thank you so much. I took a little nap and listened to music. I am debating whether or not to go get my hair cut. I am still so very tired. I will try the bike later.
Love
bobby

I walked both ways and got my hair cut and washed. It is hot out and I am a little nauseated and shaky. I saw the super and thanked again for the ac and told him it was only 207 when I thought it would be 400

I wish I felt physically and mentally better. I am not depressed but I feel sad if you know what I mean. Part of the reason I went to the hairdresser was because I wanted to interact with somebody. One of my friends sent me a funny email so I called her.It was a bummer. Her grown up children have been making her life miserable. Her ex husband just died and he screwed up his will. Her two daughters(one lives in Switzerland) are at each other's throats and they have never gotten along. They are in her fifties. They keep on wanting her to intervene. She worries about her son. She says she wishes she never had children although she dearly loves her exceptional grandchildren and great grandchild. She has stomach problems too and has tried everything. She refuses to go to another g.i. doctor. She refuses to have xanax or klonopin because she said she has read as you get older they can really deteriorate the brain, That really made me feel great. I will have to do some research.
I haven't heard anything about the new therapist. My apartment is neater now.
Then I got a huge heavy bag of medications .that upset me.
I tried to read something religious yesterday but didn't get very far. I am reading another book that is good but I am having a hard time reading it because I have been feeling so sad.
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Dear bobby,
How on earth would you begin to treat your anxiety if you did not take benzos? I think you need them don't you?
I am sorry you are so sad.
Your friend probably needed to vent with all of her difficulties in her life.
You are sensitive and am sure it effected you somewhat.
(((((HUGS and LOVE))))
bizi

i just called the psychiatrist's office and I asked him to lower the dosage of Aplenzin. He mentioned today doing that today. I saw one of the side effects was anxiety. I started remembering that my anxiety increased when he put me on the higher dose. If that doesn't work and I become depressed again I will ask him to up it again.

Good idea Bobby.

I hope if your anxiety should raise a little you can come
up with some other ideas to help it too.

I think we need to brainstorm some ideas that might help.

For one I sure wish we lived closer to each other to help with
that.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I wished we lived closer too. You are such a good person. I might open a bottle of wine. I just can't stand this anxiety.
fondly
bobby

I did open the bottle of wine. It helped. My stomach is bothering me still. I don't think the wine helped my stomach.

I am going to skip the antidepressant and see what happens to my anxiety. I have been eating so much and I think that is one of the reasons I have been having trouble with my stomach. I don't dare get on the scale. I have been so anxious and jumpy that it makes me overeat. I feel guilty that I feel so rotten I been having a hard time feeling compassion for all those poor people in the Bahamas but so relieved that that murderer almost is letting the poor kids who need our medical treatment to stay.
I finally called access a ride to see if they will approve me. Yesterday I spent over 30 dollars on carfare besides the 125 at the psychiatrist. He said it has gotten a lot better.

In Summary
Common side effects of Aplenzin include: dizziness, insomnia, nausea, pharyngitis, weight loss, and xerostomia. Other side effects include: agitation, arthralgia, migraine, palpitations, skin rash, tinnitus, tremor, anxiety, asthenia, chest pain, confusion, hostility, hypertension, myalgia, pruritus, urinary frequency, vomiting, anorexia, diaphoresis, dysgeusia, and flushing. See below for a comprehensive list of adverse effects.
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