Did you find a good book?
bizi

I finished one that I had already started. I don't know what to do. Marci was on the phone so much yesterday and it really gets on my nerves. With this agency it is hard to get help. Marci does a lot of things right, I am afraid if I confront her she will quit.I can't stand it. Woke up with a stomach ache. just ordered some tea that might help. I am so miserable.
Love
bobby

I have another book to read on the kindle. I finally had the guts to try my new
toothbrush. it has so many settings. I took an extra klonopin which means 4 mg.
I have just been shaking..

Paranoia can be a symptom of bipolar disorder. It also frequently occurs in other mental health conditions, such as schizophrenia . Paranoia's definition can range from describing a relatively mild feeling of discomfort to an intense, extremely distressing pattern of thinking that indicates a person's mental wellbeing is at serious risk.

I am really irritable. I am even more upset about Marci's being on the phone so much. On Monday i will tell I a very irritable and have so many issues. I will tell her her being on the phone really triggers and tv and music doesn't tune it out.
I will tell her just use it for work or doctor's appointments and use other clients for the other calls. If she quits then I might even get somebody worse. I just can't take it.

sorry you are having a hard time right now.
(((((((HUGS)))))
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bizi

I think I will call my caseworker. I am so lost.
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bobby

I just spoke with my caseworker and told her about Marci. She said she will find me a new one. It might take time.

I am sorry .....
(((((((HUGS)))))))
love you
bizi

I feel relieved.
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bobby

Marci just called me to see how I was/ I didn't have the guts to tell her my caseworker was looking for somebody to replace her.
I am so depressed/ At least my stomach doesn't ache.

i am so confused. I don't know whether I should ask Marci to not use the phone when she is here. I am going to call the social worker again.
I also think I might start going again the senior center for meals. It is down the street. I know the isolation is partially to blame for the depression.

distraction helps with depression from what I have heard.
Isolation is awful.....
being around other people can take your mind off of your worries.
Taking to strangers is a distraction too.
and You might make a friend!
I think it is a smashing idea!
love

bizi

I am getting upset about the confrontation with Marci
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bobby

Maybe with Marci out things will improve.

I don't think so and she tends to be bossy. I also can't stand what she calls me. I just want to be bobby. In the middle o the night my depression was so bad and I had such awful thoughts. I felt so hopeless. My stomach keeps on bothering me to make matters worse. It was all so unbearable. Now I feel we are in a dictatorship and am terrified that he can win again.Most people are so selfish,evil and dumb.I am having now a hard time watching msnbc.

The democrat's need to come up with a good candidate!
bizi

you are right but who?
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bobby

I'm not worrying about which one.
Whoever wins the primaries will have the support of the Dem voters and DEM strategists.
That's my hope.

I decided what to if she has use it do it in the hall and close the door. I will also tell her to call me Bobby

Bobby, I hope you have a good day today!
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bizi

thanks. the antidepressant isn't working that well today. I am scared about Marci tomorrow and what she will say and do. I rode my bike today and plan to walk two blocks in an hour and then ride the recumbent bike again today. Besides helping me to build up what little endurance I have it will get me out of my apartment and maybe it will act as an antidepressant. Maybe having a goal will help too.. I sort of feel all alone in the world.
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bobby

Remember god s with you.
rely on that.


we are here too......
and your kitties need you.
I am sorry that you are suffering.
glad that you are making an effort to combat your depression.
because meds are not the answer 100% of the time.
love

bizi

you are right! Thank you. I have bee petting them a lot today.
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bobby

That's amazing about the bike, Bobby.


I'm glad that you have your cats.

it is a recumbent bike so it is so easy to use.
bobby

I still have marci. I told her I called her agency and they said she can't use her phone phone at work. I told her that and she said why did you call me and she knew that.She said she had to speak to her mother and I said do it at another clients. I didn't feel hostility come from her. She stopped working early but I didn't say anything.
My stomach was killing me.. Robert is coming over today. He thinks my software is corrupted. It took me 15 minutes to turn on the computer and I unplugged three times and couldn't get it to work get it work.
love
bobby.

oh I hate confrontation.
((((((HUGS))))))
love bizi
sorry about your phone!:(

I hate confrontation too! I hope Robert can fix my computer.
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bobby

I'm sending hugs, I hope your computer is fixed soon :grouphug:

my friend Robert is a computer genius. He loves challenges. On one site the page wouldn't print. He fooled around and got it to print. It was their software
mistake. He resolved another problem so my6 computer and hard drive will never go to sleep and he cleaned my ooma!
if I can get myself to walk further I can go walking with him and his dog. I had a stroke a few years ago.
Bobby

i took my taxes to the accountant this morning. I got so nervous because I didn't see how to open the door.finally found it but my anxiety went through the roof. I took 2 ore mg of klonopin so that is four mg. i am still highly anxious ad am having control over my hand.

Good luck with your computer.






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I just had trouble signing into the computer. I had to use the phone option to change my password. I don't know what I was doing wrong. Now I am highly anxious. Since Robet worked on the computer it is much faster.
bobby

I am glad that your computer is faster!!!!!
love bizi
Happy valentines day bobby!

Happy Valentine's day to you too! If it isn't too cold my friend Joyce is coming over to clip off Pudges matts.
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bobby

yesterday my paranoia went through the roof. I convinced myself that I was probably going to have am operation because I had no urge to go to the bathroom and then as usual I woke up in the middle of the night wit cramps and thought I had stomach cancer. I think since Suri died I had cramps in the middle f the night. This morning I went and was so relieved. I looked up the symptoms of stomach cancer and had very few.
Then Joyce said that.Pudge had an eye infection and I should her to the vets. I don't see it and I hate to spend the money but I am so worried in case Joyce is right I will take her.
My stomach is still upset from the laxatives. I bought a lot of ginger for my stomach and now have to throw it out because it inteferes with my diabetes medication.
my anxiety is still threw the roof. i might take an extra klonopin. i don't know what to eat.I finally had bought some steak but the next day is when I had no urge to go. I will throw it out. i am so exhausted.

the porter saw a little pus so I will take Pudge to the vet. My stomach hurts

I am sorry about pudges eye....hopefully it will be something doable for the treatment...of course he will hate it!


sorry your stomach hurts.
I never heard of ginger being bad for diabetics?????


the exlax pills 25 mg is working for me.
occasionally, if I have not gone for a few days then I will take 2 then I usually go...but that is not often. I still have constipation some times and it hurts which I hate but at least I am going on a regular basis.
bizi
sending some warm thoughts your way.
(((((HUGS))))))
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bizi

i hate constipation. i started taking phillips again and sometimes magnesium citrate. i just started ducolax..
pudge has been sleeping with me all night. i feel so rotten and exhausted.
love my g.i. doctor as I have mentioned thinks I have IBS.

Ginger and diabetes medication
Ginger might increase your insulin levels and/or decrease blood sugar. Diabetes medications are also used to lower blood sugar. Taking ginger along with diabetes medications might cause your blood sugar to go too low. Monitor your blood sugar closely.
Ginger Effectiveness, Safety, and Drug Interactions on RxList

last night and today I have been jumping out of my skin. I took 8 mg of klonopin yesterday and I pal to do the same today.