that is great about sleep. I wound up finally going to sleep. Then woke up and later went back to sleep for an hour. Now am on my third cup of coffee. I just take two minutes to brush my teeth.My pills are taken at dinner time and one a few hours later. Then I try to get Abby or Pudge to come. Abby usually visits for a little and I pet her. For the most part now, Pudge no longer sleeps on the bed. rats.
love
bobby
I don't know what gives. I took the high dosage and I am not agitated or jittery but I continue to spend. Maybe I am just exhausted

you know bobby that taking antidepressants can lead to mania when not taken with a mood stabilizer.
bizi

I know but my doctor hasn't put me on one. I will see how the lower dose works. I might wind up making an appt soon to ask about a mood stabilizer. I can't remember if I was on geodon. I can't afford to get fatter.Can you believe I just bought more books and toys for Abby and am bidding on another tunic?
love
bobby who is out of control
I can't have lamictal-it affected my gums and I can't have abilify because it caused involuntary movement. Topamax didn't do anything. Depakote destroyed me!
I am on gabapentin but I think it does sh@t

geodon is weight neutral

I'm on Gabapentin.


It does not do a lot but it does help me.


M

I think I tried geodon. I will wait until I see if the lower dosage of aplenzin makes me less manic before I will call the psychiatrist's office and see if I can find out. I think I remember seeing a bottle of it.I really feel so hopeless. My eating and spending are out of control.With my friend's help, I think I have enough money to last me til I die. My sleeping is awful. Right now I am depressed. I am seeing my close friend who I love and rarely see tonite. I am taking her out for her birthday. Right now I dread it.I don't want her to see how unhappy I am. It really upsets her. I just feel so awful. Then a former close friend called last night and I couldn't wait to get off the phone. She lives in Penn. and said she will try to make it into the city. She called to say that her daughter is going to have a baby girl. She is having surgery on her other breast but they are sure it is not cancer. She had breast cancer on her other breast. To calm Suri when she has aches and pains I am supposed to her that her doctor said that cancer doesn't hurt.
Another close friend called up and all she did was complain.Her children are so selfish. From a whole floor on Park Avenue after her divorce she moved into a lovely apartment on East End Avenue with just one bedroom. The maintenance keeps on going up . Her daughter who lives in Switerland stays in her apartment when she comes often to the states. She insists on talking a bath every night when she comes home late and then every morning uses the bathroom to wash and blow dry her hair.The bathroom is right next to the one bedroom. She send packages from Amazon to Zeynep's apartment and Zeynep doesn't have that much space. She also fills Zeynep's bin with books and things leaving her with little space.That was awful.
. I did enjoy the tennis and finished a book I really enjoyed. I had read it before. I might start a new book now.
I hate bipolar. Is it okay just to read and pet my cats? I looked into access a ride to save money on cabs but the reviews were so bad I can't take the pressure. I think I am restarting a book I partially read and I like the author.

I can't remember if you have a smart phone or not. If you do then you could use uber on it.....
I hope you have a good day.
love bizi

I just got a smartphone but only know how to make calls. also I have a hard time using my hand because of the stroke. I don't know if they charge extra for aide. I just realized they could type in the information.
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bobby
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I believe the uber app is free but you do have to enter in your visa card as you pay for your rides that way. Maybe robert could heip you in that regard?
bizi

oh sure it is free. I can't figure out if you have to pay for the aide unless you take the more expensive service.
love
bobby

I am sorry I am not sure I understand what you are saying.....
you have to pay for the rides. That is the only expense. not sure who the aids are that you are referring to?
sorry not getting it.
bizi

an aide usually comes with me because I have trouble walking,using stairs and balancing and if I need to fill out forms.

I loved seeing Alice last night for dinner. Her birthday is today. We went to our usual tex mex place. I gave her some bonita flakes for her two kitties. https://www.amazon.com/Kaneso-Tokuyo...gateway&sr=8-3
abby just loves them and they have omega 3 and taurine. They really smell fishy. She was surprised that I was more negative than she. I told her that most people were evil lol. Just look at the senate and the people who support Trump. She obviously didn't agree with me and toned it down. But this incredibly saintly women thought the human race should die out because there is so much suffering. I preceded to tell her that everything was for the good but we just don't know what will happen after we die. I told her I thank God for everything including my stroke, my bipolar and I love God with all my heart,soul and might. She listened and we laughed. She was afraid to tell me how she felt since she said it disturbed most people. Then she was shocked at what I came out with. I have to ask her but she said her mother was always right. As we get older we have to have courage and I forgot what else. She just remembered it a few days ago and she feels so much better..
She isn't a depressed person but she and her husband never wanted to bring children into the world. She loved it when I said something about how she was the most wonderful person in my life besides my kitty cats and dogs. That latter part is the thing she loved. She went with me to my mother's funeral.She went to the hospital when I first had the aborted stent operation and then when I had my artery cleared out. She came to pick me up and stay with me while I was recovering. She lives in Katonah so she had to wake up really early.
Love
Bobby

You have wonderful people in your life....
Happy for you.
love bizi

I just tried to inject myself with Praulent. I thought I was following directions but the needle popped up and I don't know if it got my thumb. It was s upposed to go into my stomach. I called my doctor and was told to bring it in on thursday My anxiety is through the roof.
then my pharmacy wanted to make me pay 75 dollars for aplenzin. Last time I paid 30 dollars for three months and epic accepted it. They said epic didn't accept this time. I called Epic and they say they accept it but the pharmacy left out some things. I am waiting to hear back from the pharmacy. I think from now on I will have nurse in the doctor's office inject me with Praluent. I can't take the pressure. I guess the cab fare round trip with be over 30 dollars twice a month. I am so scared.
bobby

Bobby

I sure wish you had a friend who could take you to get your injection.
Any chance an visiting nurse could come and do it. You might check
into whether the agency that sends Marci and things like OT and
stuff. Can do it. Ask your doctor's about it too.

I would think you could get this service.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

I went today and the dr. said it looked like I got the injection in. decided from now on I will go there and have their nurse do it. I can get a volunteer from Dorot to go with me.
I haven't heard from Robert and am worried. I won't hear from the pharmacy until tomorrow afternoon. I am so stressed

Oh bobby, am sorry you had a hard time with the injection....so frustrating doing something new.So the injections are twice a month or every 2 weeks...it makes a difference, 24 times per year or 26 times per year.
I am sorry you will have the additional costs for cabs.
You will make it work.
I have faith in you.
love bizi
((((((HUGS))))))

thanks. when I first did it at the doctor's office the needle didn't shoot up. I don't know what happened but it really scared me. I don't want to gothrew that again.
Robert is
okay. His cell phone battery went dead and his doctor's appointment ran over.
Love
bobby

glad robert is ok. how old is he? you mentioned it once but I forgot since then.
good night
bizi

He is about 77 and in the past he has had heart problems. He is very slim and walks miles a day with his dog. I just looked at my credit card balance. It was even worse than I thought. I did check the items but I am sure it is right. My dentist cost 200. My psychiatrist cost 125. My insurance cost 170.The csmartphone and minutes cost 141 dollars. The annual freshdirect delivery cost 141. There were a lot of cab drives. I bought a lot of things. Hopefully next months will be a lot less. I spent almost 100 dollars on Alice's birthday but that hasn't shown up yet. Might take more money out of savings.
love
bobby

Why was the phone bill so high?
bizi

I just bought the smartphone with minutes. My phone is a little over 5 dollars a month. I use ooma. For two years including the smartphone that will only be 5 dollars a month. It is tracfone.

cecilia came over to use my bike. I told her about the injection and the cab fare. she said she would give me the injection.

Good for Cecelia to give you the injection. Even if it can't be on
the exact day its supposed to be. Just keep a calendar so it
can be as close as possible.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

the pharmacy finally fixed the problem with aplenzin. I get it for 20 dollars.
BUPROPION is used to treat depression. The lowest GoodRx price for the most common version of Aplenzin is around $4,014.82, 16% off the average retail price of $4,801.33.
I couldn't believe it.

there is such a mark up on meds.

It is ridiculous.
How can people afford to pay full price?
bizi

beats me. i can also get three months for 20. getting nervous now. they haven't delivered it yet.

I just saw they delivered it at ten. I had thought they screwed up again. Meeting one of my oldest friends today for an Indian buffet. She and her husband just came back from Alaska. Although they had a wonderful time she said it was so scary how the glaciers are melting and there was a lot of smoke.
Last night Pudge slept by my head.

Can constipation cause stomach pain? Yes. Its just another good reason to do something to remedy that constipation problem.
i just ordered this https://www.amazon.com/Tobias-Colon-...gateway&sr=8-4

If you are having diarrhea...this gives you more!
Constipation means hard stools. You don't have that problem right?
love bizi

i don't have either

I just took the lower dose antidepressant. I am so agitated. I spoke so long to a nurse at praulent to see why the needle popped up. She went through all kinds of sh@t that I had read on the website. She didn't know why the needle popped up and said she would notify the manufacturer. She went on and on.Then I was going ballistic. I thought the pharmacy charged me 75 dollars and I called and used the f word twice. He said I didn't look at the register receipt. I had left the wrappings downstairs. I had to go downstairs and look for it. The doorman found it and it said 20 dollars. I had to call the pharmacy and apologize but did say how I was lied to when I was told epic didn't cover the drug and then I called epic and they sad the pharmacy made a mistake. Then I got a letter from optumrx which I stopped using because they don't use epic. It turned out that it was a refund for thirty dollars aand I almost threw it out without looking.
then I got a notice from my opthamalogist that it was time for a reexamination. I called and have an appointment next wednesday at 12.
I just want some wine. I don't know if I gave myself my blood pressure medications so I took them again.
i hate being bipolar
I did get a refund from ebay

It looks like things are looking up for you money wise.
bizi

I just took a little nap after the lunch. I don't feel so great. I am depressed and hope it is not because I took a lower dose of the antidepressant. I think that it is too soon. I was hoping that would stop my manic behavior. I hope my doctor can help me with my indigestion and gas and give me another laxative

when do you see your Gi md again?
bizi

tomorrow at 1. i think i have ibs.
i had a lovely time with my friends today for lunch. stomach never bothers me when I eat
love
bobby

good luck tomorrow!
love and hugs(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

thanks so much!
love
bobby

I feel calmer. I wonder if the antidepressant was making me manic. I am finally in a very good mood and I just paid a huge credit card bill.

Common (1% to 10%): Anxiety, confusion, decreased/increased libido, decreased memory/memory impairment, delusions, depression, disturbed concentration, dysphoria, euphoria, hallucinations, hostility, impaired sleep quality, irritability, mania/hypomania, nervousness, thinking abnormality