soup and a chicken salad. She really never says thank you. This time I wonder how much time she will spend talking to Robert and playing with Danny.
I just eat my anger.
I have really been too generous with Marci and am paying for it.
I don't want to lose her and I do love her and she is special and I have had such bad luck at the agency she comes from.
Now my stomach feels better and I will try to read. I have so much anxiety when I try to clean. I do some though and almost always have clean sinks.
love
bobby
the temperature now is 67 but I don't want to turn off the air conditioning. I also started the process of switching my 401K to a regular Ira from Vanguard.

Hi Bobby. I am sorry for your GI issues. I can't eat anything with fiber for 2-3 hours before bedtime. Otherwise my stomach hurts and I wake up with nausea or just a yucky upset stomach.

Please note never take over 3000 mg of Tylenol in a 24 hour period. They took the 500 mg extra strength off the market for this reason. It could hurt your liver. I presume you are taking two 325 mg every 6 hours, which brings you close at 2600 mg in 24 hour period. Just be careful and talk with your GI MD tomorrow.

Take care,
Cindy

thanks for the warning
fondly
bobby

this is getting ridiculous - i just bought a clip on book light a couple of weeks ago but can't find the charger. What did I do-continue spending and bought another one. didn't have the patience to look harder. also bought a stackable organizer for my pills.
I just know that this mania was partially be contributed to getting the new medication which will probably extend my life. I still can't stop thanking God.
I am also very irritable.

did you used to take risperdal?
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

yes i did for a long time and I think I still might have some. If I find I am going to take it right now. I have so much anxiety and am so jumpy I can't read.
I am not depressed and right now have no appetite. Yes I am listening to Josh groban. the search starts now

i can't find it. i must have thrown it out. sh@t
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bobby

When do you see your pdoc?
I am worried for you.
love,
bizi

i see him next thursday. i had chinese food for lunch. put me to sleep as i knew
it would. now i feel much calmer.
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bobby

slept a lot last night. don't feel well. I am so wiped out even though I have been getting a lot more sleep. I haven't been that manic in years.

anxiety still sky high. great news my electrical was 207. i thought it would be at least 400. i threw out a lot of shoes and plan to throw out more. i don't want to throw out the books i haven't read but i have to throw out a lot

Glad that you slept more although 5 hours a night is not enough.
I hope you have a nice day.
love bizi

i have kept on getting calls from "nancy. I always hang up. then I listened to the message and it gave you the option to press 9 and not get anymore calls.
Sure enough I got two more. This time I pressed one to speak to a representative .He got on the phone and he said my name and I said something like I pressed 9 to stop the calls and I still got calls. Stop the f&*king calls.
I am very irritable but I hope that stopped it He immediately hung up.
also brought downstairs the toys and bones for Danny since Robert wants to wait til Marci come. Danny really likes her. I wrote that I have up to clean up my mess for the social worker who is going to come. I told him I already threw out 7 pairs of shoes. I am angry about that too. He is also not considering that Marci comes here to work.
I am also going to tell Marci not to take any of the noodle soups. She left me with none and there were a lot of other soups she could have taken.

I am so angry I bought another tunic that cost more than I usually pay.
I had called my psychiatrist yesterday but could only leave a message. I asked if since I had enough klonopin for when I see him do I still have to pay the 50 dollars for the prescription.
I finally just got rid of the walker my neighbor lent me a couple of years ago. I tried before but she didn't answer the door and I knew she was there.
I forgot I gained a lot of weight I never lost on risperdal so I don't want to go on it again

the g.i. doctor told me to triple the dose of lactulose since it worked at first

geodon is a weight neutral antipsychotic. I have been on it for years and hve had no side effects.
bizi

i don't remember if I was ever on it. I will ask.
love
bobby

I am not as manic today. I didn't sleep much

glad that your mood is coming down.
love bizi