I hope that you sleep better and better. You have a lot to catch up on sleep wise.
(((((((HUGS)))))))
love bizi

thank you so much. Do you think I can catch up on sleep after all this time? I didn't use the lavender last night because I was so tired all day.
When I got up this morning I had a sense of well being. It didn't last long but I haven't had that feeling in so very long.At first I didn't recognize it. I am going to see what essential oils are used to help you lose weight and appetite. I will look more about depression and anxiety. Maybe I can get some quality of life back. I am just going to turn on some music and try to fall back to sleep.
love
bobby

I spent a lot today again. More books, bones for danny, toy for kitty cats and more essential oils and another diffuser and one to wear around the neck. This afternoon I am using rose essential oil and it is helping me. I am reading now!
My mood is okay.

Sounds good, Bobby

I will be going to Kokomo tomorrow after Derrick goes bowling.

Then I will be back on Monday evening, which is Dan's 38th birthday.
I'm hoping Dale remembers and takes him out and does something
with him. I will later. Two of my sisters aren't doing very well right
now. And I'm going to see them and my other sister.

One is having back surgery next month. And I'm worried that all this time
off with all the other things she has had go wrong this year. Is really getting to her. I wish I had more time to spend over there. But we will see.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I am so sorry about your sisters. What is wrong with the other one. How far is Kokomo from where you live? Wish Dan a happy birthday.
fondly
bobby

Bobby
My other sister is getting ready to have psychological testing for her
memory. She believes its getting lots worse, she seems to me to
have very good memory still, but I don't know. Its hard to tell.

She is the one that has been on lots of different medicines for bipolar
so its hard to tell. We will see what happens.

She is like 49.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

oh wow. i hope she comes out fine.
fondly
bobby

i think the essential oils are working. for two mornings in a row I got more sleep and for a brief moment had a sense of well being. i really like bergamot.

Helps Relieve Depression
A study published in 2011 stated that the components of bergamot oil, like alpha-pinene and limonene, are antidepressant and stimulating in nature. [3] By improving the circulation of the blood, they generate a feeling of freshness, joy, and energy in case of sadness and depression. An article published in the Phytotherapy Research journal in 2017 revealed that the hormonal impact of this essential oil is part of the reason that it is so powerful in these neurological and mental conditions. [4]


Helps Lower Blood Sugar Levels
Bergamot essential oil also helps stimulate hormonal secretions, thereby helping to maintain proper metabolic rates. This stimulating effect also increases the secretion of digestive juices, bile, and insulin. This aids in digestion, proper absorption of nutrients, assimilation, and decomposition of sugar and the resultant lowering of blood sugar.

Relaxant & Sedative
The flavonoids present in bergamot oil are very good relaxants as well. They soothe the nerves and reduce nervous tension, anxiety, and stress, all of which can help cure ailments associated with stress such as high blood pressure, insomnia, and depression. [8] They can also stimulate the activity of certain hormones in the body like dopamine and serotonin, which induce feelings of relaxation and sedation.

Aids in Digestion
Bergamot essential oil activates and increases secretions of the digestive acids, enzymes, and bile, thus facilitating digestion. [9] It also synchronizes and regulates the peristaltic motion of the intestines and in this way, it quickens the digestive process and reduces strain to the intestinal tract. In this way, this essential oil can reduce constipation, make bowel movements regular, and prevent gastrointestinal complications. Moreover, as mentioned in a research published in the School of Health, The University of Northampton, UK, bergamot essential oil helps in keep the gut healthy and lower the risk of food poisoning. [10]

I am glad that the oils are helping you. It sounds so helpful!
bizi

I am really am amazed. today off and on i had a sense of well being!
love
bobby

Bobby

I'm glad too. Hopefully it will keep getting better and better.

Donna

I got about five or six hours of sleep.Today I woke up very frightened. I am still
overspending and overeating.Yesterday I really felt good. Had trouble reading again. My eyesight isn't that good. I just went to my eye doctor.

I wound up feeling good most of the day. Fell asleep during the debate. I feel so empty now and so depressed. Bought Marci a pretty top and it came when she was here. She liked it. We went to the bank and I used her arm for support besides the cane. Rested there for a while coming and going. I found a ripped one hundred dollar bill in a drawer. At first I only found half of it.looked some later and found the other half.I don't take out one hundred bills so I don't remember how I got it. Also found half a twenty but haven't found the other half. Over ate again but don't want an antipsychotic.
abby is getting friendlier again. think I go to the g.i. doctor today.
I am losing it.

I am still feeling so sad. At least I got a few more hours of sleep. I got on the scale. My balance is so bad I usually get a few errors before the digital scale works. I was afraid I had gained a few more pounds but instead I lost another pound.I have just been constantly eating and overspending. A lot of it has been plain popcorn.In the middle of the night I bought something else. at least I didn't buy another essential oil.
I really want to learn more about essential oils and the emotions. They help identify psychological moods that I guess constantly are bringing me down. A lot were because of being bipolar most of my life and not knowing it like self acceptance.
I need o read my romantic historical novels. I think the reading does something to the chemicals in my mind. I am going to search and see there is anything on the internet that possibly explains that. I might try to learn reflexology.
take care you all

bobby

Reading is a wonderful stress reliever. It is soothing and takes the focus away from your troubles. The more positive and engaging the material, the better you will feel. It is an escape from the struggles of everyday life, landing you in another world, seeing things from a different perspective. Whatever your interest - romance, fantasy, inspirational autobiographies, spiritual, travel, or even favorite from your childhood, it can lift your spirits.

According to the same study by Emory University, reading not only heightens the connectivity in the temporal cortex, but it also increases activity in the central sulcus of the brain, or region responsible for primary sensory motor activity. When we read, neurons in this area of the brain activate to create a
sensation of not just reading about the action of the book, but experiencing the sensations it is describing.

What Does Reading Do To Your Brain? These 5 Effects Are Pretty Astounding

How Reading Affects The Brain Is All Sorts Of Fascinating, According To Science

just came back from g.i. doctor. he gave me a sample of trulance but doesn't have any hope for it. he said I do have IBS. since i don't have much protein he told me to get vegetable powder. He is so nice. he said popcorn didn't give me
nutrition. he said i might want to try cbs or whatever it is called for my emotions.

I think he meant CBD....a hemp product.
supposed to be good for all sorts of ailments.

love,
bizi

you are right. I bought some gummies.
love
bobby

I bought some CBD at a health food store:

1 water
2 gummies
3 capsules


But I'm reluctant to try it except for one little gummie that I did not notice at all.


Tomorrow a guy is coming to my workplace for a talk /presentation about CBD water.

M

I never heard of water. It would really be nice if they helped. I ordered the gummies from amazon yesterday. Last night I was so upset I opened a bottle of wine. That helped big time. I just threw out the rest of the bottle. I drank almost half of it.
I hope you are feeling better!
fondly
bobby

trulance worked. It is an expensive laxative and my doctor has to call my insurance company to see if they will make an exception and approve it.
I read yesterday that bipolar causes more brain damage as you get older.
Last night was just so very bad. I am so depressed.

I didn't know that mica and joe were married morning joe
Elijah Cummings officiates at 'Morning Joe' co-hosts' wedding - Baltimore Sun

i lost my beautiful gold necklace i put in on yesterday when i went to the doctor's. i just noticed i am not wearing it. it was worth a lot.
i just found it!
i am jumping out of my skin. I just put on bergamot and I am going to add lavender.
I am losing it

I am glad that trulance worked for you.


so sorry that you had a bad night.
You must be thrilled that you found your necklace!
love to you today.
bizi

it really worked and it felt natural! I hope my insurance will approve of it.
I felt so relieved about necklace!
love
bobby

Bobby

I hope your insurance will approve of it too. I'm so glad you found
your necklace too.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thank you so much. I really hope they approve it. I have been laxative dependent for about 12 years since I started taking medication.
fondly
bobby

it worked again and I knew it was going to work. He only gave me a week's supply. I hope I get it. It would solve a huge problem.
Today I am going to try to start controlling myself and stop spending. I am so scared about how much money I am spending. Yesterday I bought more glasses and another rack for the essential oils I have been buying. I am not going to go to ebay and be tempted. I won't go to amazon. I have already spent a lot this billing period. I am not going to buy anything else for Marci. I don't have any doctors' appointments for a while so no cab fare. One of my friends said she wanted to invite me over for dinner and that I could take a cab going and she would drive me home. I was so touched. She is my friend who called me after 24 years. In a bipolar rage I had something horrible.
I have stopped buying toys for Danny and Prince. I still have a lot of bones for danny and I bought some more meat for him. I will wait another week and then give it to Robert. I will probably give it to him every other week. I think I will stop with amazon music and just rely on youtube. I am really scared. Yesterday I ate a lot again. I am just going to eat more eggs.

[QUOTE=mymorgy;1280481]I didn't know that mica and joe were married morning joe
Elijah Cummings officiates at 'Morning Joe' co-hosts' wedding - Baltimore Sun


Good news on finding your gold necklace.

Joe and Mica had spouses / children so they had to wait to get things straightened out with their first families. -- that's sort of what I remember
anyway.


M

I just took a topamax, I thought I had some leftover risperdal but can't find them.At least I found some topamax. My psychiatrist had taken me off them. I did more spending this morning. I quit my amazon music thingie and joined the more expensive youtube premium.
If the insurance won't cover the laxative I will apply for a patient assistance- I could possibly get it for free. My income is so low. I am going to try to wait to see the psychiatrist now that he doesn't take medicare. I think I need to go on risperdal. This overspending is terrifying.

won't take anymore more topamax. scared of two possible side effects and interactions

I am glad to hear that you think the risperdal would help you....I think you are right.
((((((HUGS))))))
love

bizi

I have really gotten worse. My spending is out of control. I just picked up the packages I bought. so many essential oils. no more of those. i wonder what triggered all this spending. I can't read for long. I have been on the same book for a long time and really like it but can only read a few pages at a time.before i could read a book a day. so unlike me. i will take a bath soon.
love
bobby

i have these Bipolar Disorder: rosemary, cinnamon, lavender, ylang ylang, basil, rose, thyme, mint, eucalyptus, bergamot, frankincense and will experiment more. just bought some cheap dog toys

bought another pair of glasses-cheap and pens

all this spending sounds manicy....what about starting back on the respirdal?
love,

bizi

you are right. I have spent so much money on essential oils and have been spending money on organizational storage containers. right now my apartment smells of roses. I think they help with my anxiety, depression, emptiness etc. I stopped buying clothes. My friend might come over with her dog next week. I haven't seen her in over three or four years. She spends most of the time in the Hamptons.. If she does I would like to give her some toys. thank God I no longer feel like drinking. I haven't had any stomach problems in a while. I don't know know when I find out if I get approval from the insurance company. Otherwise I have to fill out the form for patient assistance which I hate doing.
I hate spending the money on the psychiatrist and the cab fare. Now I am nonstop listening to music on premium youtube so it doesn't stop..I thought I was going to get together with a friend today but she hasn't called. Another friend who just had knee surgery was supposed to call me back yesterday but hasn't. I don't feel like calling her back. Right now I am listening to whitney houston sing I will always love you. so great..and eating plain popcorn. so manic
love
bobby

now i want to go in the opposite direction. good will is coming to this building on the ninth. I think i am going to throw out most of my shoes sweaters and a lot of tops. they haunt me

my friend just called who yesterday said we could do something and didn't call. that hurt so much! I told her I couldn't talk because I felt so rotten.
My friend from Israel Suri hasn't called. When I am searching for information on essential oils and find things on cancer I send them to her, She uses essential oils.. i told her I was confused whether or not I should send her what I find because I don't think she should think about her cancer.
If Kathy calls now I will tell her I am too upset to speak. I hate being hurt.

my prescription for trulance was approved but he sent it to the wrong pharmacy. I am getting today. relief

I finally haven't overeaten today . It has been a while. I am getting in touch with a lot of anger. I don't think I am going to take a friend out for her birthday. She said she was going to take me out for mine and she didn't. She has so much more money than I have. All along I have been giving her things and when she offers to pay I say no. Now I will probably give her some laxatives which cost me twenty dollars. I have given her shoes-nice ones- that are a little snug. If I take her out I will feel like a smuck since I treat her better than she treats me.I think I am going to wind up with no friends. Maybe it is better if I just read, listen to music and play with my kitty cats and not be triggered. This last depression was so painful. Today I have even been able to read.I think I will be able to finish the book tonite. I'm listening to Graceland. so wonderful. I wrote to another friend and just told her positive stuff without anything negative. I just saw that the prescription was delivered.
My apartment smells of rose which is very nice. With the music and kitty cats I don't feel alone. Maybe the anger has been triggering all the mania.

I am glad that you have your kitties to love.do you have a difuser for the room?
bizi